[TicTacGo]

I’m 20, diagnosed with OCD, agoraphobia, social anxiety and bipolar disorder.

The first 3 named conditions usually hinder me from going out to see friends, let alone strangers.
I have recently had a sudden urge or urges to find a man online who is in my facinity and hooking up with them. I chatted up quite a few men recently with plans to go see this one, that one and whoever else was keen. Today I passed a barrier I thought I’d never cross and actually hooked up. Got the guy’s number and address and left without much thought to what I was doing.

I am back and see this as odd. If I had to explain. I was craving some form of intimacy like never before. It’s never been enough that I would just.... do it?

Seeing is it is against how I usually act or go about things... plus that confidence I had going on. What is going on?

It doesn't matter if it's just the tin man, you need to understand that sex comes with consequences.

It's extremely easy to fall for someone who let's you do that to their body.

Stay safe

[SorryShaped]

I understand the cravings becoming all-consuming. I've decided overall to give in and let each moment take me where it will, but still protect myself. This is not the doctor-approved method, but I'm an adult and overall do know what I'm doing

[TicTacGo]

It was going on since about Friday. Reflecting on the experiences now that I am thinking about where it came from, I do hope it wasnt a short (hypo)manic episode. Besides that, I was told how exuberant I was being. That, and the confidence I was radiating when I met with the person.

[Blueberrybook]

Sounds like hypomania or mania. I'm sure it's not the case for everyone, but when I get more sleep, it tends to tone down the mania. Have you been able to get more sleep lately? My pdoc tells me 8-10 hr are what I need, but that rarely happens. Thankfully, he was on the phone when it said it, or I probably would have laughed in his face.

[TicTacGo]

Thanks for the replies.

Well I spoke to my therapist, who would like me to speak to my doctor.

Ever get this doubt in your mind about whether you aren’t just overreacting?

My family don’t believe in this whole mania thing. They think I just stepped out of my comfort zone. Yeah, into a stranger’s bed? A stranger I had only began speaking to on the same day along with a couple of other’s I would have chosen from if this particular one hadn’t hosted me.

Well f———.