Was I really that messed up?

So I am entering my third month in iop. I do feel I made significant strides. My psychiatrist in the program said start making aftercare appointments and would re-evaluate my in 2 weeks to see if I get discharged. That would take me to almost 3 months and two weeks.

I’ve seen a bunch of people discharged who started later than me. Not that that brought me down, but I wonder how messed up was I? I’m sure some of you remember my posts throughout the months, was I really that gone? I had some suicidal ideations in the summer and slept most of it away. I literally went an entire weekend (three days, I’m including Friday) in bed. Some of it was awake staring at the ceiling, on the iPad, on the forums or asleep. Hell I developed back pain which I attribute being in bed so much. I didn’t get to the point that I had a plan or an attempt (I did have an attempt in 2013, but didn’t sleep as much as I did over summer).

My iop has a “stone ceremony” in your last group. The stone will have some words in it. Then you explain what your stone means to you (the word), then pass it around and other members say what they think that word means to the person and congratulate them.

I kinda don’t want to leave iop. I enjoy most classes in the morning and usually pertains to one of my issues (art class definitely does not, taught me not to be late). I told the p doc I feel I need to build my self confidence before I get discharged.

So back to my original question, was I really that much gone? Thanks for reading this and I appreciate your input.

I didn’t think you were that gone. It seemed like you were in a lot of pain and needed help. I’m glad you got it and hope you feel it was beneficial to you.

I'm glad you went. There are many reasons why someone would come in after and leave earlier. Insurance being one reason.

This is true but I’m referring to the people I’ve seen discharged.

There is no set amount of time .

For instance my IP visits were between 72 hours and 17 days .

It all depends on what you need.

Where you a hot mess ? Yes in my opinion.

Glad your feeling better

My ip stays vary everytime. 3 days to 17. Never know.

I haven’t been on the site very long, but from what I’ve seen you have just needed to talk.

It sounds like you’re in a program that is giving you what you need. I would not worry about what anyone thinks, here or in your program. Take what you need!

I wouldn’t say you were messed up. I would say I’ve witnessed a transformation.

Well I may be two weeks from being discharged. Talked to pdoc and said self confidence is one of the issues I didn’t address. I’ve been doing self care and a routine and feel that might of increased, and (t reinforces not to use but and replace it with and) I feel I need to increase it to be out in social environments and make it easier to get to Kung fu and gym.
That would take me to almost four months.

There are different variables that affect how long you stay. I wouldn't worry about the length of time so much as whether you're improving or not.