[bizi]

Well,
I have an appointment to see my MDOC on monday.
The new pdoc(that I am thinking about switching to) only takes new patients with referrals. So maybe I can get one from her on monday?
She is a psychologist with prescriptive privileges, So she can provide therapy as well as med management. And she takes my insurance!
This is a big step to change pdocs...I really feel like it is time. Although, I don't know if the new pdoc will prescribe naltrexone for me. That could be a deal breaker.
Will see if it all works out.
I made an appointment to see a PT for my neck and back.
I figure since I have met my deductible for the year I should take care of things that I have been meaning to do.

We went to halloween attractions this weekend and it was fun!
Went with a girlfriend tonight and she screamed quite a lot, it was great! The 13th Gate and it is located in batron rouge. Had my favorite dish at the chimes, New Orleans BBQ shrimp, with a corn grit cake in a peppery butter sauce. yummy!

Need to do a load of laundry and billing tomorrow, behind again.
sigh
bizi

I actually opened the mail. I haven’t done that for months. It is OK, I have the bills on autopay. This last bout of depression and anxiety has been really rough. It is getting better.

I vacuumed one room. Progress

[Pookyl]

I'm wobbly. A gust of wind could blow me over into either mania or depression.

[wildflowerchild25]

Buuut I’m still not asleep, but it’s cool bc I’m talking to my friend (shout out to boogie!). Who needs sleep? Not me.

[liveforsummer]

Be safe wildflower

[liveforsummer]

Losing my mind. Third night of bad sleep. Read lamotrigine can affect sleep -insert image of me ripping hair out in frustration- gonna go see pharmacist today for suggestions then have appointment tomorrow with new T (yay, never had one before so hope this helps too). If all fails I’m call pdoc let her know the imovane doing s*** and see what her answer is. (I hate to call her so soon after appt last week makes me look needy- maybe I’ll get my husband to call...)

yesterday because of the latest storm to batter the UK, I didn't have any internet

decided to use the time wisely and actually start packing for my move (I filled 1 box up all ready)

starting with the small things, doing the big things last.

actually feel good. the cooler weather we've been getting is helping with my mood, and I'm actually proud of myself for actually doing something yesterday (not just sitting their complaining about lack of internet!). it's what I usually end up doing.

did miss you all though

I am also (finally), getting round to ordering the headphones I was going to do like months ago

finally found a pair I like

[scatterbrained04]

I have a lot to accomplish today. Hoping my mood holds out. Feel like a yo-yo these days.

Looking back, I tell where I may have been hypomanic before my crash earlier this year.

Think I'm still trying to cycle right now and maybe the meds are trying to work. Maybe that's why I'm all over the place. Generally feel good in the mornings and then it goes down hill. I take most of my meds at bedtime, so maybe they are working in the morning, and I'm crashing as they wear off??

[Gabyunbound]

I wish there were a medication for mourning. I take 3 for bipolar and one for anxiety and not all the meds in the world can prepare you for or help much with mourning. I know I need to see a therapist, but I keep putting it off... I took an extra klonopin yesterday which made me sleep for an extra 7 hours after getting up in the morning, but that's no solution...

[99fairies]

My kids have taken over the house ever since my dystonia returned. I like a clean house but I'm just not able to clean right now. I am beyond frustrated.

[liveforsummer]

Rough morning but feeling more clear headed now. It’s nice out so going to try get stuff accomplished finally. Going to do my best NOT to go back to bed today!!!! Already cleaned fridge, ran, showered, now off to do errands. Then I’m really hoping I’m still motivated to clean the inside of my car later

Hugs to everyone !!!

[99fairies]

Liveforsummer...Good for you! I wish I was so productive.

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok. Handling all the stess of my husband losing his job and having to move pretty well considering I was such a mess just a month ago. We went and looked a place today that I think will work as long as application process goes through. Keeping our fingers crossed. Hugs to all.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m semi calmer today. I woke up jazzed but I put my energy into cleaning. I’ve cleaned the dining room, the living room, and my car. Like deep cleaned. I feel calmer now. I’m afraid the more I sit the more it will build up. I can feel it in my chest. I’m not sure if my mind is racing or not because I’m listening to music. Loudly. It’s keeping me calm. But I’m not euphoric. In fact I kinda feel like crying. I feel uncomfortable, like I have to keep moving or I’ll freak the **** out. I have to sit still for homework.

At least I’m going out later today. Hopefully that will distract me. Being with people calms me down.

[-Astral-]

Went to sleep after church now am listening to happy hardcore and raving like a loon
wwwwwwwwwwooooooooooooooooo

[bizi]

Had a great breakfast....steak left over from wed steak night, this morning then biscuits and gravy at T-Coons restaurant.
Yummy!
Started a load of laundry, need to do billing.
No, I will do billing.
Cool/cold (sweater weather) here, raining.
Hubby wants to put up halloween decorations, tomb stones etc.
With the rain, it will soften the dirt so he will be able to put the spikes in the ground, but it should stop raining by 4pm, the weather forecast predicts.
Have a great day yall!
bizi

[liveforsummer]

Still chugging along! Just put groceries away (after speedy grocery shop with same song on replay in my head and humming along but that’s ok) and am now actually gonna clean car after months of procrastination!! Oh my gosh to be this productive is an amazing feat

Oh and pharmacist told me to take my lamotrigine earlier in the day as it may interfere with the imovane. (At least til I’m used to it) Worth a shot. I’ll take it at 4pm instead of 7 this time and hope for the best.

[Sunflower123]

Having a really bad day. Can’t seem to get my act together and get on the ball. I can’t keep putting off my life until “tomorrow”. Why does it seem so hard?

Sending big hugs to everyone that is struggling.

[Wild Coyote]

Beautiful weather!

Extended family visiting the area. It's foliage season. Peak foliage has just passed.

I am starting to get some relief from depression from Abilify added to other meds. Am hungry 24/7 on Abilify, unfortunately.

I'm starting to see the many things I have "let slide," which is disturbing.

Hoping to enjoy more time with visiting family members.

Love to All!

WC

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really bad day. Can’t seem to get my act together and get on the ball. I can’t keep putting off my life until “tomorrow”. Why does it seem so hard?

Sending big hugs to everyone that is struggling.

I am sorry you are struggling yourself.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Trudging through. No breakdown allowed.
('cause it's all on me... trying to not become homeless for starters) FML.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really bad day. Can’t seem to get my act together and get on the ball. I can’t keep putting off my life until “tomorrow”. Why does it seem so hard?

Sending big hugs to everyone that is struggling.

I am struggling with this, too. Even with starting to have depression lift, I still honestly feel overwhelmed and "blah." I keep thinking things will be better "soon," like "tomorrow." So very many "tomorrows" have passed by.

It seems my new baseline, at it's best, is "blah."

I am self-coaching re: continuing to isolate. I feel so inadequate due to illnesses. I guess I feel some shame for not being a more productive person, esp since I used to be very, very productive... so very many moons ago.

Thinking of you.

WC

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It seems my new baseline, at it's best, is "blah."

I hope you have better days ahead.
There is always hope to fall back on.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[-Astral-]

seeing things ...its kinda funny everyone is dancing apart from the demons

Possible trigger:

they want me to look like them with cut faces but am too busy i got loads to do