[bizi]

Curried "chicken salad" salad. So lots of greens, oil and vinegar, tomatoes, cucumbers, about 1/2 cup of chicken salad, I ate it slowly so I was full. It seemed like a small serving, there were more greens, which slowed me down eating.
I had lunch with karen again.
Have asked her if she would want to go to the gym with me on a saturday, I have the membership level where I can bring a friend, she said yes.
So I am happy about that. She is disabled and I am not sure how long she could go on the bike, her choice of the equipment. I told her that I would be there an hour but they have chairs to sit down on if she needed a break or to wait on me.
Dinner tonight was lemon pepper talapia sauteed in coconut oil and some cabbage/veggie soup from sandras health food cafe. It was a little spicy which I like.

I ate one ounce of cheese because I felt like dinner was too light and I feared snacking later on. I do have almonds to snack on later if need be.
I am still having hot flashes so I fanned myself and ate ice which helped a lot. I also drank a stevia (all natural sweetener derived from a plant) sweetened sparkling orange drink. Then I drank a black cherry drink also with stevia.
anxious to see the scale tomorrow. I won't be too upset if it shows a gain because I have not gone to the bathroom in a couple of days. TMI
I will probably have a low carb fudge bar later, oh and I had 2 small dark chocolate pieces after dinner.

I hope everyone is having a good evening.
Polls closed about an hour ago. We voted this after noon.
I think that some of my votes canceled jeff out but he doesn't need to know that.
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

Some of my votes also cancelled out my H's votes. We will keep that type of info to ourselves!

[bizi]

181.6 this raining morning.
did not have a fudge bar or almonds to snack on which is good.
I think the piece of cheese really helped me to stay full. So I did not feel hungry.
YAY!
Got up early to see how the elections went....still not done completely will see if the dems take over the house by how much????
Have a great day yall!
bizi

[bizi]

Drinking black cherry cola sweetened with stevia called Zevia.
I drink at least one of these a day and sometimes 2.
In the health food store that I eat at most days, they serve them for $.99.
At the store I can get a 6 pack for $4.
At whole foods I would easily spend $6-7 for one beer.
Which led to another then a cheese tray, and not make good food choices.
For lunch I had meat balls with spaghetti sauce over quinoa tabouli with a side of collards.
For dinner: Had a pork chop sauteed in coconut oil and a side of cauliflower,
then 2 small dark chocolate squares.
Half an avocado yummy! and some more tabouli, which was so good!!!!

Since I am dieting and not drinking alcohol
I find myself thinking about them all of the time.

I did a little bit of cleaning tonight, wiped down the laundry room window ledge it was filthy!!!! and I also cleaned half of my bathroom floor which was very dirty, with hairspray. I washed the purple bath mat because it was matted down with hair spray as well.
now it is clean and fluffy. I feel better about myself for doing these things.

bizi

I have a purple bath mat too! (Mine's like a heavy towel though.)

Good on you for the AF and making good food choices, bizi Keep up the good work. (I've been eating a bit better lately, but not as good as you, for sure.)

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I have a purple bath mat too! (Mine's like a heavy towel though.)

Good on you for the AF and making good food choices, bizi Keep up the good work. (I've been eating a bit better lately, but not as good as you, for sure.)

Oh innerzone, you have problems eating?
I am resisting snacking on almonds which were my down fall and goto snack, in the afternoon and after dinner.
Even though they are a low carb choice for a snack, they are high calorie and I still need to think about calories to some extent too.
181.5 this am. ( I hope my numbers don't trigger anyone who struggle with eating issues.)

bizi

Not so much *problems* as laziness, lol. And budget doesn't help, though it's a secondary excuse.

[bizi]

We went to a friends house for dinner. His daughter was there as well.
We've been friends our whole time that we lived here since 2001.
I have social anxiety even with them. They are laughing and having a good time while I sit there uncomfortable and not participating.
Dieting and not drinking suck!
They were drinking gin and tonics. I brought diet drinks.
they had ice cream treats for desert, I just watched them knowing that I would come home and have a diet fudge bar. And I did.
This addiction thing is kicking my butt.
How will I ever do thanksgiving????
We will join a bunch of folks at a friends house for a pot luck dinner.
I usually bring a green bean casserole and crawfish dip/crackers.
I followed the no sugar, flour,potatoes,rice diet but how can i do this on thanksgiving?
most every one will be drinking wine, jeff will bring himself some beer.
I will bring diet sodas like I did tonight.
how can I say this any stronger.

I WANT TO DRINK!!!!! and I want to eat what ever but that is not what will happen if I want to lose weight. I need to sacrifice some to lose in the big picture.
Would an ice cream treat really make that much of a difference?

anyway, I feel I am babbling.
curtailing 2 of my addictions at the same time is f ucking hard and that is all I really needed to say.
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

It's very difficult to give up two addictions at once.

I admire you for trying!
We are here for you. Try to hang in and beat this!

Gabapentin helps me to lose cravings. It may or may not help you?

Thinking of you, my friend!

WC

[bizi]

Thank you WC.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I agree that the 2 at once must be extra challenging. Strength to you.

One thought that occurs to me... have you thought about asking your husband if he might forgo his drinking, at least for awhile, till you feel more in control/adjusted to the lifestyle? As a show of moral support. Seems like it would be helpful.

[bizi]

Great suggestion Innerzone!
Thank you guys for all of your support.
Had lunch with a girl friend and had salmon and squash and collards and an avocado.
Today is day 9AF and I feel much better. I actually went to whole foods and sat at the bar alone.
I visited with the bartenders and drank water while every one was drinking either a craft beer or wine.
Instead I ordered food for dinner: It took a while to get there and they played trivia, I watched until my food came.
Double pepper jack cheeseburger with bacon and mushrooms(no bun), and a huge side salad,
with romaine lettuce, lots of grape tomatoes, purple onions and cucumbers with ceasar dressing.
It was very good. I used mayo and mustard on the burger.
Not sure of the carbs but I am good with it.
It was rainy and cold today and windy, reason it felt so cold.
By tuesday night it will be in the 30's....burr!
I got my nail fixed at the shop(Vi nails) where we are becoming like family.
I love having gel nails, it makes my nails so strong.
Am seeing a client in the morning then lunch with jeff at chris' po boys,
chicken and sausage gumbo, then get my hair colored and cut.
Then I have one more new client to see out of town. She has an ingrown toenail that needs to be treated.
She is 95 years old and refuses to leave the house to see a foot doctor.....
A friend referred me and I feel obligated to go see her.
I hate to hear of someone in pain and having an ingrown toe nail. they are really painful,
so of course I will go to help her out.
Sunday we are going to see the movie about the band "queen"...should be good.

I told Jeff that I was probably going to remain AF until our vacation the middle of December for the holidays. I told him how awkward I felt at his friends house for dinner on thursday night. I felt like I could not get out of there soon enough. They were all drinking gin and tonics. I brought 3 cans of diet pop and that helped a lot. Then there is Thanks giving at the pot luck, it will be a real challenge for me. Maybe I should drive separately I can say I feel ill. These are really nice people!




Hope every one has a nice weekend.
bizi

[bizi]

yay!
178.8 this morning...
woke up early, having my 2nd cup of coffee.
Turned on the heat yesterday a sthe house was cool at 68 Degrees.
It is supposed to get down into the 30s in a couple of days.
Burr!!!!
my folks had their first snow yesterday in northern indiana.
some one said we are in for a hard winter.
I hope not!
bizi

[bizi]

OPPS!
my weight was really 179.8...
it took me 2 edits to get it right!
bizi

[bizi]

Stopped by the nail place to get yet another nail fixed.
Had a good morning client then great gumbo and a bowl of
cabbage remulade dressing with Jeff.
Went to my hair appointment and the student did not do a good job. She put to much product in my hair...it looked greasy after blow drying it...I thought that it was still wet. So i reported her and after ward forgot to pay. Called when I remembered and they said to not worry about it, they took it off my bill which I thanked them several times.
My afternoon client out of town was very nice. her daughter trimmed her toe nail back so it was no longer ingrown so I just sanded down the hard skin that remained and trimmed the rest of her toe nails. She said it felt better! Thank goodness!
Came back into town and got home around 6pm. Cooked chopped up cabbage and onions and peppers with chimmichuri sauce and added pieces of chicken that jeff cooked for a stir fry. It turned out very good.
Tomorrow is veterans day.
I am one so we are going to texas road house for lunch(free meal for me).
Then we are going to BJ's brew house for a free meal there for dinner.
some time for the matinee, we are going to see the movie about the band called Queen.
It should be good.
The temps are getting colder as the weekend progresses.
lows in the 30's this week. burr!
I hope yall have a nice sunday.
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

Thanks so much for your service!
I hope you enjoy the free meals!

Bohemian Rhapsody is quite a movie!
I am also a fan of Queen.

Enjoy!

WC

[bizi]

made it another af day....
Was not quite full from our light dinner so I had a half cup of almonds...It sounds like a lot but not really, only 6 carbs. Then I had 3 cups of hot tea.
The tea filled me up. Loved the almonds though, the spicy wasabi ones are my favorite!
Some where in there I want to go shopping at khols. I have 3 coupons burning a hole in my pocket! And I need to do laundry.
bizi

[bizi]

Just got back from texas road house with some friends of ours who are both veterans and we were treated to a lunch. Then hubby and I and another friend are going to see the movie about the band queen. It sounds so good. We will meet back up with our friends to go to dinner at the bj's brew house for dinner on them as veterans.
Went to khols and bought a shirt half off with coupons, it is a pretty peacock blue
doing laundry....it has warmed up to 60 so it is nice outside. Maybe do alittle yard work until we go to the movies.
bizi

[bizi]

Thought I would elaborate my day:
Just got back from texas road house with some friends of ours who are both veterans and we were treated to a lunch. I had pulled pork that tasted just like their ribs and was a huge portion that I took home more than half the order. It had a sweet BBQ sauce so I knew it was not on my diet but then took home the mixed veggies and ate a cup of chili which was very good. Then hubby and I and another friend are going to see the movie about the band queen. It sounds so good. We will meet back up with our friends to go to dinner at the bj's brew house for dinner on them as veterans.
Went to khols and bought a shirt half off with coupons, it is a pretty peacock blue
doing laundry....it has warmed up to 60 so it is nice outside.
The movie was great!!!! really well done about the band named Queen. I kept having hot flashes taking off my sweater then getting cold and putting it back on.sigh
menopause go away.
We went to dinner with same friends that we did lunch with for dinner at a brew house and it was good. I had an ahi tuna cooked med/rare and a large salad with a light vinaigrette which was delicious.
I did a bit of filing for work this evening am going to head to bed early as I have to get up at 730am to start my day tomorrow. I have 5 clients to see.
Another AF day, good day.
bizi

[Guiness187055]

Glad that you keep stringing those AF days together.

[Sunflower123]

Good for you bizi. Congratulations!!

[bizi]

I don't really no what I did to my back but it really hurts. It started hurting a bit last night. Had hubby put one of those lidocaine patches. Which I think is helping. I could hardly turn over in bed. Could hardly put on my pants, had to sit down to do that.
What/how am I going to be able to work????
bizi

[Sunflower123]

I am so sorry you are in pain. There’s nothing worse then back pain I’ve heard. Can you make it to a doctor and get it checked out? Thinking of you.
((((( Hugs )))))

[bizi]

I took an old flexeril and 2 alieve and then the patch so we shall see how it goes.
thanks jenn.

I have a high deductible but will go if I need to...I think I will try the CBD oil that they sell at the health food store where I eat lunch.
bizi

[Sunflower123]

Fingers crossed for you that it does the trick!