[Armos]

Hey guys I was hoping I could get some advice. So Ive,seen my psyche nurse today and she told me everything's normal. But my anxiety is already worse than it is I'm about to lose my mind. I can't sleep. I'm losing weight. Im not allowed to go to the ER. I feel dehydrated and losing appetite. I don't know what to do
I've been on edge and I've been having bad insomnia. Just a FWI my weight hasn't been dropping rapidly. I just don't feel like eating. I want to bring it up to my doctor but he wants me to see my psychiatrist instead. My mom's pretty much getting fed up with my problem too. I feel like I'm just going to say it and have my self locked up because no one really gives a ****. Everyone thinks I'm being negative and I'm bringing my self down and then down. My nightmares are getting worse. More vivid dreams etc. Making me afraid to sleep. I'm afraid of dying etc. If I sleep I feel like I'm having a panic attack in my sleep. And I feel like I'm obsessed with obsessing over the word "my anxiety" I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Im trying to get help. But I feel like no one wants to help me at this point. My muscles are tensed and I'm getting migraines. I can't relax. I would see if I could get Dr Phil to help as a last resort. But I'm pretty sure he's got bigger problems to do and I probably can't afford him. But me dragging my family downs not helping either. I feel depressed too. I just feel hopeless. I'm afraid that if I keep this up my family might actually lock me out or kick me out. It's constant obsessing. I just want to get better but that's a crime now apparently. I got a new job but if this anxiety is getting too out of control idk what I should do. And I'm so sick of the nightmares and I feel like a hypocondriac because my parents make jokes about it and thinking about anxiety makes me feel worse. I really don't want to get comitted. My chest hurts and I have a hard time breathing and sleeping and I feel like everyone is pretty much fed up with me and given up on me. I honestly feel like I'm going to die if I don't get help soon. My blood pressure was normal but I cannot control the obsessive thoughts and worrying etc. I went to have Chinese with my mom at lunch and it felt like I was about to have a psychotic mood swing episode but I controlled it pretty well. I've been on edge. So idk what to do anymore. My parents are pretty much Fed up with me and I don't feel like there's hope for me. How can I simply stop what I'm doing and get my life in track? I'm constantly worrying every day it's making me sick and over whelmed. :'( Plus my pdoc refuses to prescribe me a new medicine but my psychiatrist said he could. They got a doctor's in my therapy place. Now I have to change doctors to properly write me meds so I can think properly. Im so frustrasted idk what to do. Every one looks at me like you need to chill, etc. It just makes me more anxious. Mom hurt her self and she screamed I jumped 10 ft in the air had my heart pounding out of my chest making me worry if she was alright. And my family refuses to take me to the hospital. I feel like I'll feel better if I go but they refuse to take me and we argue about it. If I see my proc you got anxiety your ok blah blah. So sick of it I feel like I'm gonna die if I don't get proper help. T_T feeling stressed and anxious is making me not wanna eat or drink it blows. Sorry for venting. Am I just being a hypocondriac in genetal? Man I feel like a mess. I'm constantly worrying about the anxiety it's stressing me out. Idk what to do to take my mind off it. I know I can't get better over night.

First of all, are you on a mood stabilizer? I was on the brink with anxiety when I finally stopped resisting lithium. Most of my anxiety went away with the lithium

I was also prescribed gabapentin—just google gabapentin bipolar anxiety. It is relaxing. I wanted something that isn’t addictive—this isn’t, but it can be abused for the buzz. So, be careful with it.

I previously had propanolol. Some like it for anxiety, but it caused me to have insomnia.

Next, I’ve been in therapy, because changing your thought processes and working on issues is going to help.

I’m going to try EMDR therapy next for Complex PTSD.

[*Laurie*]

The way you're feeling sounds horrible.

Who says you aren't allowed to go to the ER? Everyone is allowed to go to the ER.

What is your diagnosis? If its bipolar disorder your anxiety could be a dysphoric mania. I had that experience and it was sheer hell. But its hard for me to completely understand what's going on with you without knowing what you've been diagnosed with.

[Armos]

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

The way you're feeling sounds horrible.

Who says you aren't allowed to go to the ER? Everyone is allowed to go to the ER.

What is your diagnosis? If its bipolar disorder your anxiety could be a dysphoric mania. I had that experience and it was sheer hell. But its hard for me to completely understand what's going on with you without knowing what you've been diagnosed with.

I have Bipolar II. I got diagnosed with GAD and haven't been sleeping well so it doesn't help. I've been told I have high anxiety. And the ER is pretty much expensive for people who can't afford it. Mom almost died from a bad migraine episode last night so it was pretty traumatic and I have PTSD. They would just send me home If I went.

[Armos]

Originally Posted by key tones

First of all, are you on a mood stabilizer? I was on the brink with anxiety when I finally stopped resisting lithium. Most of my anxiety went away with the lithium

I was also prescribed gabapentin—just google gabapentin bipolar anxiety. It is relaxing. I wanted something that isn’t addictive—this isn’t, but it can be abused for the buzz. So, be careful with it.

I'm on depekote. I was seeing another therapist that specializes in EMDR. Now that I am working im thinking of going back and seeing two therapists. One has medicaid and I can use the other one to help treat
I previously had propanolol. Some like it for anxiety, but it caused me to have insomnia.

Next, I’ve been in therapy, because changing your thought processes and working on issues is going to help.

I’m going to try EMDR therapy next for Complex PTSD.

I recently got a job. Im.on Depekote and I don't think it's helping. It's interfering with sleep. I have a therapist that takes medicaid but I'm thinking of going back to my old therapist because he specializes in EMDR as well. They are private owned so it might help.

[Wild Coyote]

If you go to the ER of a public hospital, request financial aid. There are federal monies available for people not qualifying for Medicaid, yet needing financial help. You have to ask about the financial aid program.

I hope you feel better soon!

WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

If you go to the ER of a public hospital, request financial aid. There are federal monies available for people not qualifying for Medicaid, yet needing financial help. You have to ask about the financial aid program.

I hope you feel better soon!

WC

This.

My grandma has been in IP for a long time now (months at this rate) while we try to find somewhere to place her permanently, as she has dementia. My parents applied for some kind of charity money grant thing, and it got approved within 2 or 3 days... So it was pretty fast. It just took a few days to sign the paperwork and have a social worker review it.

[cool09]

All of my doctors in and out of the hospital could not believe my anxiety. It gets to the point where I shake for days on end. Benzos have only taken the edge off and never done anything more. I think I was prescribed anti-psychotics in the 90's because my anxiety was thru the roof. Yes, anxiety can ruin everything. Hope you get better soon.

[*Laurie*]

Wild Coyote is correct. An ER visit will be covered by Medicaid or another program. They will not send you home without treatment.

Are you on a mood stabilizer?

[eye2797]

Yes hospitals have programs to help, there is some paper work but in the end it is worth it. Here where I am at even if you have private insurance, you can still apply for help.
You can go to the ER, you need to take care of yourself.

[GoldenSnitch]

I’m so sorry that you’re feeling like this. It doesn’t sound like you have a lot of good solid support while you’re going through this. I don’t know much about Medicaid and things of that nature since I’m not from the us but people on this board know a lot. I hope that you are able to find some help and start feeling better.

[pirilin]

Can't read it all together, but I wish you well.