The story and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood. Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

I was dx bpIl with gad back in 2005?
Then given the exciting news of liver chshit last year if I remember correctly..

Now I've been dx with avoidant personally disorder, just today.

I'm told with therapy (no meds) that I will spring back into action in time to undo the years of .."trauma"..everything I know about myself is gone. Decades. Good memories, all of it was 'fake'

I'm always honest with my docs and I would just like to die in excruciating circumstances because I'm not fit to live pain free. She wants to scan my brain...not a chance btw

This is not a cry for help, nor would I suggest suchlike behavior being unorganized. But exhausted, and not having the proper English tools to say what's on my mind.

They tricked me. They waited for the pain medicine to work before I could maintain a chain of "motivational" thought, speech and little amount of pain.

I lied. I told them everything they wanted to hear. Because let's face it, what's more important than wanting to finish yawning.

She must of spent no longer than an hour, doing an IQ test for an infant..like "draw a clock".. (not gp)

Now they think I'm fine with out illicit drugs. And need to "restructure" my thoughts..

I've tried going sober, giving up drugs, you name it. But why do they think that a change now will make a difference? The progress has been all me. Not even the oxy was to die for..I've had better.

I don't think I'm feeling sorry for myself. They (20-30) of them (I'm told) are going to decide my fate soon. 3 weeks in a one sitting conference, to compare notes I guess.

I suck at confrontations. And I said I was going to get private psyc and she told me the we're private!

They aren't. They all work under the same government umbrella.

They have made me lose touch with my plans, ideas and My self driven motivation. Lists all thrown away...for now

I just want to be treated like a patient, not a war criminal.

Advice, relate, anything but go ahead and kill yourself, would be comforting. I may have mentioned a temporary weed medicinal use for oxycodone withdrawals.

coding with drawers

So far I've stumbled across an article that was staring me right in the face. I don't relate. I did threaten there's nothing genuine about how they conduct business.

I just need proper representation, because not by the doctors fault, just that many have abused the system and.. oh well. Not my problem.

tl;dr

https://psychcentral.com/disorders/a...lity-disorder/

I have a non intravenous (rec) drug history and haven't been out of line in over 20 years. But they won't let that go...

Have a nice day

[rwwff]

You're in a tough spot and wish I could offer more than just an internet pat on the back. Best wishes though on how things turn out.

[Victoria'smom]

I'd get another opinion.

[*Laurie*]

Hi 2ISAB, Just to clarify: the "draw a clock" exercise is actually to test for neurological functioning. You can google the purpose of it. Sadly, people with brain damage cannot draw a basic clock.

On to the rest of your post. I'm trying to understand it and be helpful, but I'm having a hard time understanding. Who are "they" and why are there 20-30 of "them"? It sounds like you're angry because you feel like your rights are being taken from you. Are you not being prescribed meds because of a history of drug use? That seems rather cruel. So...???

[Wild Coyote]

Is it possible for you to get another opinion?

Your purpose?
You are a nice person. You are here to enjoy life while you can. That's a tough one for many of us. I think people are here, at least partially, to learn to Love and to allow Love from others. Do you fear your life cannot be better in time?

Don't give up!

WC

[emgreen]

Fire the fool...Find yourself a therapist/pdoc you feel comfortable with. For what it's worth, I'm a recovering alcoholic. You can't change some people's minds...You just have to keep on. Good luck!

[~Christina]

Not really any advice other than to get a second opinion.

Keep posting , its good to get it out of your head.

Thank you all. It's tough to get a second opinion when it's the Best hospital in AU. But I have turned back to what I consider stable and calm, probably because my 2 year old nephew kept me busy.

But I'm not going to ignore the idea of a second opinion, it's just a huge mind f..

But I'm not medicated (it was tough to resist today) and I'm so happy right now to be back on PC.
I've read up some more about it and my gp explained ME in a revealing way. She's certain I'm also got APD. Great ..

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

Hi 2ISAB, Just to clarify: the "draw a clock" exercise is actually to test for neurological functioning. You can google the purpose of it. Sadly, people with brain damage cannot draw a basic clock.

On to the rest of your post. I'm trying to understand it and be helpful, but I'm having a hard time understanding. Who are "they" and why are there 20-30 of "them"? It sounds like you're angry because you feel like your rights are being taken from you. Are you not being prescribed meds because of a history of drug use? That seems rather cruel. So...???

To make it short. "They" 20 to 30 specialist team that review a case like mine.. probably a way to say see you in 3 months?..

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by 2ISAB

To make it short. "They" 20 to 30 specialist team that review a case like mine.. probably a way to say see you in 3 months?..

Ahh, got ya. Thanks for clarifying.

[Fuzzybear]

“See you in 3 months” - grrrrr, been there (only one shrink needed for that declaration)

I agree with Wild Coyote’s post