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i think am kinda ****ed up ...unsure if this is the bpd or ocd am obssesed with religion going from one to another over and over again i was looking at pagan stuff but my husband wants me to remain christian so he tried to ban one forum i use but he couldnt because he didnt know the forum wouldnt ban but its banned now as my husband managed to do so i keep changing my mind over and over saying thing one moment then saying something against it the next pricking fighting with my husband over a ****ing forum that was pagan
normally id see my pastor and talk to him about it and normally he helps a lot he on holiday at the moment and i cant get to see him until he comes back on Tuesday unsure if am going to be ok why do i change my mind once and then changing it to something else so fast what the hell is wrong with me ?

this is from a post i posted earilyer on tonight in the BPD forum but i think this maybe bipolar i also have bpd and ocd but the fact i keep changing my mind and i get really worked up over my faith this has happened over the last few day am sleeping could this be me mixed or manic sorry to post twice

[emgreen]

I'd try to get a hold of a therapist or pdoc to let him/her "check under the hood" just in case. Diagnosing oneself is tricky business.

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my p doc keeps saying its a possibility other than that its all she says to me , i dont see anyone else i see her again in 3 months time wish they would tell me what the hell is going on

[emgreen]

Treat the symptoms & try not to worry so much about the label. Bipolar exists on a pretty broad spectrum & none of us are qualified to diagnose anyone!

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yea true ... i kinda feel like am losing the plot husband wants me to sleep unsure took my normal night meds and extra prns unsure if its going to happen have the ****ing dentist tomorrow at noon fun fun fun

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*possible trigger

From what I've heard, BPD can have overlapping symptoms with Bipolar 2 disorder, the biggest difference I believe is Euphoria. So, this kind of feels like being on Ecstasy for no reason, I laugh at literally nothing and can't stop. The universe looks beautiful, music feels beautiful, sometimes I'm so happy I tear up. Another big difference I believe is that emotions change much more quickly with BPD in most cases and will happen directly after someone does something you perceive as abandoning you or rejecting you.

From what I've heard, it's common in BPD for the person to try on different hats (religion, clothing, attitudes etc). Impulsivity, anger, and outbursts can be common. These things do occur in bipolar so it can be confusing even for doctors.

However, I'm not a doctor and by no means am I diagnosing you.