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Dec 13, 2017, 11:35 PM
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I posted that my DH and I are trying to have a baby. So that’s why I’m going off meds for now. I am feeling kind of helpless right now. I know it’s the going off Lamictal as I went from 200mg to 100. It’s now becoming 1x week that I lose it on my husband & things rapidly escalate. I am all over the board, in my head questioning everything. At times I think it’s not me! It’s everyone else!
Is this mania? What is it. I got really out of hand tonight. I hate myself for it. Even though I wasn’t myself. I worry my neighbors can hear the crazy screaming yelling crying. I hate it. It didn’t happen for months, then suddenly it’s hsppening again & it’s so sneaky I can’t see it coming and my husband can’t either. And I end up blaming him (in the heat of things) and then feel so $hit after. I hope I’m not doomed to a life of this. It makes me wonder if I would be a good mother. Even tho I want a baby so so much. I’m exhausted.
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 Dx: BP 2 &/or BPD Rx: Lamictal 100mg “There are no mistakes. The events we bring upon ourselves, no matter how unpleasant, are necessary in order to learn what we need to learn; whatever steps we take, they're necessary to reach the places we've chosen to go.” ― Richard Bach |
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Dec 14, 2017, 01:13 AM
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I went off most of my meds in 2013 to do fertility treatments to try to have a baby. Stayed on lamictal and geodon after talking to pdoc about wanting to have a baby. Caved after one month and ended up in the psych ward back on all my other meds. A baby just isn't in the cards for me and as I've thought about it over the years the major point I ask myself is if I really want to pass these crappy genes on to another human being. I wish my parents hadn't. I know there's not a 100% guarantee that things will go south for a kid, but I don't want to put a kid though what i've been through. Wish i could convince a damn dr to do a hysterectomy but there's nothing wrong with the plumbing and I'm "too young" so they won't, so now I'm stuck on depo provera.
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Dec 14, 2017, 03:52 PM
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All meds initially take time to work so your brain is trying to go back to function with out the chemicals..
I once quit Lithium and it literally took about 3 months for my brain to work and my explosive episodes to go away. Im sure it depends what meds your on and what they are.. Are you going off more than one med at a time? If so maybe take it slower and go one at a time.. Hope things settle down quickly for you.
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