[LadyShadow]

Fatigued because I didn't get enough sleep (That Sex and City marathon late at night didn't help). I fell asleep with the TV on, and only got about 5 hours sleep. Now I am just really hungry and agitated.

Maybe I should take my own advice, and do some self-care, (eat a nice meal and take a shower). But oh god, all I want to do is sit here and waste time on the internet.

Decisions, decisions!

[bizi]

I took a shower!
wrong thread....lol
had fair gumbo for lunch....
sigh
looking for something to do...hubby is going to be spending many hours today with friends at a super bowl party, for guys only.

I had called my girl friend and she invited me to spend time with her family...Don't know if I can do that with strangers/ members of her family that I have never met before. I have social anxiety issues.
Maybe I should clean the house?

Jeff is making mango salsa, I love mangos!
bizi

[Cocosurviving]

‪Two events to attend today. I’ve practiced coping skills. ‬They will be lots of strangers. I told myself I would try new things sometimes. I’m feeling really good. My mood is relaxed.

[Unrigged64072835]

Had a dream about a person I knew in high school. This wasn't a good time in my life, with borderline traits and untreated bipolar running rampant. It's been bugging me for a while. I faced the reality and feel rejected again. It was a wild streak I had until my current marriage. Don't know why my mind pulls up this crap. I don't have enough drama in my life, so my head does this for me.

Otherwise it's been a good day. Finished some more homework, so I have one final project and the app exam. The password for the final exam comes out the 26th so I'll have a couple of weeks to study.

Did laundry and wrote more poems. Also played with some music loops and made a little ditty. My creative side was happy for a while.

Right now I'm kind of unsettled, but I'll be okay in the long run. I've got a lot to be grateful for.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

‪Two events to attend today. I’ve practiced coping skills. ‬They will be lots of strangers. I told myself I would try new things sometimes. I’m feeling really good. My mood is relaxed.

HOw do you practice coping skills?
bizi

[Cocosurviving]

I inboxed you let me know if you have any other questions

[Cocosurviving]

Hey everyone.....I survived the first event. My brother and girlfriend are having a boy.

[Unhinged88]

I am tired. Tired of trying. But I have to keep trying because maybe one day, it will be for something. Right? If I keep repeating it maybe I will believe it 100%

[BPQuestions]

Ive been all over the place lately. I feel good but my life has been a mess. So it just throws things all out of wack.

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok, a little grouchy today

[Cocosurviving]

Had a good visit with my therapist. I’m starting to feel more relaxed around him.

[xRavenx]

I am still upset with my pdoc. She sticks her nose in my financial matters, asks intrusive questions, and wants to take charge of different areas in my life. I wish that I could call her right now and tell her how I am feeling, but I am afraid that she will write me off as "unstable." I hate being treated like a child. It's just a horrible feeling, and I am angry. I wish that my next meeting with her was closer...it's second week of March. Maybe it's a good thing it isn't closer though, since sometimes she'll think I'm "less stable" when it comes to wanting to schedule earlier.

By the way, the electricity is off. Waiting for the power to come back on.

[Moreta]

I went to the podiatrist today. He cut off most of my pinkie toenail cause i hit it on a space heater and it wasn't attached and cut the side off my big toenail cause it keeps getting ingrown. It didn't hurt but it's starting to hurt now cause the lidocaine is starting to wear off. I have to go back in 2 weeks so he can check on both nails. I might need to have my pinkie toenail removed if it's not attached anymore.

Mood is fine and I'm hungry asf. I got meatloaf in the fridge and I found a pizza I can eat at publix. I'm really tired. Somebody that I'm friends with contacted me about trying this supplement stuff that's supposed to help with energy and stuff so she's going to give me some samples. Maybe they'll work. Idk. It's something I've never heard of before. I'll let y'all know how it goes. She said it's $40 for a months supply.

[Unrigged64072835]

Finished homework and did another load of laundry. Made chicken noodle soup for lunch, wrote some poems, put away dishes, picked a chicken, vacuum sealed the chicken and the sausage my husband cooked. Joined an online writing group. Still have to make dinner and plan meals for the week. Whew!

Saw T today. I talked about rejection and writing my poetry book. He kind of skirted around giving me advice. I suppose with 6 years of therapy under him he thinks I can figure out the answers. My pnurse's office hasn't called me back with a T intake, so I may have to look elsewhere.

The aqua therapy pool is closed this week so will have to do land exercises. Ugh.

My daughter's birthday present came in today. I haven't opened the box yet, but will do that tomorrow when she's at school. It's something she wanted for years, so I hope she appreciates it. She wants to have this day low-key, saving the 21st birthday "celebration" until her boyfriend's birthday in May. All I know is this present and a Mexican dinner. Her boyfriend usually gives her large stuffed animals, but she's running out of room.

I'm nervous because I'm taking the last app exam tomorrow. Otherwise I'm okay.

Hugs to those who want them.

[Naynay99]

Hey. Part of me is doing okay, coping with a very crappy situation fairly well. Part of me wants to stand on the gas pedal and jerk the steering wheel so I crash my car into a guard rail... the good news is that the former feelings are much stronger than the latter.

And my feelings of anger and frustration are rage are strong enough that I am gonna survive just to spite the universe that seems intent on smiteing me. “Is that all you’ve got?” I scream to the heavens, because I am gonna stick around if for no other reason that out of spite.
Dealt a crappy hand with a potentially fatal physical disease? Please. A mood disorder? Fuuck that. I can handle that shat with my eyes closed. So whoever is up there holding the magnifying glass over me to watch me squirm can go fuuck themself. I’m not going anywheere.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

Hey. Part of me is doing okay, coping with a very crappy situation fairly well. Part of me wants to stand on the gas pedal and jerk the steering wheel so I crash my car into a guard rail... the good news is that the former feelings are much stronger than the latter.

And my feelings of anger and frustration are rage are strong enough that I am gonna survive just to spite the universe that seems intent on smiteing me. “Is that all you’ve got?” I scream to the heavens, because I am gonna stick around if for no other reason that out of spite.
Dealt a crappy hand with a potentially fatal physical disease? Please. A mood disorder? Fuuck that. I can handle that shat with my eyes closed. So whoever is up there holding the magnifying glass over me to watch me squirm can go fuuck themself. I’m not going anywheere.

Gotta love it -- your attitude, that is!


WC

[Tucson]

They dropped my DUI charge. He Hah! Now I just have one more ticket to fight. The clouds are beginning to part showing me blue skies ahead. I am going to order a pizza today for dinner.

[LadyShadow]

Great therapy session today. He was very stern with me about having more self-control with the internet addiction I have, so that I can go to bed at a decent hour, and accomplish my goals for the next day. It was what I needed to hear, I wasn't even offended by it. He also gave me praise for being so relaxed and clear-headed, he said I looked at peace for the first time in a long time.

I have to say the feelings are good, and I shouldn't analyze or worry about it being mania, just embrace feeling good.

[bizi]

Heading to bed, I don't have an early morning appointment!!
I am stiff in the morning on this new bed....can't trade it back in again, did that once already.
My arthritis is acting up in my hips and knees and neck.
I need to get back to the gym and at least walk on the tread mill.
bizi

[giddykitty]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Joined an online writing group. Still have to make dinner and plan meals for the week. Whew!

Saw T today. I talked about rejection and writing my poetry book. He kind of skirted

Hugs to those who want them.

Hi! Firstly, I literally had to do a double take with your signature pic (I've pictures with those colored flowers/plants and butterflies), but it was, of course, not mine. Nice though! Like the colors!

Now then, back on topic. Writing group? poetry book? I'm intrigued! I've been a part of a writing group for a few years now, although I've by no means done very much with my writing, just amusing myself/working out stuff/dusting off the cobwebs, but yeah, have had an upswing again in the last few months and poetry has been something I'm trying to get into...for like the first time. Ironically, I took music writing classes/used to write lyrics, but I never, or practically never, really was schooled much in poetry...but something clicked!

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might as well do my update. Well, I'm still on the antidepressant with my new moodstabalizer (Latuda). It's actually such that I don't need an AD, so I'm supposed to come off of it next week, but I ...well, I've gotta have some faith.
The initial side effects no longer bother me, or I've gotten used to them or they went away. Not too sure what's up, but I am better with sleep and mood seems to be stabilizing. (Menses has put me in sortof a "mixed" state, which is not good when I need to be working on my relationships, but I hope I can push through this phase and get some good news at my next appointment)
Um, what else? Well, yeah, I've got both pdoc and T at the end of the week, so will probably update again around then.
Take care and have a good week everyone!

[bpforever1]

I am feeling tired. I feel unwell. I have a cough that comes and goes. I don't know what will happen this week with my interview results. I still want to work with the innovative school but don't have any confidence that I will be chosen. In any case, I will be ok. I won't expect too much and just go with the flow. I took my medication today and will try to rest as much as possible.

the new channel sony crime launched fine.

I was their for the launch.. midnight this morning. it's an awesome channel so far- lots of CSI and law and order.

feeling good.. so far today I've eaten breakfast and taken laundry out

[Theresa1991]

For the last few days have been feeling very down, crying in the office, but I was expecting this because for the past few weeks before that I was extremely elevated. Now trying to catch this before it gets worse.

[hopeless2015]

Feeling ok. Work is frustrating as hell today! I'm having female issues, periods are out of whack and I'm moody (sorry for TMI). Going to ob/gyn on the 23rd. Hugs everybody!!

[BPQuestions]

Im ok. Tired and a little sad but ok.