What time of the day is hardest for you?

Of course manic/psychotic me and manic depressed me is totally different. If I'm at my baseline, which is just a normal depressed I guess, it's constant.

I wake up at 2:00pm pretty much every day. I feel horrible. I don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to do anything but lay there. I stay there for about an hour. Then I'll feel a little better around 3pm and switch rooms to where at least I'm sitting up. If I'm up for it in the afternoon I will shower or just wash my face. I just feel pretty empty but not horrible. Then everyone comes home around 7:00pm and it stresses me out. There's always a lot of arguing and yelling and nonsense going on. I try to stay in my room and avoid it, but I can still hear it. If it's too bad I don't even leave me room to eat so it's a bummer.

Then everyone is in bed by 10:00pm and I have the house to myself again. I'll grab a snack and some tea and sit in the living room where no one will bother me. I feel pretty okay at that time. I'll lounge around for a bit.

Then around 1:00am I start to feel down again. I for some reason start thinking of every depressing thing possible and how I've failed. It's mainly the same thing every night but it differs occasionally. I tend to make bad decisions at that time.

I'll leave my comfort zone and go cry for awhile. I then lay in my bed awake until like 5am depressed until I fall asleep.

So I guess night is worst for me, who knows.

I'm making arrangements for my s.o. to go to a facility for two weeks. I hope I can recover to normal functioning during that time. I am so depressed I'm not coping adequately for the past three days.

Usually the evenings are the worst. But when my husband works and he only works 2 days a week in the mornings being alone is the worst. Sometimes things are just so boring. I try to sleep when he's gone. Sometimes I can sometimes not. I am getting a little better at him being gone. I was scared to death at first. I probably have only been alone for an hour at the most and he was gonna be gone 7 or so hours. But usually the evenings are the worst.

I'm usually tired in mornings, then I do relatively well for an hour or so, then I get tired and my mood drops a little, and then I get energetic and have racing thoughts in the evening. Sometimes those thoughts are benign, and other times not so great.

I feel worse during the day when I am supposed to be a productive member of society and I am dealing with issues that only I seem to know or care about and I have no good outlet for my frustrations.

I hate the dark. It's dark when I go to bed and dark when I get up in the morning.

The mornings.

Night is when I feel the loneliest.

Even though some people welcome their mania, when mine surfaces at night it infuriates me that I can't calm down to sleep at a decent hour. EVEN when I take my meds, and totally drug myself (I even pop a pill of Melatonin on top of everything else), they don't work!

It's the most frustrating thing ever.

Evenings and nights when I lay awake with my thoughts racing.

For me it’s in the evenings when the sun is going down. I start to get anxiety. In the morning and during the day when the sun is out and the sunshine is bright I’m happy

Evenings and late at night for me so, I'll try to get distracted or sometimes just go to sleep.