[Naynay99]

Hey all.
So. Actually had a decent day. Perhaps going on holiday for the weekend is what I needed to get out of my blah mood. Idk.
Did not sleep well last night. Couldn't fall asleep. Got to be around 430/5 am which sucks as I have to be up by 650 am or so for work. So I am a little tired but overall feel pretty good. Yah.
I still have a time bomb waiting for me in the form of my messy house and laundry and dishes and crap. But that will have to wait a bit as I have to finish my Halloween costume! Priorities. Lol

But I did have a decent day overall. My kids were nuts excited for Halloween but it didn't even get on my nerves. So that's good. And I put in a random mix cd to be surprised with the Rescue Me theme song (von bondies?). It is a great song for blasting and singing along to.

I feel a little all over the place lately but I think maybe I'm not as far gone as it thought. Idk. I wish I could motiva Myself to start all the overdue and necessary chores one has to do. I suck wt keeping up with that stuff especially when feeling off. After cleaning and catching up I can pretend to be nrmal and neat and organiz d for a little while and then my true self returns and it all turns to shiit. But I am making it to work every day and not losnj my mind so maybe who gives a fuuck about vacuuming in the grand scheme of things. It's not even a blip on my radar. or maybe that is just my crazy showing though. Bleh.

Anyhow i am sending out some hugs to those of us having s hard time. Keep kicking some BP arse.

[VerMOZZica]

I woke up pretty late today.It`s probably because I went to bed pretty late last night and I kept waking up during the night and early morning. Anyway I feel pretty tired and unmotivated today and I have a pile of things to do today but just can`t seem to get to them.I don`t know it just seems like one of those days.

Hugs to all who are struggling today.

[1978dd]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Had a nice visit with my daughter. Looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays.


As I’ve mentioned, I’ve had two equally bad problems related to my depression. One was the actual depression and the other was the “depressive lifestyle” I adopted with it. The depression is under control. The other is not. I’ve decided to address this vigorously over the next month starting with turning off the tv.


I was invited to a Halloween party tomorrow night and my first thought was no, I’d rather stay home in my recliner and watch politics. Under my new doctrine I said NO, you’re going to that party....no excuses and even if it kills you. Wish me luck.


Sending hugs to all who are struggling.

Best wishes at the party. (((Hugs!)))

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’d rather stay home in my recliner and watch politics.

You too, huh? I watch MSNBC recycling the same stories for hours, not knowing why I'm sitting there watching such a train wreck...

I'm feeling mighty mixed...& other stuff's hitting the fan. I think I just got blown off by a person I thought was a friend, I haven't showered in over a week...& my girlfriend says I'm sleeping in the recliner tonight & will be washing my own clothes from now on. (Why can't I just jump in the freakin' shower???) It's been grey, rainy & depressing here for days, & it looks like it will be like that for a week. All I want to do right now is escape. I always take my meds as prescribed, but just took 10mg of klonopin & a temazepam (my regular daily dose of klonopin is 3mg, so don't get the wrong idea). I don't drink or do illegal drugs, but I want to sleep...Just escape. I know I won't be able to get a good night's sleep in the recliner downstairs, but I can't shower...I'm stuck. The anxiety & depression are intertwined & I can't seem to escape.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by emgreen

You too, huh? I watch MSNBC recycling the same stories for hours, not knowing why I'm sitting there watching such a train wreck...

I'm feeling mighty mixed...& other stuff's hitting the fan. I think I just got blown off by a person I thought was a friend, I haven't showered in over a week...& my girlfriend says I'm sleeping in the recliner tonight & will be washing my own clothes from now on. (Why can't I just jump in the freakin' shower???) It's been grey, rainy & depressing here for days, & it looks like it will be like that for a week. All I want to do right now is escape. I always take my meds as prescribed, but just took 10mg of klonopin & a temazepam (my regular daily dose of klonopin is 3mg, so don't get the wrong idea). I don't drink or do illegal drugs, but I want to sleep...Just escape. I know I won't be able to get a good night's sleep in the recliner downstairs, but I can't shower...I'm stuck. The anxiety & depression are intertwined & I can't seem to escape.

CNN here and I absolutely agree...it’s recycling the same train wreck. Why do I waste days at this? I’d gotten to the point where I sleep all night in the recliner with that channel on all night. Sad.

Sounds like you have a lot going on right now. I can identify with so much of what you’re saying. I’m sorry you are having a tough time and I hope things start looking up really soon.

[Tucson]

I have had a productive day. I have applied for a home equity line of credit. If I provide the little additional documentation they need, I will probably end up getting this loan. This will reduce my outstanding loan payments from over $400 a month to less than $200 a month. I am also cutting expenses to the bone. Together this will make the difference between surviving on my income and not surviving. I also paid my outstanding property taxes due from last year to assist in the loan application. That hurt.

The sometimes excruciating pain from my teeth has stopped for the day. First it was one tooth which then moved to another tooth. The pain has been alternating between the upper jaw to the lower one. I still will have the dentist look at my teeth. Tomorrow, I hope I will clean the bathroom, go to the demtist, and pack some of my late mothers clothing away to be picked up by some charity. This will be a difficult thing for me to do.

[emgreen]

After taking extra meds to escape & get some sleep, I've gotten only two hours & the anxiety won't go away. It's 4 am & I know I'm done sleeping for the night. Tomorrow will be another day of feeling mixed, & now tired on top of that. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep on like this. Complaining won't do any good, though, so I guess I'll just take things as they come. It's just getting very difficult.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by emgreen

After taking extra meds to escape & get some sleep, I've gotten only two hours & the anxiety won't go away. It's 4 am & I know I'm done sleeping for the night. Tomorrow will be another day of feeling mixed, & now tired on top of that. I'm not sure how much longer I can keep on like this. Complaining won't do any good, though, so I guess I'll just take things as they come. It's just getting very difficult.

Thinking of you.

[winter loneliness]

Good day. Didn't walk, but hope tomorrow isn't raining.

[bizi]

I was out cold until the alarm went off.
A good solid 7 1/2 hours total which is the most I have had in quite some time.
I took at her orders:

80mg of geodon
200mg of seroquel
3mg of melatonin
15mg of mobic
.25mg of klonipin

no wonder I was snowed!
I woke up with an occipital head ache that went away quickly.
I need to get going, I have to shower and get ready in half an hour.
I think I will call and tell her that I am running late. To give me more time.
My fingers are still sore after chewing on them at the NAMI meeting last night.
There was an emergency there last night, one of the facilitators was ill and almost passed out and asked to call the ambulance. I froze and did nothing.
Another woman went to his aid...after they called one for him I noticed that he was slipping while sitting up so I went and told him to lean on me to hold him upright.
I freeze up in emergency situations, I am not a very good nurse....
bizi

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by bizi

I was out cold until the alarm went off.
A good solid 7 1/2 hours total which is the most I have had in quite some time.
I took at her orders:

80mg of geodon
200mg of seroquel
3mg of melatonin
15mg of mobic
.25mg of klonipin

no wonder I was snowed!
I woke up with an occipital head ache that went away quickly.
I need to get going, I have to shower and get ready in half an hour.
I think I will call and tell her that I am running late. To give me more time.
My fingers are still sore after chewing on them at the NAMI meeting last night.
There was an emergency there last night, one of the facilitators was ill and almost passed out and asked to call the ambulance. I froze and did nothing.
Another woman went to his aid...after they called one for him I noticed that he was slipping while sitting up so I went and told him to lean on me to hold him upright.
I freeze up in emergency situations, I am not a very good nurse....
bizi

-bizi- sounds like you did a good job. Can you tell me about the NAMI meetings? They have 2 a week at my church and I was thinking about going. Thank you.

[99fairies]

I have been very depressed. wondering if it's from the haldol

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

-bizi- sounds like you did a good job. Can you tell me about the NAMI meetings? They have 2 a week at my church and I was thinking about going. Thank you.

The support group meetings may have different partackers in each group so you may want to try out each group before deciding which one to go to to get to know people. example...one may have more working individuals where as another one might have more students if it is by a university.
I encourage you to go try them. You don't have to talk if you don't want to...just say pass.
Let me know if you go.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[liveforsummer]

Mediocre nights sleep however felt pretty good this morning. Just got overwhelmed mid afternoon. Feeling much better this evening and looking forwarded to seeing the trick or treaters

[Wild Coyote]

The kids are SO CUTE!
Just A D O R A B L E !


WC

I'm a remote copyeditor for a Korean firm.

The horror.

[hopeless2015]

Spent most of today moving. Going to finish up in the morning. I'm wiped out

[Pookyl]

Head is going weeeeee. Something not quite right.

[winter loneliness]

Good day.

[Victoria'smom]

I had a good day. It's my husband's birthday. My son went tricker-or-treating with my sister. Yes he's 6'0" and 15 yrs old but he was invited by his cousin. We went out for dinner. Tomorrow the state comes to inspect our house and it's trashed but I have trouble caring.

[Moose72]

Not many people went out here tonight. I kept my light off.

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Not many people went out here tonight. I kept my light off.

Happy Halloween all not many trick or treated here tonight.

[scatterbrained04]

Decent day today. I managed to stay up late enough last night, so I actually slept until my alarm went of this morning.

Said goodbye to a good employee today (who I happen to like a lot personally too). She left on good terms. I wish her well, and will miss her.

Took my son and niece trick or treating and then passed out candy. It was so cold. I was so happy when it was over so I could get warm.

[fishin fool]

Hello

[ck3416849]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Decent day today. I managed to stay up late enough last night, so I actually slept until my alarm went of this morning.

Said goodbye to a good employee today (who I happen to like a lot personally too). She left on good terms. I wish her well, and will miss her.

Took my son and niece trick or treating and then passed out candy. It was so cold. I was so happy when it was over so I could get warm.

Sorry you lost an employee you like. May you move on gracefully. I took my son out tonight. I froze too. Grabbed some coffee from Mickey As.