[FriendlyJoe]

I've been spiraling downhill with no brakes and it keeps getting worse. I hate leaving work everyday because I don't want to be home. I'm looking at other options so I can ignore my own sadness and hatred of being at home. I've signed up to be a volunteer for the elderly in my city. A lot of them has been forgotten by their families and are totally alone. When I bring happiness to someone it makes me forget about my own life. I've got to get out of my house on the weekends and do something other than some hobbies.

I've been looking for a part time job. Ive got to do something soon or I'm going to lose it.

I use to have 3 jobs and I think I know why I was happier back then. Working 24/7 helps me feel normal as long as I dont tell anyone I'm putting in 100hrs a week. But if that's what makes me happy I guess I should do it.

Nothing "fun" intrested me anymore.

Does anyone else feel this way? Hate being at home and having a massive hatred of doing nothing productive?

[~Christina]

I can relate I use to work 3 Jobs , back before I was officially diagnosis Bipolar. I thought everyone felt like me , way prior to having the internet at my fingertips.

Now on SSDI living in a tiny rural town with not enough volunteer work to be found and I’m not one to go to church. I have picked up some hobbies that I still can do. My life is boring , I am boring.

[FriendlyJoe]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I can relate I use to work 3 Jobs , back before I was officially diagnosis Bipolar. I thought everyone felt like me , way prior to having the internet at my fingertips.

Now on SSDI living in a tiny rural town with not enough volunteer work to be found and I’m not one to go to church. I have picked up some hobbies that I still can do. My life is boring , I am boring.

Get out of the rural area if you can. I moved from Los Angels to a small rural town in the midwest, thinking a less stressful life is what I needed. I was extremely wrong and became very suicidal. I had to move back to California because I was so miserable and it took a year to snap out of my massive depression. I still have my bad times but nothing at the level I was at. It was so bad I literally dont remember large parts of my life while living in the midwest.

[~Christina]

I moved out of big city Tampa Florida to get away from the non stop hell that my life turned into lol sold out place in Florida with a hefty mortgage and bout our home and acreage outright , so huge relief.

I bought land and had horses , goats, chickens and rabbits. LOVED it but Fibromyalgia and PsA started getting in my way of riding and caring for everything. Now we just have 2 dogs. They are enough for me.

I love having cows as neighbors. But living here has its downsides, I mean I have satilitte internet with a data limit * gasp* I know lol

I drive a hour north or south for a decent town with restaurants and shopping , does make it harder to overspend. Lol

[FriendlyJoe]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I moved out of big city Tampa Florida to get away from the non stop hell that my life turned into lol sold out place in Florida with a hefty mortgage and bout our home and acreage outright , so huge relief.

I bought land and had horses , goats, chickens and rabbits. LOVED it but Fibromyalgia and PsA started getting in my way of riding and caring for everything. Now we just have 2 dogs. They are enough for me.

I love having cows as neighbors. But living here has its downsides, I mean I have satilitte internet with a data limit * gasp* I know lol

I drive a hour north or south for a decent town with restaurants and shopping , does make it harder to overspend. Lol

We drove 3 hours for the decent malls. And it was 8 miles away from the 30k population small town. I wanted to become farmer joe but my wife said absolutely not. I got so bored I created a HGTV landscaped front yard. And I was out in the country 10 mins away from town lol.

Also I think all the internet service providers are putting data caps or at least a lot of them. I'm in California and our internet provider has a cap too.