I really can't explain the emotions I am feeling right now. I honestly really and truly feel OK. I don't feel sad, or happy, or elated. I feel just fine -- but on under this"OK" feeling is this underlying nervousness and anxiousness, and negative emotion that is bubbling to the surface. How do you explain that you're feeling fine and you're not doing well at the same time?!? Ugh, I just wish I had words for it.

Anyone else ever feel this way? Got a name for it?

[BipolaRNurse]

Sounds like a mixed episode to me.

[yellow_fleurs]

Do you think your mood is stable, but you are dealing with some anxiety or emotional difficulties? That could may cause that. Or, in the extreme version of this I was in a mixed episode. I was actually kind of happy at the time, though, but also felt off. One time in that state I went to my pdoc and he was like "oh you look less depressed" and I said yea, I am not really depressed, I just feel....weird. I knew something was wrong and that I was somehow not really stable. And I wasn't. There was a lack of inner peace and lack of feeling grounded for me. I did not feel like myself. Not sure if this is what you are describing, but I do understand feeling "okay" and "not okay" at the same time.

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Do you think your mood is stable, but you are dealing with some anxiety or emotional difficulties? That could may cause that. Or, in the extreme version of this I was in a mixed episode. I was actually kind of happy at the time, though, but also felt off. One time in that state I went to my pdoc and he was like "oh you look less depressed" and I said yea, I am not really depressed, I just feel....weird. I knew something was wrong and that I was somehow not really stable. And I wasn't. There was a lack of inner peace and lack of feeling grounded for me. I did not feel like myself. Not sure if this is what you are describing, but I do understand feeling "okay" and "not okay" at the same time.

That about sums it up actually -- I don't really feel stable but I'm not depressed. Perhaps it's a mixed episode, maybe it's just excess stress. I guess as long as I'm not alone in the thought of going through some weird mix of emotions, I feel better. Thanks!

[Daonnachd]

Whatever it is, I hope it ends soon.

A'best

[yellow_fleurs]

I also hope you are feeling more stable and well soon.

[FriendlyJoe]

Originally Posted by Brentus

I really can't explain the emotions I am feeling right now. I honestly really and truly feel OK. I don't feel sad, or happy, or elated. I feel just fine -- but on under this"OK" feeling is this underlying nervousness and anxiousness, and negative emotion that is bubbling to the surface. How do you explain that you're feeling fine and you're not doing well at the same time?!? Ugh, I just wish I had words for it.

Anyone else ever feel this way? Got a name for it?

It's hard to explain but yes It comes and goes all the time. It's usually when I finally have a balance of emotions. It can last a day, weeks or months. It doesn't last that long for me then I'm back to being manic or depressed mostly manic. I do enjoy those periods of ok'ness though.

[bizi]

keep posting, I hope it is helping you.
I am sorry you feel like you are unraveling.
Try to stay grounded and take good care of yourself. Like eating well, good sleep, Meds, fresh air, walking etc. self care stuff. You are in a fragile state I believe. We would not want you to hurt yourself.
ok
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Calypso2632]

I have the same upy downyness that's really not episodes yet really not comfortable. I've been feeling that way myself looking for work and dealing with financial stress and my CSW telling me to relax when she has no financial crisis, and having to approach my landlord (again) to ask for money. But this time it's for good cause! To get to work!! And my boyfriend drinking. All my anxiety and over stimulating myself with electronics when I know I need to get away from screens and pick up a book, or go out and walk.. sometimes the music I choose even sets me off so I need to be wise and listen to my bodies signals with that as well. We are complicated creatures and need to actively participate in self care. Listen to the cues our bodies and minds tell us and try to act and soothe accordingly. Aromatherapy is really a beautiful thing. I learned a lot more about it today, about essential oils. And a specific company that puts them out. And a more broad range for anxiety and stress and sleep and pain and more. I'm so impressed with what our brains can do with scent. And quite a few if made properly can be ingested. Way cool!! The company is doTERRA. I stumbled on them on Facebook. Anyway I'm rambling now...