"recovery" in progress....

I'm down to 20mgs/Abilify per day, plus a low dose of neurontin when I need it (thankfully, not very often). I'm still doing the vitamins/Orthomolecular protocol, and I do think it helps.

Its odd, though, how people at the clinic talk a good game about "recovery," but now that I've made strides towards genuine "recovery," I'm getting some negative feed back at the place. One lady at the front desk rolled her eyes at me. Another said that I "don't impress her," under her breath.

The public/community mental health clinics seem like a good idea. Maybe they are, a lot of times, but...there's definitely an -obvious- component/aspect of social control. The one I go to has a parking spot reserved for law enforcement. Enough said.

oh well. I've been spared the state hospital. Would have been a nightmare in years past. Now, they've changed the laws and such, plus my parents have "arrived" at a higher social class, so...if I did end up in the lovely state hospital, they'd probably spare me the worst of what goes on there. ugh.

ok. finished rambling, for now.

Sorry to hear about the negative feedback you are getting at a place that is supposed to be supportive. I also think that a lot of what is called mental health care is more about social control than people actually getting better and recovering. There's a perverse incentive because if someone gets better and doesn't need services then business goes away... My guess is also that the burnout rate is really high. Then it becomes like an assembly line job where people lose empathy and just do a job to get a paycheck. There are good mental health care workers and I always feel blessed if I find someone who I think actually cares.

I sympathize. I was put on a new med combo and am stable and not severely depressed for the first time in years. I was absolutely astounded that a couple of my friends are not happy or supportive of my recovery. It threw me for a loop because I’m happy for my friends no matter what. Still coming to terms with it. I’m sorry this is happening to you.

yeah...its...somewhat complicated, I suppose. On the one hand, I do better w/ the abilify and some counseling than I did w/o the abilify. On the other hand, "recovery" is something that is achieved on -their- terms. One must always stay on meds, indefinitely, forever and ever, amen.

it doesn't help that the clinic i go to is so gung ho about the medical model. I'm one of the few "clients" there in long term counseling. I don't go in often--every 8 weeks or so, whatever disability will (thankfully...) cover--but...they try to get people out of counseling and into med management ASAP. ugh.

i dont know what to make of it, honestly. I"m kind of thinking that if they want me to drop counseling and just do med management, I'll try to transition over to a family doctor. I'm not "high needs" or "high risk," plus I don't take any controlled substances or a complicated cocktail, so...why not?