[Afterglow13]

Hi there.

My name is Afterglow, and I've been dealing with Bipolar Disorder Type 1 for six years. I've had 9 manic episodes and 8 depressions. Right now I'm in a strange phase in between. I would like to meet people like me and get support to prevent my 9th depression. I'm beginning to feel depressed despite the fact that I have family, my partner, friends... I'm studying at University and I'm becoming a well known musician, so all that's great. But nobody knows what it means to hallucinate because of mania. Or to try to kill youself because of depression. I truly know what it means to suffer, and I'm quite young. I had a very good childhood, but after that, my life has been very difficult. I'm afraid. Every time I feel decent (I'm slightly hypomanic+depressed but everyone says I'm finally fine) there's this chance I'll get depressed. And then there's regret. All those negative feelings: why did I say that when I was manic? Why did I behave like that? Urgh, I hate myself. That's what feeds my depression. I just hope I can belong to a community that accepts me for who I am and supports me and my family during the ups and downs of my condition.

Also, if anyone needs any help, I am more than glad to give advice. I know a lot about BD and how to deal with the different phases. And, not just that. I know it's important to be there when you're not feeling great. Just to be there, and to offer support.

So there you go, that's me. I hope I get to meet some of you!

[Guiness187055]

Welcome to PC. I have felt your pain.

[boogiesmash]

Welcome to pc. I have been having. Along depression episode with few hypo moments in between. Feel free to post or ask anything here.

[Tucson]

Welcome to PsyvhCentral! I think you will be a valuable member of this community. I hope we can be the same for you.

[Wild Coyote]

Welcome to PC and to the Bipolar forum.

I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.
Please make yourself at home here.
I hope to see you around the forums.


WC

[Shazerac]

Welcome to psych central

[Afterglow13]

Thank you very much!

[Daonnachd]

Bienvenido

Tenerte aqui anade mucho al foro.

Me encanta Granada. Que suerte vivir alli.

For the angloparlantes:
Welcome.
To have you here adds much to the forum.
I love Granada. How lucky to live there.

[*Laurie*]

Welcome to PC

[Victoria'smom]

Welcome you'll find great support here.

[liveforsummer]

Welcome to PC!

[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC.

I hope this place is just what you need. Welcome and best wishes for a successful life. (((Hugs)))

[hopeless2015]

Welcome and hugs

[Afterglow13]

I also wanted to mention something that's been going on.

I have a partner and everything's going great. But he has these moments when he feels very down. And I don't really know what to do because I'm unstable in general myself.

Sometimes he gets really sad and negative and I try to help but nothing gets to him. I told him some advice I gave in another thread, about trying to follow a star. It's my favorite piece of advice. He simply dismissed it. He said it was beautiful but that it didn't apply to him.

After a few hours or days he stops feeling down and everything is fine. I think he should seek profesional help but he lives somewhere where there is a lot of stigma and he feels uncomfortable.

I love him and I don't have doubts about the relationship. The doubts are about what to do when he's not feeling well. Because not only do I feel bad for him, but I start feeling bad myself and I'm a Univerity student who needs to focus. I'm also a musician and when I'm not feeling great I cannot compose.

Any advice?

Thanks

[~Christina]

Welcome to PC ! You will find this place a accepting supportive place to be around people struggling with the same issues as you are.