Idk if this is a bipolar thing or a PTSD thing or a me thing, but every so often something triggers me and I go from cool as a cucumber to out of control raging in an instant. It's really a problem. I'm not even an angry person in general its not like I feel like I have pent up anger.
It happens when I'm stable, not manic or depressed. I'm scaring the people around me. I feel really bad because it happened this morning and I terrified my cat.
I feel so guilty.

Originally Posted by escapeartist

Idk if this is a bipolar thing or a PTSD thing or a me thing, but every so often something triggers me and I go from cool as a cucumber to out of control raging in an instant. It's really a problem. I'm not even an angry person in general its not like I feel like I have pent up anger.
It happens when I'm stable, not manic or depressed. I'm scaring the people around me. I feel really bad because it happened this morning and I terrified my cat.
I feel so guilty.

I get it all the time, but with the help of this app, I'm almost aware of the pattern and triggers. It's a real god send. I'm not the developer, just sharing what works to keep me in check.

https://play.google.com/store/apps/d...?id=net.daylio

Not spamming by the way

[Guiness187055]

I get it from time to time also. I usually take a xanax if it's real bad and that brings me back to earth.

[amicus_curiae]

You terrified your cat?

Scaredy-cat.

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[LadyShadow]

I totally know what this is like.

My patience sometimes is non-existent for no reason, at the drop of a hat. I just boil at certain situations, when I am usually mostly calm. It could be that I am bipolar, or just as angry as my dad used to be, he used to fly off the handle violently, so I might have picked it up from him.

[wiretwister]

usually I need a trigger ... and yes I scare everyone around me ... terrified might be a better word ... still happens (very rarely) my meds help a lot ... if I feel it coming .. or I am going onto a high stress environment I pour the xanex on ... god bless that little blue pill ...

[scatterbrained04]

I have a tendency to fly off the handle too. It's very frustrating. Usually something will trigger me. Then I'm screaming and sometimes throwing things and slamming doors. I have a hard time calming down. I hate it.

[BastetsMuse]

I used to fly into rages for very little reason, and eventually my pdoc discovered that I have ADD and medicated me for that. Adderall, and then Geodon for a mood stabilizer, completely took away that murderous temper of mine.

[Unhinged88]

It took me awhile to realize sometimes my anxiety shows itself in anger outbursts.

[Victoria'smom]

I fly off the handle Easily. I know my son is scared of me. I wish I could stop but I don't know how without zombiefying myself.

[sonjaward809]

I get like that sometimes, it's usually triggered by something though. Like my brother was being veryy rude to me and I had put up with it for about an 1 1/2 hours before I snapped back at him that I had enough of his temper. My dad and brothers grew up in a violent home though, so I think it's a learned trait I picked up along the way. So usually there's a trigger for my anger outburst but sometimes there's not. I get irritated for no reason, which I chop up to the BP .. but the full blown anger is a learned trait for me.

[Row Jimmy]

Oh I've been there, most recently as a few days ago. I've been having a tougher time than normal lately. I'm out of my routine a bit. My schedule and work load sort of sucks right now......I don't do well when I'm overwhelmed and can't control what I want to do. I find if I can find a smooth groove and stick with it, things are better. For me, it's sleep, diet, and exercise with meditation a few times a week.

[*Laurie*]

Uh, yeah. To me, you've described mania. I'm currently tapering up slowly on Lamictal and I fear that by the time I get to a full dose the only friends I'll have left are my cats because I'm pretty much enraged at everyone else. The anger is like demonic possession. I mean, I can understand why mental illness was thought of as spirit possession centuries ago.

[tsrc78]

I would get very angry outbursts at my mom, more like rage. But she would always try to pick a fight with me, and she just never understood you do NOT instigate arguments with a bipolar person, I will snap.

I get that with my kids sometimes. It could be something very minor they do, but when I’m in that certain mood, it can trigger angry outbursts, much worse than I think a parent would normally say to a child in the same situation. Kids are wonderful, but they are also very stressful, no sugar-coating that. I just pray my girls will remember more of the good times than my angry times.

For whatever reason, my 10 year old “gets it” and verbally tries to calm me down if I have an anger outburst. I think because she has ADHD and she used to be very moody (although a completely different child once we removed one of her medicines). I would explain to her how I was sick and had to take medicine to help my mood, just like she did. But to remember if my moods do get out of control, it’s not because I don’t love them, I love them more than anything, it’s because my illness sometimes makes my moods go out of control. She really seems to understand. I don’t think my 8 year old has that level of understanding yet, but if she hears me crying she will come to hug and snuggle in my lap telling me not to cry, it will be okay. Both of them will. And if my husband is around, he will make me leave the room if my anger at them gets too bad. When they get older I just hope they understand I tried the best I could.

Being a parent with bipolar disorder is hard. . Especially if minor things can bring on anger outbursts. I was of the understanding that this is a manic symptom, that’s what I’ve been told. I’m chronically in mixed episodes, and I think that affects the outbursts.

I'm fairly certain its not caused by mania, since its not accompanied by any other symptoms. Overall I'm fine, except for those hour long rages that happen about once a week. I dont even have to be in an irritable mood for it to happen.

[Jamesbeckett01]

Glad to hear I’m not alone. Sad to hear others deal with this. I’m the same. Placid, gentle, calm. Then something dumb happens, I feel it coming like a tidal wave then explode. It is scary for those around. I lose all control. Ending relationships, not caring about anything or any consequences. Sometimes takes me days to properly get myself back together.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by escapeartist

I'm fairly certain its not caused by mania, since its not accompanied by any other symptoms. Overall I'm fine, except for those hour long rages that happen about once a week. I dont even have to be in an irritable mood for it to happen.

Outbursts of rage can sometimes be mania.

[cuphalfful]

I used to feel like that (I have Bipolar1 with Schizoaffective Disorder) now that I am properly medicated it doesnt happen but I also am a bit zombiefied ... which I prefer to being a mad woman.

Dammit, my dad rejected my conversation invitation, this is a big trigger (rejection) he knows!!! Anyway. I just needed to post this here in case anyone starts a rejection thread..