Hello angry Mania

I have nothing nice to say.

Sorry you're dealing with that. I've got some agitation and severe irritability going on right now, I'm able to control it and not take it out on people (other than bombarding my poor friends with texts lol, this is essentially agitated/dysphoric hypomania with 15 AWESOME minutes of euphoria earlier) but I'm getting knots in my shoulders and grinding my teeth and clenching my fists. So far I haven't taken much extra meds as I am committed to doing that as little as possible while trying various different non-PRN meds. So I can't imagine how bad it must have been that you took a once-a-year kind of med for it.

My pain is literally off the damn chart !!!!

If this doesnt lift even a tad bit by Monday I am going to be straight up Suicidal and will have to go IP.. and I am fine with that, Least I will be in a safe place.

Ugh Just Ugh

I'm so sorry you are going through this Christina, but glad you have a place here to vent. Much love...

Christina I am so sorry you are going through a difficult time/situation. I’ve read back the past ten pages. I’m not sure what the situation is but I hope it resolves and gives you peace soon. You deserve it and please if you don’t feel safe go in to ip. Vent all you want, you have given us so much, and know we all care about you.

Positive thoughts (((Hugs)))

(((((( ~Christina ))))))


WC

Well my left eyebrow isn’t screaming in pain today... so at least that’s something , eh?

Sooooooooooooooooo

My pain is the same

Here is my dilemma ..

I have a rhuemtologist appt on the 30th Can NOT miss as they are so booked I wouldnt get back in for a couple months. He is the guy that is trying to help my Psoriatic Arthritis pain , and the latest med has done nothing.

I see my Pdoc again on the 9th. Geodon isnt helping yet, too soon to tell .

We are making a trip to our home in Tenneesee leaving the 10th. Maybe that will help all this , Going back home ?? for 10 days or so.. Fall and cold weather and my favorite fall clothes ? sounds silly but Im currently in Florida and it freaking hot as hell here.

So it boils down to I have no time for IP right now, now that I saw my appts on my phone.

Gah I am complaining so much sorry

I prefer to keep all my whining to one thread as I dont want to have a whole bunch of threads about my current mess(s) clogging up the board.

I bet going home would help!
Dress up I. Cute clothes and scarf and
Go to Starbucks for a
Chai

Well somehow I have injured my shoulder Its not bilateral so its not Fibro

Stop the world I want off for a couple days!

I'm so sorry for all that you are going through! You have been so supportive to so many here. I hope you get some relief soon. Big hugs to you

Call dr and see what they can do about new med?

Won’t make a difference, meh

(((((christina)))) I can't imagine what you are going through.

We gotta figure this out

The ragey stuff is due to situational shyt. Im hoping my Pdoc ups my Xanax the 9th, It helps but it wears off to soon of course.

I am mixed ( not horrible yet)

I want to sleep and ignore the world, But no things that I must do I do.

I hope the trip back home will help .. But I think im going to crash when I have to come back down.

Gah I am a whiney mess

Whine away! I wanna hear how you're doing. I think the trip
Home will help for sure. Can you go ip if you need to BEFORE going back to
Florida? Just a thought because I know you're used to that one.
I hope they up your Xanax to help
Out. The 9th isn't TOO far but if you need help before please go

We will only be gone 10 days no way do I plan to go IP , Last go around was 15 days.. I dont want to miss a day from being "home"

Only thing Pdoc might do is up my Geodon which I think has done nothing.. Pffft

Situational Situational Situational

I want to move back home !!!

We are not seeing the kids like we thought , we see them more when we come down x amount of times a year.

My husband wants to finish our lease , til April.

My pain is so bad now that I can’t take a deep breath, eff off fibromyalgia and psoriatic arthritis !

Life shouldn’t be this hard, we all feel this way.

I wish you could just go home

I should be IP but I have a trip home coming up and I wont miss that, for anything.

I have not felt this out of control in a long time. I want to self harm , But I just cant I have been self harm free for almost 5 years I dont want to break that long stretch.

I just wish I could just sleep , sleep away days .. but NO im to angry to sleep.

I really just want to go home, for good I dont like being back in Florida and we arent seeing the kids like it was planned, Plans seldom work out !

I miss my home, even the cold winters.... I miss that and just the quietness of having no neighbors except cows.

Sorry having a pity party for myself.

When are you going to go home for good?

April seems like a lifetime away

I want you to pack up and go home and be ok again. I don't want you to have to go ip but please please no self harm!that could be very bad. You have made it so long without it!
You. Can do this! I believe in you!
Call dr on Monday.