[251turnaround]

THIS IS REALLY BUGGING ME because I am loving how I'm feeling lately. It's like I've been cured, though I fear this could just be hypomania! I'm animated, energetic, and feeling inspired.

I'm normally incredibly socially anxious and awkward but this past month I've been a total extrovert that initiates conversations and makes friends. I've been proactive in trying to find new work, walking into places and asking directly if they have positions available. I normally could not do anything close to this.

I was in the hospital a few weeks ago after I tried to kill myself via a med overdose but I wasn't even depressed. I spent a week there and I felt like I owned the place. I was talking to everybody and introducing myself and trying to make friends. The nurse said I was a-okay for discharge despite the staff and social worker going NO NO NO.

I feel like I'm finally in control of my life and nothing can stop my plan of moving out of my parents' place. It's time for me to take charge.

My therapist and pdoc both say I'm still manic though? I know what manic feels like and I don't think this is really it?

I've also been engaging in a lot of music making and actually bought a subscription to a virtual instrument service for my DAW and I'm loving it.

Does this sound at all hypo-like to you guys? I'm sleeping normally if that's any help.

[Moose72]

I am no doctor but you sound like me when at least hypo. I get confused as to what pushes you into mania. Hallucinations and delusions maybe?

[Tucson]

In this case, can the endpoint of depression for you is this what appears to be (hypo)mania? Giung from a sui attempt righ directly into mania I am sure has happened to others. I am not saying that this kind of mania would get you in trouble, but I would be very careful. Just because you feel “great” does not mean you are in a good place mentally. Please do not let your current state of mind help delude you into thinking otherwise.

[Pookyl]

I have switched straight from sui to manic and then switched to mixed. Please be careful. All that is guaranteed when we have episodes is that there is no rhyme or reason to the pattern.

[Blueberrybook]

I am not a doctor either but it sounds like hypomania to me, mixed maybe? but pdoc says I'm mixed right now, I have a lot of depressive thoughts but do things like speak quickly, interrupt people talking, can't sit still. To me it sounds like you could be near mania again? Not sure of what full mania is for you. I think it is best to see your pdoc ASAP.

How much sleep is enough for you?

There may be exceptions, but going from suicidal to stable so quickly does not seem normal to me. I think I went from depressed though not suicidal slowly to stable such as this with med changes:

I had a stable period (around 6 months, I wish so badly I could get back to that), I was able to concentrate on & finish big projects without having tons of stuff going on and a bit more creative (easier to find solutions to storage problems, not like a huge creative leap), sleeping 8 or 9 hours a night, cooking from scratch instead of relying on pre-made meals. But that was about the extent of it.