[Miss Laura]

I have taken to talking to guys online, joined 3 or 4 dating sites I forget.... I want sex. Trying to meet up with guys from Scotland but I'm looking as far as England. I cant travel but have said I can put up guys in my flat. Offering to pay for petrol if coming to me.

I feel hyper at night roughly now onwards 6:30pm onwards for the last week. Very giddy.

Having sever anxieties and irritability.

Friends dont know anything about it as they haven't answered my WhatsApp that I sent last week. They have ditched me again shocker

Sleep I got 3 hours last night I've been up and down with sleep.

What should I do.... what can I do...... who do I talk to..... I give up

[Guiness187055]

Do you have a T that you can talk to about this?

[sarahsweets]

I feel this is very dangerous behavior and that you are jeapordizing your safety. Not only the sex but the fact that strange men will be coming to your home.

[Miss Laura]

I see a counsellor and she had ask I stay safe but I just broke this promise I think. I gave 1 guy my post code so he could see where I stayed. I saw my counsellor yesterday and I only told her about all of this at the end of my session

[Miss Laura]

Any other wise words of wisdom? I'm struggling at the moment so hyper but am having to compact it as I'm at my parents house

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Any other wise words of wisdom? I'm struggling at the moment so hyper but am having to compact it as I'm at my parents house

Well, staying off the sites, but that's a bit obvious. I can't much relate as I've got.... guess you'd call it "trust trauma" from my last relationship, and am too gun-shy to believe that people are who they represent themselves to be. Like sarahsweets, I worry for your safety. (Not to say I haven't done anything unsafe, but really, that was just with ex-BF and look where that got me...)

I can see how it would be enticing, but it really is dangerous. I suspect because of that, that "cold turkey" would be the way to go. What did your T have to say, or did you not have enough time to get into that part?

[Miss Laura]

I use my phone for everything so internet is my phone. Which I'm always on.

My T just said she was concerned and that she wanted me to be safe. Ithink I told her 10 mins before the hour was up. But I'm equally exhausted. So I dont think I'm fully high. Think we will be chatting about it next week. I hadn't seen her in 6 weeks so we had a lot to chat about

I'm glad you'll be seeing her next week. How about asking her for any concrete strategies she might have? In the meanwhile, maybe at least do not offer to put them up at your flat or spell out your location. If you really feel you've got to meet them, do it in a public place, like for coffee or something. I know you're wanting sex, but any chance of putting that to the side? (Am I remembering correctly that other times, you've *not* wanted that(??) Just messing around? Or am I thinking of something else?)

[piano97]

Delete the apps/profiles/accounts. Now.

Will give some breathing room for the moment....

You've got some insight but impulsiveness can easily override it.

Hang in there. But yeah, delete all of it.

Not fun to hear, I know, but it's not good for health *mental/physical/emotional/spirtiual.

Glad are reaching out to others for support and to discuss.

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I'm glad you'll be seeing her next week. How about asking her for any concrete strategies she might have? In the meanwhile, maybe at least do not offer to put them up at your flat or spell out your location. If you really feel you've got to meet them, do it in a public place, like for coffee or something. I know you're wanting sex, but any chance of putting that to the side? (Am I remembering correctly that other times, you've *not* wanted that(??) Just messing around? Or am I thinking of something else?)

No that was me, it still stands if afraid. I've done nude video chats which I'm ashamed of. But it excites me. I wish I could ignore the sex side to things. I cant go by a day without thinking of it

[Miss Laura]

A girl I'm friends with on fb... says she can tell I'm manic as I'm talking A LOT and contacting her A LOT and typing FAST and have bad ANXIETIES.... the list is endless. I don't know why I'm getting upset at this. I feel like I dont know if im coming or going

[happysobercrafter]

Can you see your therapist an extra visit? You haven't said what your diagnosis is. Why are you seeing your therapist? To manage anxieties or what? Bless your heart, honey; I am concerned for your safety too!

[Miss Laura]

Originally Posted by HappyCrafter

Can you see your therapist an extra visit? You haven't said what your diagnosis is. Why are you seeing your therapist? To manage anxieties or what? Bless your heart, honey; I am concerned for your safety too!

Hi,

No here your allocated a slot and that's it. Plus it's quite expensive as I'm private. I started seeing my T cause I have been waiting 18 months to see a Psychologist through my health service NHS Scotland. One day I plucked up the courage to email around and found her. Have been seeing her since August so it's still brand new our relationship. I see her for everything i have really both social and general anxieties and bipolar type 1. We were working through CBT but now we chat about what's going on with me as I was fixating on the homework etc. I'm a bit of a odd ball if you like

How are you doing today, Miss Laura?

[Miss Laura]

Same tbh high anxieties, still doing all above. Spent loads of money on Ebay and Amazon. Able to maintain a solid in fine look for general public. Thanks for asking Inner!!

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Same tbh high anxieties, still doing all above. Spent loads of money on Ebay and Amazon. Able to maintain a solid in fine look for general public. Thanks for asking Inner!!

Is there someone you trust deeply whom you can give your credit card to. It is best to get a stop to overspending ASAP before you empty your account or get into horrific debt. You're doing great to keep a straight face in public. If you still can't sleep maybe try some YOUTUBE meditation streams. They have a tonne of different types like Forrests, ocean and other stuff if nature isn't your thing. I find when manic they may not always put me to sleep but they do give my mind a rest.