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cakeladie · Oct 29, 2017, 03:34 AM

Christina look into breaking your lease early that way you can leave Florida it might help. I also know you want this trip but maybe you do need to go IP and be safe. But I think trying to break your lease is your best bet you might not want to self help any more

~Christina · Oct 29, 2017, 08:34 PM

Saw the Grandbaby today for the first time in 4 weeks. She was adorably cranky. Which was fine I was zoned out for most of the visit, put on the fake smile and carry on.

I have a Pdoc appt the 9th. We are leaving that night to head home for 10 days.I cant move that appt up as I need to get my refills that day or I will run out while I am gone. A few meds would not be a big deal but a couple I need for physical stuff too.

This thread is just proof my mind is a scrambled mess and stuck in a situation I dont know if I can change

wildflowerchild25 · Oct 29, 2017, 08:36 PM

My brain is scrambled too so I have nothing to offer but continued love and support. And hugs. Lots of hugs.

HALLIEBETH87 · Oct 29, 2017, 09:06 PM

I really hate this for you.

bizi · Oct 29, 2017, 09:39 PM

I am very sorry you are struggling.

((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

cakeladie · Oct 30, 2017, 04:42 AM

Christina take it one day at a time and if that doesn't work one hour at a time and if that doesn't work take it one minute at a time. This is what I do to get through the very very bad days. Hang in there we are here for you

~Christina · Oct 30, 2017, 09:01 PM

Eleven weeks !!!! When the hell will /can I stop counting the gawd damn weeks ? Its a constant loop in my mind

HALLIEBETH87 · Oct 31, 2017, 06:15 AM

I wish I could take this for you. It's because you're traumatized. Inwish you could get help.

bizi · Oct 31, 2017, 09:15 AM

yes that is a long time.....
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Victoria'smom · Oct 31, 2017, 10:15 AM

Wild Coyote · Oct 31, 2017, 11:22 AM

HALLIEBETH is right on. You have been traumatized.

I am very sorry that's the case.

Thinking of you and offering healing vibes.

WC

bizi · Oct 31, 2017, 11:09 PM

sending healing thoughts.....
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

99fairies · Nov 01, 2017, 09:57 AM

I'm so sorry that happened to you. I hope you find peace.

~Christina · Nov 01, 2017, 03:49 PM

Soon as I see my Pdoc on the 9th we head North to go home for 10 days I can hold on til then.

Coming back down here? That's going to be tough to keep my shyt in one pile

HALLIEBETH87 · Nov 01, 2017, 07:07 PM

If it gets too horrible just go ip and take a break from life

~Christina · Nov 01, 2017, 07:47 PM

I think once I am back from home I will need to go IP unless this

wretched
situational
mixed
mess
goes
the
hell
away

bizi · Nov 01, 2017, 08:37 PM

So sorry that you are going thru this.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Pookyl · Nov 01, 2017, 08:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I think once I am back from home I will need to go IP unless this

wretched
situational
mixed
mess
goes
the
hell
away

Despite the mess, you've done a great job in continuing to provide advice and support to rest of us.

~Christina · Nov 01, 2017, 10:28 PM

Thank you !

I’m good at giving advice even if I can’t use it myself atm.

Offering support here helps me get out of my own head for a few minutes.

cakeladie · Nov 02, 2017, 04:28 PM

Christina what's that stuff you use to clean microwaves really good?

I am also trying to get you to think about something else. How's hubby ?

~Christina · Nov 02, 2017, 06:44 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cakeladie

Christina what's that stuff you use to clean microwaves really good?

I am also trying to get you to think about something else. How's hubby ?

In an large non plastic bowl fill 3/4 of the way with water and a cup of white vinegar, Heat until boiling in microwave allow it to cool a bit and then heat to boiling again. Let it cool enough to be safe taking it out and wipe the whole microwave with a damp clothe... No scrubbing involved that way.

Hubby is doing okay. Hes on oxygen at night , His numbers are good while he is awake.

How are you hun????

~Christina · Nov 03, 2017, 04:53 PM

6 days until we make a trip up home !!!!! its only for 10 days, I am excited but still not sleeping and the situational stuff still has me totally screwed up.

I wont have much ability to come here on PC due to no internet so you all will finally get a break from my ongoing saga of despair.

rdgrad15 · Nov 03, 2017, 04:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ~Christina

My old friend angry Mania has set in very deep now.

I broke down and took my last ditch attempt to squash it..... Thorazine.

I have taken 3 doses over the last 2 years.

T o t a l f a i l.

The only thing it has done is blurred my vision, Lousy side effect but it will be gone by tomorrow.

"Call or go see your Pdoc" isnt going to help things, so no need for that advice.

This is situational. and nothing that a few weeks of Therapy I couldnt afford anyway is even going to scrape the topic(s) I miss my old Therapist, big time. Hes 750 miles away. He doesnt do telephone Therapy and I think talking to him would make it harder on me to get over all this.

So yeah i'll be a snappy b!tch mentally until whenever;...... already gave my husband the heads up so I will just shut the hell up, I refuse to take things out on people I care about .

Aww I'm sorry about that.

It would be nice if your old therapist did phone calls. That would be helpful.

cakeladie · Nov 03, 2017, 05:18 PM

Not doing to well we will be in Florida later this month. Not looking forward to the plane ride but oh well.

Take care and I am here for you

~Christina · Nov 05, 2017, 07:56 PM

4 days until we head north ! I can’t wait to be back “ home” only if it’s for 10 days.

Coming back down is probably going to destroy me.

I already feel bad about how I will react to coming back for my husbands sake. A sobbing wife in a car for 14 hours isn’t going to be pleasant. I hope that doesn’t happen.

On a side note , I dropped a spoon on the kitchen floor today , it’s in about 5 pieces now.

Can anyone say Rage-y

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