[Tucson]

I am actually starting to enjoy xmas. This has not been the case in the past for many years. I watched the “Polar Express” which placed me in the right frame of mind. Go figure. I had my interview this last Friday for a job as an insurance provider with Farmers. I have one more interview to go. So far I am doing well, so I think the next interview is a good possibility. I would need to be licensed for both car insurance, and home owners insurance. I have to pay for my course work, my testing fees, and fingerprints.

Yesterday my daughter was verbally abusive towards me as we messaged between each other on our phones. She had a major outburst wanting her truck fixed her way, not having a clue as to what is involved with doing this. Since I am a trustee of her spendthrift trust, I need to consider the full picture before dispersing money for this.

Now here is what worries me even more. Then she also claimed she was her brother, who is actually the car expert of the family. She told me that I did not know what I was doing. She was mean to me while doing this. I though it was actually her brother. Posing as him, she further told me that I cannot go to her (his) house anymore. She even spoke a statement in the way only he would make. Talking with the actual brother, he told me that this was not him, and he would never talk to me like that.

Now today she is a different person, supporting my efforts in getting the car fixed. She tells me that she trusts me. She can go between these two different “personalities”. She also can tell me things that is impulsive and not thought out at all, which does not make any sense to me. Then there are other times she can come across well grounded, saying considered, intelligent, and mature things to me.

Oh well. I might make this a thread to get others input on this. I do think stress may be doing this to her even though she says and appears relaxed.

Wha

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I just saw this. I’m sorry you had such a rough day. How are you today? Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.

Hi Jennifer!

I had switched around my meds last night, hoping I would not feel so sedated and so dizzy. It seems to be a bit better, though it's hard to tell yet.
In a lot of pain today, probably at least partially related to the weather.

I hope all is going well for you!
Thanks for thinking of me and thanks, too, for the supportive vibes!

WC

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Had I known that I never would have gone on the stuff! At the time it was that or zyprexa. I didnt want to gain again on zyprexa so I chose seroquel. Turns out I gained on seroquel anyway.

I'm back on zyprexa due to poor sleep. I don't like to be on it because it messes with my metabolic parameters, but it keeps me safe for now and hopefully soon I can go back to just Rexulti.

I didn't find much that really helped in getting over taking Seroquel, except to know they will certainly end, eventually. Hopefully your transition is quicker than mine was.

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I just saw this. I’m sorry you had such a rough day. How are you today? Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.

I'm also so sorry to read this, WC. (((Hugs)))

[Wild Coyote]

Many thanks, tecomsin!
I have learned to hang in with the pain. I hope it calms down soon!

I hope this finds you well.

WC

In a VERY irritable mood. Po'd at everything. Also depressed. Good times. Not going to call it an episode unless it goes on for awhile. Still, it's no fun no matter how long this crap lasts. I just want to walk out the door (at work). F it. Go home and just go to bed. Not going to happen though.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

In a VERY irritable mood. Po'd at everything. Also depressed. Good times. Not going to call it an episode unless it goes on for awhile. Still, it's no fun no matter how long this crap lasts. I just want to walk out the door (at work). F it. Go home and just go to bed. Not going to happen though.

Sorry you are experiencing a difficult time.
I hope you catch a break.

WC

[Unrigged64072835]

Doing better today, though not enough sleep still. Figured out something else to do with the music stuff so it'll keep me busy for a while. At least I'm now looking forward to Christmas even though I have another nerve block Christmas Eve It has to be done in a certain amount of time so both sides are even.

My daughter texted us with her work schedule and asked if we can hold off celebrations until the day after Christmas. Since she is spending Christmas morning with one of her coworkers we said no, but she can come the next day to get her gifts and have a regular meal with us. We haven't heard from her. I don't know if she is torqued, but honestly we've been catering to her holiday wishes for many years, so now it's our turn.

Home improvement company that did our bathroom called my husband again. He let them have it about everything. They wanted to come to the house and inspect the shower door, but my husband doesn't want any of them in the house at this point. There was mention of the missing bottle of Lunesta, but evidence is only circumstantial and cannot be verified unless the installer confesses. Don't see that happening. Thankfully our home loan went through, so we'll be able to pay off everything at a lower interest rate starting February next year.

Just relieved and grateful at this point. And tired!!

I hope all of you feel better and have some peace in your lives. Love and hugs.

[Wild Coyote]

Last night, I took all of my daily Lamictal dose at bedtime. Pdoc said I could try it, even though it is usually prescribed for twice a day. I am sooooo hoping it works and I am able to tolerate it. I'd felt a little better this morning without having to take it again this morning. Not as dizzy or as sleepy as when I was taking some in the morning. I think it is interacting with my pain meds. (I cannot alter my pain meds without going through another withdrawal.)

Today is another very painful day. I overdid yesterday. Today's weather is likely aggravating the pain as well.

I hope everyone is having a good day.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Doing better today, though not enough sleep still. Figured out something else to do with the music stuff so it'll keep me busy for a while. At least I'm now looking forward to Christmas even though I have another nerve block Christmas Eve It has to be done in a certain amount of time so both sides are even.

My daughter texted us with her work schedule and asked if we can hold off celebrations until the day after Christmas. Since she is spending Christmas morning with one of her coworkers we said no, but she can come the next day to get her gifts and have a regular meal with us. We haven't heard from her. I don't know if she is torqued, but honestly we've been catering to her holiday wishes for many years, so now it's our turn.

Home improvement company that did our bathroom called my husband again. He let them have it about everything. They wanted to come to the house and inspect the shower door, but my husband doesn't want any of them in the house at this point. There was mention of the missing bottle of Lunesta, but evidence is only circumstantial and cannot be verified unless the installer confesses. Don't see that happening. Thankfully our home loan went through, so we'll be able to pay off everything at a lower interest rate come February next year.

Just relieved and grateful at this point. And tired!!

I hope all of you feel better and have some peace in your lives. Love and hugs.

I am glad to read you are feeling better, every little bit helps. I hope you are comfortable and pain is minimal.

I'll bet you and H are thrilled the loan was approved! I hope this works out well for you!

Keep taking care!

WC

[Nammu]

So tired, I'm waiting for the follow up appointment with my doc, he's running 30 minutes behind today. Had pain this morning but now that I'm here its disappeared of course. My cat kept bopping me on my head all though the night, probably getting back at me for the times I play with his ears when he's sleeping.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

So tired, I'm waiting for the follow up appointment with my doc, he's running 30 minutes behind today. Had pain this morning but now that I'm here its disappeared of course. My cat kept bopping me on my head all though the night, probably getting back at me for the times I play with his ears when he's sleeping.

I am sorry to hear you've been in pain.
I hope your doc can help.

WC

[Faltering]

I had the pre-disciplinary meeting at work today. I wasn't fired. I was told I'll receive a written warning. Good news.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I had the pre-disciplinary meeting at work today. I wasn't fired. I was told I'll receive a written warning. Good news.

So glad you were not fired! Yay!


WC

I totally over did it today. I made 36 cocoa rolled rum balls with rum soaked cherries inside, 50 walnut kolachky cookies, and a rum cherry orange essence bread pudding. And I promised my hubby that tonight I'd use the fresh wild chanterelle mushrooms we bought. I'm going to make a steak with a chanterelle mushroom shallot Cognac sauce eith tarragon, homemade red skin mashed potatoes, and steamed carrots and peas with fresh dill.

I'm going nuts with these Christmas cookie projects. In addition to the above, I've made 100 vanilla crescent cookies, molded spice cookies (though hubby helped with the spice cookies), and have some wild plans of making Linzer tart cookies tomorrow, a cookie called "Morrocans" on Thursday, and perhaps pecan tassies (like mini pecan pies), and coconut cookies with salted caramel chips (half dipped in melted bittersweet chocolate) this weekend. Then I have Christmas Eve dinner and Christmas day brunch to grocery shop and prepare dishes for. For the Christmas day brunch, I plan to make three different kinds of fancy open-faced sandwiches for eight people. I'll of course bring Christmas cookies (some of all 8 varieties). I'm going to pass out at the end of this! I really need to cut back, maybe, but whenever I think I will I plan one additional thing.

I see my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I don't want him to get the wrong idea.

[TheSeaCat]

Hi guys, feeling a lot better. Blood pressure is normal heart rate is quite high. I was pretty scared when the nurses and Cardiologist came to get me for the EP Study. I was also scared of the medication they gave me to relax for the study given the recent Vanderbilt scare of wrong medication I asked the nurse to see the vial. Which really eased my fear. Cardiologist held my hand as everything was set up, the prep was cold on my upper thigh. They cleaned both thighs and the numbing hurt on the inner thigh. They also had IV Tylenol running during the test to help ease some of the pain.

Test was okay it was long and boring I remember talking to the nurse about the medication vial and someone scrubbing up my thigh and groin area with prep and the pinch and sting of the numbing. I don’t remember much of anything after that. My Cardiologist showed me everything and the problem exists in my SA Node and apparently I’m also hypersensitive to adrenaline so anytime my adrenaline surges heart rate massively increases. The @ss really wanted to do an ablation but Cardiologist didn’t like that idea; neither did I. I reacted weirdly to several different medications and some aren’t through an IV. Cardiologist doesn’t think it was the 5MG dose that caused my blood pressure. So that diagnosis is fainting spell not otherwise specified. So we don’t know exactly what to do medication wise.

He’s letting me go tomorrow so I can do my finals tomorrow! He’s going to put me on metoprolol and I get to see him two weeks from now same with the primary for the head lac and concussion, Christmas is getting in the way but I should be okay.

M has asked me to the huge Christmas/New Year’s party the organization throws us on New Year’s eve. So it’s a date for us. He and R were there the entire time during the procedure as was Aunt, Uncle, parents were there waiting. Dad really doesn’t like M or R for the matter since he sees it as them taking me away.

My boss came for a visit during lunch as did a few of the other PA’s and docs at the office. Granted I was still pretty hung over from the medication since it was like ten minutes after. I was good and drunk I can only imagine what was said during the procedure. I also had to lay flat for five hours I’ve finally got the all clear to move again, so I have changed out of the hospital gown and back into pajamas. Just got to make it through the night and I will be home free tomorrow to be able to study for my finals on Wednesday. Assuming my blood pressure doesn’t bottom out in the middle of the night. So now to study and beg someone to get me food for dinner.

I also got to have a meaningful conversation with M, and we have a date set. I really can’t thank him enough for staying the past couple of days, I know that chair is not comfortable not to mention missing a day of work same with R. I’m really excited about the organization Christmas Party.

Hugs to everyone and thank you all for the well wishes. I’m really feeling a lot better today.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I totally over did it today. I made 36 cocoa rolled rum balls with rum soaked cherries inside, 50 walnut kolachky cookies, and a rum cherry orange essence bread pudding. And I promised my hubby that tonight I'd use the fresh wild chanterelle mushrooms we bought. I'm going to make a steak with a chanterelle mushroom shallot Cognac sauce eith tarragon, homemade red skin mashed potatoes, and steamed carrots and peas with fresh dill.

I'm going nuts with these Christmas cookie projects. In addition to the above, I've made 100 vanilla crescent cookies, molded spice cookies (though hubby helped with the spice cookies), and have some wild plans of making Linzer tart cookies tomorrow, a cookie called "Morrocans" on Thursday, and perhaps pecan tassies (like mini pecan pies), and coconut cookies with salted caramel chips (half dipped in melted bittersweet chocolate) this weekend. Then I have Christmas Eve dinner and Christmas day brunch to grocery shop and prepare dishes for. For the Christmas day brunch, I plan to make three different kinds of fancy open-faced sandwiches for eight people. I'll of course bring Christmas cookies (some of all 8 varieties). I'm going to pass out at the end of this! I really need to cut back, maybe, but whenever I think I will I plan one additional thing.

I see my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I don't want him to get the wrong idea.

Oooo I so want to come to your house for Christmas!

Well I had epiploic appendagitis. A fancy way of saying one of the fatty sacks on the outside of the colon twisted around cut off its blood supply and died. Painful but self limiting the sack became inflamed but the problem will clear up on its own. The reason my liquid diet helped the pain was because it slowed the movement of the colon so it wasn't agitating the sack. I really like my doc, he even printed out a medical paper for me to read up on it. The pain is better than it was and will go away in another week or so.

[Blue_Bird]

I got an A on my intro to social work exam, and an A as the final grade. Very happy about that. My art professor should be posting our grades in the next day or so. All I have to do is go over and pick up my graded sketchbook from his office on Thursday.

So I'm off for winter break till January 22nd. Thankfully. I love school but with a lot of symptoms returning this semester has been rough.

Stopped by a bookstore today and got a few books and DVDs, then got some MP3s on my IPod.

Praying for sleep

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I totally over did it today. I made 36 cocoa rolled rum balls with rum soaked cherries inside, 50 walnut kolachky cookies, and a rum cherry orange essence bread pudding. And I promised my hubby that tonight I'd use the fresh wild chanterelle mushrooms we bought. I'm going to make a steak with a chanterelle mushroom shallot Cognac sauce eith tarragon, homemade red skin mashed potatoes, and steamed carrots and peas with fresh dill.

I'm going nuts with these Christmas cookie projects. In addition to the above, I've made 100 vanilla crescent cookies, molded spice cookies (though hubby helped with the spice cookies), and have some wild plans of making Linzer tart cookies tomorrow, a cookie called "Morrocans" on Thursday, and perhaps pecan tassies (like mini pecan pies), and coconut cookies with salted caramel chips (half dipped in melted bittersweet chocolate) this weekend. Then I have Christmas Eve dinner and Christmas day brunch to grocery shop and prepare dishes for. For the Christmas day brunch, I plan to make three different kinds of fancy open-faced sandwiches for eight people. I'll of course bring Christmas cookies (some of all 8 varieties). I'm going to pass out at the end of this! I really need to cut back, maybe, but whenever I think I will I plan one additional thing.

I see my psychiatrist on Wednesday. I don't want him to get the wrong idea.

YUMMY!

You are working hard! Sounds like fun!
Sounds delicious, too!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Oooo I so want to come to your house for Christmas!

Well I had epiploic appendagitis. A fancy way of saying one of the fatty sacks on the outside of the colon twisted around cut off its blood supply and died. Painful but self limiting the sack became inflamed but the problem will clear up on its own. The reason my liquid diet helped the pain was because it slowed the movement of the colon so it wasn't agitating the sack. I really like my doc, he even printed out a medical paper for me to read up on it. The pain is better than it was and will go away in another week or so.

I am so glad you are okay!
I hope the pain goes away pronto.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I got an A on my intro to social work exam, and an A as the final grade. Very happy about that. My art professor should be posting our grades in the next day or so. All I have to do is go over and pick up my graded sketchbook from his office on Thursday.

So I'm off for winter break till January 22nd. Thankfully. I love school but with a lot of symptoms returning this semester has been rough.

Stopped by a bookstore today and got a few books and DVDs, then got some MP3s on my IPod.

Praying for sleep

Congrats on your finals!
I hope you sleep well!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Hi guys, feeling a lot better. Blood pressure is normal heart rate is quite high. I was pretty scared when the nurses and Cardiologist came to get me for the EP Study. I was also scared of the medication they gave me to relax for the study given the recent Vanderbilt scare of wrong medication I asked the nurse to see the vial. Which really eased my fear. Cardiologist held my hand as everything was set up, the prep was cold on my upper thigh. They cleaned both thighs and the numbing hurt on the inner thigh. They also had IV Tylenol running during the test to help ease some of the pain.

Test was okay it was long and boring I remember talking to the nurse about the medication vial and someone scrubbing up my thigh and groin area with prep and the pinch and sting of the numbing. I don’t remember much of anything after that. My Cardiologist showed me everything and the problem exists in my SA Node and apparently I’m also hypersensitive to adrenaline so anytime my adrenaline surges heart rate massively increases. The @ss really wanted to do an ablation but Cardiologist didn’t like that idea; neither did I. I reacted weirdly to several different medications and some aren’t through an IV. Cardiologist doesn’t think it was the 5MG dose that caused my blood pressure. So that diagnosis is fainting spell not otherwise specified. So we don’t know exactly what to do medication wise.

He’s letting me go tomorrow so I can do my finals tomorrow! He’s going to put me on metoprolol and I get to see him two weeks from now same with the primary for the head lac and concussion, Christmas is getting in the way but I should be okay.

M has asked me to the huge Christmas/New Year’s party the organization throws us on New Year’s eve. So it’s a date for us. He and R were there the entire time during the procedure as was Aunt, Uncle, parents were there waiting. Dad really doesn’t like M or R for the matter since he sees it as them taking me away.

My boss came for a visit during lunch as did a few of the other PA’s and docs at the office. Granted I was still pretty hung over from the medication since it was like ten minutes after. I was good and drunk I can only imagine what was said during the procedure. I also had to lay flat for five hours I’ve finally got the all clear to move again, so I have changed out of the hospital gown and back into pajamas. Just got to make it through the night and I will be home free tomorrow to be able to study for my finals on Wednesday. Assuming my blood pressure doesn’t bottom out in the middle of the night. So now to study and beg someone to get me food for dinner.

I also got to have a meaningful conversation with M, and we have a date set. I really can’t thank him enough for staying the past couple of days, I know that chair is not comfortable not to mention missing a day of work same with R. I’m really excited about the organization Christmas Party.

Hugs to everyone and thank you all for the well wishes. I’m really feeling a lot better today.

So sorry for all you have been through!
Glad to read you are feeling better!
I hope you have fun at the Christmas party!

WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

*m feeling terrible. My anxiety is through the roof. I got up at 3 and took a shower to see if that would help. Well not really- it didnt. But i was clean so that was nice. I had an anxiety attack friday and since then ive been off. My hands shake if i try to settle down to sleep. I just got off both trazodone and seroquel- seroquel more recently. Im having a leftover panic attack i think and thinking about it makes it worse. I wonder if this is leftover depression? I havent been doing anything really but going to starbucks and im sure that doesnt help keep my mind occupied.

Your brain is trying to go back and function before it had those chemicals it’s takes time for them to start but it also takes time go forth sans meds
Hang in there

[Guiness187055]

Went to Pdoc today and he filled out all of my disability paperwork before my court date. He also wrote a letter stating I am not able to hold a job at this point. Still fighting depression but better today since I got out of the house. I am beginning to wonder if the xanax is causing some of my depression. It might be time to taper back a little. In the mean while my Dr. raised my wellbutrin to 450mg. I am afraid to take that much due to seizures so IDK. Hope everyone is having or had a great day.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

In a VERY irritable mood. Po'd at everything. Also depressed. Good times. Not going to call it an episode unless it goes on for awhile. Still, it's no fun no matter how long this crap lasts. I just want to walk out the door (at work). F it. Go home and just go to bed. Not going to happen though.

Awwww IZ I hope life backs off you quickly !!!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Last night, I took all of my daily Lamictal dose at bedtime. Pdoc said I could try it, even though it is usually prescribed for twice a day. I am sooooo hoping it works and I am able to tolerate it. I'd felt a little better this morning without having to take it again this morning. Not as dizzy or as sleepy as when I was taking some in the morning. I think it is interacting with my pain meds. (I cannot alter my pain meds without going through another withdrawal.)


Today is another very painful day. I overdid yesterday. Today's weather is likely aggravating the pain as well.


I hope everyone is having a good day.



WC

I hope taking it all at pm will allow you to be more awake during the day , fingers crossed !!

Has your pain let up any??