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I’m heading to your house !!!! Sounds yummy ! Enjoy ~
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#1027
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Glad you got answers and will be on the mend very soon. ![]()
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#1028
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![]() The pain has gotten worse. I have fibromyalgia, Psoriatic Arthritis and neuropathy all flaring at the same time. I am sure you know how this feels and am sorry you do know. ![]()
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Just caught up ... Been outta the loop last few days . Oh my goodness !!! I freaking hope someone can get to the bottom of this and get you back into your life ..... M sure sounds like an angel !!! And R too ! ![]()
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I am finding the type of deep breathing where you massage right below your collar bones to work quite well. I find it much more grounding than just trying to focus on deep breathing which doesn't tend to work that great for me, most likely due to quickly getting distracted. I am randomly ruminating and getting anxious and filled with dread but fortunately it's now under control.
I am having difficulties with the obsessive thoughts. Also, I don't think I ever mentioned this here but this past year I have been processing the fact that a mentor of mine at a job from a few years back was actually trying to manipulate and lying to me and everyone else. I noticed what I thought were some lies, but I didn't realize the extent and also thought maybe she was a bit forgetful or had the wrong info. It also made me question if I even remembered the story correctly. I mean I know sometimes people occasionally lie, but this was different. She really acted like she was supporting me during a really tough position I had taken on, but now I realize she saw my "weakness" and targeted me. It makes me feel very confused and I am struggling to come to terms with this realization and losing trust in myself and others. In other news I am eating a lot of chocolate haha. A neighbor handed me a box this morning as I left for work as a holiday present. It was nice to be thought of. Sending hugs to those who want them! |
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#1031
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That's great news!
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I am feeling good right now. I think ill take advantage and go to sleep. Night all!
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#1033
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Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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Hi guys another small update; I just had a shower and I feel great. I had to fight with the nurse who had to be in the same room just in case I decided to have another nose dive; which I didn't. Blood pressure is hanging steady around normal range. Heart rate is a little lower at 130; which is kind of my baseline. Assuming nothing happens tonight when I am sleeping I will be going home tomorrow.
![]() R went out to get dinner and brought back nail polish she wanted to do my nails; which while I quit biting them a while ago they are still pretty short; and even then I like my nails short since it is easier to type that way; but they are cute and Christmasy. She also sent M home for a quick shower. They are both taking off work again tomorrow so they can get me when I am discharged; I also need to go get 'baby' from the mall parking lot. I have a lot of studying to do tomorrow, it's so hard to study on much of anything around here with the buzzing, beeping, no personal space from the medical staff. I know I am going to do well on three of them, not quite sure how I feel about Epidemiology, I mean I have an A in that class; but I really want President's for the first time; since I do have straight A's in all classes going into finals. I usually made Vice President's list during my associate's degree; but I really want President's List. I want to prove everyone that has ever doubted me wrong. That I can work full time and college full time. ~Christina I think my entire office is made up of angel's but M and R especially. How are you by the way; haven't seen you in a while was afraid something might have happened? I feel really good tonight; but I think a big part of that was the shower. Hugs to everyone ![]() ![]()
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I had a good day today despite my student getting aggressive and trying to push me and other people. Spent the day in detention with him again. They’re trying to get him to stay home until his meds even out. So I hope he doesn’t come in the rest of the week, because Friday is the last day before winter break and my regular student is coming back in the new year so I won’t have to deal with him anymore.
RS is coming over tomorrow to help me make cookies. He’s also coming to my son’s winter concert on Wednesday. Everything just feels so right with him. He’s so sweet he’s getting my mom a gift to let her know how much he appreciates her watching my son so we can go out. I don’t know how I got so lucky!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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#1036
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I dislike Christmas stress. I am about to loose it.
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all, been reading and many hugs and good thoughts.
(((Everyone))) _________ I have been in a decent mood, a good mood,.. a mood that forgets boundaries I gues..Boundaries that I made... I am a contradiction...
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Sunday was nice, I may have enjoyed myself a bit too much with my ex.. i don't feel bad about what we did, ((and want a repeat)) .. but " I know, I know.. I know"... I'm just perplexed in a way. ... I deleted what I wrote... just the ending thought of Wtf is wrong with me? Stays.
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Right now- I found this funny I actually told my ex "happy holidays!" (( It's one of these years .. but who knows)). And a part of me says to live in the moment - this is life- and another says prepare for January!! I will try to balance both. Looking at tablets and other things, ... my friend that I mentioned ((outside of work)) .. she may go with me to a mall tomorrow-- it's been a "minute" since I've been to a mall. I never was a mall person but I have always liked to.go to the mall one time when I haven't been for years... Idk why I am happy this year.. 2018 was not the greatest...and perhaps that.plays into this.. strangely in july I was down and out... ya know, i.dont understand my cycles.. some years I am like this, other years no- opposite... if indeed 3 pdocs are correct, and I cycle .. but I have these rapid changes... but idk.. I just don't right now. ![]() An odd thing today I had a neighbor come up to.me today out of the blue, telling me about how he is bipolar and that's why he and the evicted neighbor girl got along,... he was trying to explain his bipolar to me and I was listening, also encouraged him with learning more ((he said he was learning more and I was like - right on man)).... This neighbor, I've chatted with a few times, even made a funny one night when he was drunk and had his key in the door and I was going to help him out... but he -- has hit things, which scares me-- my PTSD goes up... and I can freeze or fight depending... I want to be a friend but must stay safe.
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#1038
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I can't sleep. The tremors are worse and it seems when i relaax they get going.
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#1039
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![]() Have you reported this to your pdoc? Maybe you have done so and I've forgotten? I am so sorry you are going through this. ![]() I hope it goes away immediately. I also hope you can get some decent sleep. ![]() WC
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() This time of year can be so very stressful! ![]() I hope you can find at least moments of relief. The holidays will be over soon! ![]() WC
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A great deal of weight is placed upon the treating physician's report. ![]() I think some of the meds contribute to depression, especially those used for anxiety. I hope cutting back is helpful. ![]() WC
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![]() When I was working, it was very cut-throat in "corporate America." One had to be very cautious, which was disheartening. I hope you will successfully process this experience and can heal. ![]() WC
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#1044
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Wearing hats and laughing because I'm, as he put it, "wacko," "f*cked in the head," "crazy." If I laugh and act like I'm joking they won't know that I know.
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I did sleep about 5 1/2 hours. My youngest woke mme up at 12:30 am to fill out some school paperwork! Ooh Im so mad at him! Then i couldnt get back to sleep until 2. No I havent called pdoc. Maybe iys time to.
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![]() Some times I tell myself "things work out some how some way,as long as I keep trying... things may not work out exactly how I desired, planned or wanted to but they do work out.. or at least I hope" My friend is skipping out on me but for good reason. Nonetheless I will journey to the mall and this gives me more freedom... thou the thought of having a moment with another ((just simply bonding time )) would be nice. I will try and go smile at strangers today which can be a good pastime for me.
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Checking in.
I'm dancing alone to latin reaggeton. Some country too, for balance. PayPal warns me of attemps and deny. Then next day, they raise the limit. They have me on a 100 a day diet. But raising. Ah, six months to pay no interest. Grrreat!!!. Even Capital One raised my limit. With a 592 credit score. Am I lucky or what!. They don't seem to realize I'm robbing Peter to pay Paul. I'm becoming a mini Bernie Madoff. Hehe. i worked a show last weekend, and did good. I could buy three more guns and two knives. Which presents a problem. I need one more safe. And the space to place it. Why they keep coming with new stuff?. Like a good patriot, I hafta fulfill my duty of keep the economy rolling. Came back home with eleven dollars, after gassing Hooker up. A FORTUNE!!!. TTTHP I don't have a gas card............yet. Well, enough with my situations. HOW ARE YOU GUYS DOING???. Good Luck. Cheers!!.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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#1048
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I slept!!!!!!!!!!
![]() I have an appointment later today with a nutritionist my psychiatrist referred me to for my ED. Hopefully that goes well. Other than that I'm just enjoying being able to do whatever I want for winter break!
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
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today I finally got round to watching "elf", and actually really enjoyed it.
I think i mentioned here before- someone tried to lend me the disk but it was badly damaged. it was nice to watch it in full on tv- okay, so the end was a bit.... blah, but the rest of it was good (I love the fact that one of the characters in elf has my name!) it's still not as good as muppet's christmas carol, but the movie is up their now as one of my top christmas movies. could it be something I watch every christmas?. quite possibly! had my nails repainted today (gold with glitter), and also wrote my shopping list and menu for next week. the bad sides of today is that I didn't sleep at all last night, and that I spent the day in unthinkable amounts of pain (I think I had enough pain in my back and legs today to probably break a world record) also very depressed |
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#1050
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![]() Your nails sound pretty! ![]() I hope you can find a way to enjoy the season. ![]() WC
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