Question about paranoia/delusion?

I have finally started to come out of depression (starting to have more good days than bad), but I notice I keep having extreme paranoia about being poisoned.

This is a paranoia I have had since I was a kid, I think it started when I saw the sixth sense. But lately I've found myself like actually freaking out about it. I don't normally worry at restaurants, it's when my parents make me things. Like if my dad makes me a drink and hands it to me, I have to physically force myself to drink it even though inside my anxiety is screaming.

There is 0% reason to believe my parents would ever poison me they love me more than anything and have been so supportive during my time in the hospital and dealing with my mental health.

Anyways, my question is if this is something that I should call my pdoc about? I don't have an appointment with her until like a month from now. I'm not currently on an antipsychotic because the last one I was on gave me severe side effects. Is this reason enough for me to be on one?

I just don't want for this to be a sign I'm going downhill again and I just ignore it.

I guess this might be something to tell about to your doctor.

I also remember having this kind of beliefs as a child. I thought my mother and sister were poisoning my food and that my parents had hidden cameras in our house trying to film me.

I think it's better to tell now, when you know it's probably not true that you are being poisoned. It may become more difficult to tell if it becomes more serious.

I hope you will be having more good days and feel better.

Yes, I second what Ralau wrote.

Also people react differently to different antipsychotics so having bad side effects from one doesn't mean the same will happen for a different one.

It could also be the dose. Even a low dose of an antipsychotic can bring about a great deal of relief from paranoid thoughts. My main one is that my house is being bugged but I think of it much less, or hardly at all, when I take my zyprexa.

fyi about antipsychotics....ive been on several and had side effects but currently i take two different kinds and im ok. you never know how it will go.

feel better!

I'd definitely talk to you pdoc about it before it gets much worse. When it comes to ap it all depends on the dose and which one you're on. You may not react to all of them and the pdoc may just need to change it until you find the right one with no or little to no side effects.

Good luck and I hope you feel better.

I think it's a good idea to mention it to the pdoc. I get intrusive thoughts like this and usually find it worth talking to both my therapist and/or pdoc. Sometimes a temporary increase in meds (in my case, antipsychotic), even if it's just for a few weeks, can help me get a better handle on it, if it doesn't go away on its own. It is good though that you have some insight and are looking out for "warning signs" to make sure nothing gets worse. Sometimes I debate whether I should just let a symptom pass, or take action, but I think it's better to be safe, rather than sorry.

Thank you all for your replies, I talked to my therapist about it today and will talk to my pdoc about it on the phone tomorrow