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![]() Sunflower123
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#577
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Having a good day. Went and got papa murphys for dinner tonight. We didn't have any trick or treaters. That was lame. I'm amped up had coffee late, lol.
Tomorrow is a busy day, taking my son to appts and I have appts too. Hugs to anyone struggling. |
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My last two days have been really great! I have been happy and felt very confident again. I feel fun and have been keeping busy. Made cookies and went to the kids school for the afternoon activities. Went trick or treating and laughed a lot with my kids. I feel hopeful! If I can stay like this life might be good again.
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#579
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I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow morning; it's a good thing, too, because I've been all over the place. I hate being mixed. I don't know if I'll be pissed of & anxious, or depressed & crying from hour to hour. I need to talk about it, but really need to see my pdoc (not until the 8th, though.) I'm really starting to get nervous about the shoulder surgery I'm having on the 17th. Sleep is suffering. It's not the surgery itself that bothers me, but the recovery. It's supposed to hurt like hell, & trying to do things with one hand will be frustrating. I'll be stuck at home since I won't be able to drive (my car has a stick).
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#580
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Halloween was fun this year.
![]() lots of kids and their families.....a couple of trucks pulling trailers with kids on them. This afternoon, I felt so stupid. ![]() I accidentally left my bag of supplies at my clients house. I had gotten off of my routine. I was trying to lock the door and called the son to lock it remotely. Then I just went to my car and drove off. I did not realize that I had left it there until I arrived at my next clients house and opened my hatchback and it was gone. So i had to call my client back and tell her what happened and that I was going to be late. Then call my 4pm and cancel that appointment reschedule in a couple of days. sigh I hate it when I am human and make mistakes....it is very humbling. I wore all black and a white face mask which jeff had bought and let me use. We gave away a lot of candy. I thought we were going to run out! ![]() We would have had I not bought 90 more organic suckers from the health food store yesterday. any way.... Jeff is busy putting up the electronics and equipment. I asked if I could help and he said no. oh well it has always been his thing. He puts it all up then takes it all down, has a method of storing it as well. I am getting very tired. I should go to bed real soon. bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Hey. Happy Halloween.
Had a decent day. My coworkers all looked great in their costumes. Is really cool that everyone participated and got into the spirit. Played some Halloween tunes to listen to in my classes while the kids were working. Was supposed to go trick or treating w my friend and her kids, but wasn't feeling that great so I stayed in. It was cold out and I was tired. Oh well. I will catch up with them this weekend. I am taking off tomorrow. I have an appt and want to try to catch up on chores and stuff. I'm going away next week and have s lot to do before then. Have a good nite all. Hang in there. L |
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#582
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#583
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I shaved yesterday and read a book for a long time.
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Vinpocetine 30 mg 2x daily Bipolar II Generalized Anxiety Disorder "Only in the darkness can you see the stars." -- MLK Jr. |
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Today is first T appt...have to drive...terrified...in the rain...
I know it sounds stupid but...this is one of my worst phobias. At least I managed to get cleaned up this morning so I don't look so pathetic.
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Endoscopy today... yay...
![]() I'm so hungry, but they said I couldn't eat past midnight, and the dang procedure is at 2:10pm. I'm not nervous about the procedure, but about the results, which I get back on Nov 6th. F_ck. My GP said it's possible my intestine is wrapped around my stomach and squeezing it, leading to upper GI problems. How wonderful... ![]() |
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#586
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Good luck with the drive, WildcatVet. Try to adjust your speed to the road conditions & leave extra space between you & the car in front of you. Good luck with the anxiety.
I'm sorry to hear about the potential problem, bluebicycle! I'm also sorry to hear you have to wait until next week to get the results. Noting like the added stress of having to wait. I'm always amazed at the number of people who put off having endoscopies...They're a piece of cake. As you wrote, the worst part is the prep; especially the hunger. Did you drink chicken or beef bouillon, or eat some sorbet? I found eating/drinking that stuff to help some. Good luck. |
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#587
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I have a tummy bug this morning. I hate throwing up...yuck!
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I am doing well. I am studying Japanese on my own again. I thought a teacher would help, but I realize I used to study Japanese by myself and am not used to depending on a teacher. I also don't have much money to spend on a teacher. My Japanese is fair at best for now but I'm trying to memorize patterns to help me to learn. I have a problem with grammar but know this is due to lack of knowledge. I am used to listening to Japanese now because I listen to the news and other programs. But, my speaking ability has much room for improvement due to lack of vocabulary and grammar patterns. I also don't speak as much as I can when I have the opportunity. I still speak English here in Japan. I have to change this. For now I am happy and will hire a teacher once I gain back the knowledge I previously had. I passed the test for the most advanced level of Japanese. But, I don't put much weight on it because I am not fluent. My goal this time is to be able to use Japanese when I need it. Studying for exams is not too hard for me. But, studying to gain practical knowledge from a language is a big challenge. I don't want to forget English while I am studying Japanese either. This is another problem I had before. It is funny because I started learning Japanese only eight years ago and studied it for only five years before I arrived here. My native language is English, but I would completely blank out when people asked me about difficult vocabulary even though I knew it previously. It shows my brain can only take so much information. I have to use both as much as possible to remain fluent in my native language. I do love learning Japanese and find it a fascinating language. However, it is a extremely difficult language to learn. With my brain, it is even more difficult. I am not bragging but stating reality. My brain is broken and memorization is difficult. I have to continually repeat what I have learned to retain it in my memory. It is a monumental task but I've always liked challenges. I hope to be fluent in a year. I'm at the point where I can completely regress or with much effort progress to fluency. It helps I'm in Japan; however, some people here have lived here a long time and not learned Japanese fluently. I hope not to be in this situation. I can't imagine being in America and not speaking English well. Thus, I am motivated to learn Japanese well because I am in Japan. I have the time now anyways and don't want to fritter it away.
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#589
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Worked around the house with my DH, trying to complete projects before snowfall. I did more today than I've gotten done in 6 months. I think the meds are working well together and am hoping I can have at least 3 productive days a week. That would be nice!
![]() I despise being paralyzed by pain, fatigue, depression! Listening to BB King and Eric Clapton, jamming together. Loving it! ![]() ![]() WC
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Finished my report at work, and proof-read someone else's (yay me).
Spent too much time daydreaming about my life being different (boo me). Got weirdly interested in the difference between HDL and LDL cholesterol at lunch with the usual gang (someone else brought it up), and researched it on my phone while the conversation continued around me. I feel like I am wishing I were someone else. I ask myself why I can't just feel happy... also obsessed about donating to an animal shelter. Honestly I do not know why I am always wishing for a change. It kind of makes me sad, when it is not making me frustrated that nothing is changing. Sorry for whining. |
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I was IP for 7 days and got behind at work. I'm hoping to catch up. IP went pretty well but I wish I had seen it coming.
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I have been very busy today. I mailed a package, picked up an electric blanket, worked with my TV programming provider to resolve some issues, took my ex-girlfriens to the bank, went to my doctor, and made appountment with a medical specialist. My rapid and severe weight loss has me worried, so I decided to seena doctor. I thought all of this was due to stress, but the doctor does not think sol He feels this is very serious and I need to see a specialist ASAP.
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#594
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Took son to his appts. My appt was cancelled. Went to this low key fish and chowder restaurant with my son. Picked up some groceries. It's his birthday in 9 days and he's asking for everything geez, lol. He'll be 22! Pretty low key day...
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#595
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That is good wild, I hope you get your 3 days to. It is very hard and some don't understand.
My son got sick on the bus this morning. There is a hepatitis A, outbreak here in Michigan. Am even more worried about son now. |
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#596
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Awesome my son is 10.
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#597
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I am tired today. I worked from the afternoon until the night. I studied a little. Tomorrow I have a day off and will do chores. The weather was decent today. I am exhausted and will sleep.
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I took my 2 children to school ones sevens. He still does not know it. My little one did not get sick this mourning. I was happy. Went to the store. That's about all oh and meditated.
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There is?? I'm in Mi.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat - He who sings prays twice Ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 600 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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Yeah they have warnings on the news. The warnings are near Livingston and nearby counties. They are telling people to get to the immunization clinic.
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