Hello angry Mania

My old friend angry Mania has set in very deep now.

I broke down and took my last ditch attempt to squash it..... Thorazine.

I have taken 3 doses over the last 2 years.

T o t a l f a i l.

The only thing it has done is blurred my vision, Lousy side effect but it will be gone by tomorrow.

"Call or go see your Pdoc" isnt going to help things, so no need for that advice.

This is situational. and nothing that a few weeks of Therapy I couldnt afford anyway is even going to scrape the topic(s) I miss my old Therapist, big time. Hes 750 miles away. He doesnt do telephone Therapy and I think talking to him would make it harder on me to get over all this.

So yeah i'll be a snappy b!tch mentally until whenever;...... already gave my husband the heads up so I will just shut the hell up, I refuse to take things out on people I care about .

Can your pdoc set you up with a T?

It sounds like you are going through hell, Christina.

I am sorry the thorazine did not help.

I also let my husband know when I'm getting agitated. Then, I withdraw some and protect our relationship, too.

You've been through so much this year!
My heart goes out to you.

Please stay safe!


WC

I just want to leave some hugs for you.

Hugs, and may it pass quickly

Ugh! angry mania!

Hang in there. Glad you told you husband. Sometimes all you can do is hang on for dear life and ride it out.

Already stated inability to afford T

(((((Christina))))) So sorry you're going through this. Angry mania is a *****. Hope you'll be on the mend very soon!

How did you get the thorazine? i thought that was IP.

sorry to hear that Christina

Nothing like the beast of a dark mania. May it move out and move on quickly

Sending hugs May it pass quickly.

I hope this passes naturally as you can't get any other help. It will pass, just knuckle ride it though and keep posting as much as it helps you.

Between my psych issues at the time and flat out inability to sleep and my chronic pain, I was on about day 3 of no sleeping IP .

I knocked me flat out and I got a break from my pain..

So we all IP Pdoc, My Pdoc, my T thought we finally found a solution to my inabilty to sleep and allow me to catch a break pain wise.

It worked that first night ! But we all decided to only use it on a last attempt.

I took another dose about 3 months later, only slight help.

I took another dose about 6 months later and I didnt even have an slow blink.

The latest dose did nothing so my hope is gone, gone for Thorazine.

So I will do what I normally do.. Post support on PC in hopes to get out of my own head, Break some ugly dishes and Bytch alot out loud since my husband is out seeing his boys. Im grateful for that.

(((((((((( ~Christina ))))))))))

This sounds just like me when I started throwing **** against the wall! I get angry mania and it sucks. (Trigger). Last time I told my dad if anyone crossed me that day, then I’d *gut* them. Sad part is, that’s really how I felt. Sorry the Thorazine isn’t working. Do you have any PRN benzos?? That’s usually my last ditch attempt. To just sleep it off. I hope you feel better! Scream in a pillow. Punch it. Stab it if you have to. ((Hugs))

Hugs ~Christina

Can
You get some haldol?

I'm sorry you get in these rages too , total suckage.

I have Xanax and Valium. Maybe it's helping a bit ? Or maybe nothing at all?

I have not self harmed in just over 5 years and I'm fighting tooth and nail to not start that horrific mess again

My daughter called after I sent her a text wanting to shave my hair off. She's bipolar so she " gets it"

Why do us woman tend to do that ? Self loathing and hatred maybe ? Or something that we alone can control? I think that is mine, maybe?

I can't let anorexia take hold last time there were talks about feeding tubes.

Sorry I am rambling so much, I just wish I could sleep... sleep away this shytty time in my life

Yes I have an ED too. And though I haven’t self harmed in years, I think I still use my ED in its place. Withholding nutrients in my eyes is self harm. But when we’re feeling this angry mania, our ED may be the one and last attempt to be in control. Just how I see it in me at least.

Wow. You have a lot of benzos. Be careful. They are addictive physically as well as emotionally. Be careful.

Been there. Tried that, another epic fail

Rats!!!!! Hmmmm

Latuda isn't helping at all?

Nope nothing.

Meds don't help the type of situational shyt I have overflowing my plate.

Very true but still wish you could get some relief

Angry mania is a terrible state to be in, and I completely empathize with you. (((Hugs))) I wish I had some good input. It's a roller coaster ride--- this damn disorder and the situations and stressors that arise on top of it all. You always have support here. Keep posting.