is anyone else currently missing mania?

talking today to someone about times when I've been mannic and done really fun (or bizarre stuff

what do you all do when you miss mania (may be a strange question, but yeah)

want it back

the good old days of... well, weirdness

beats sitting here borderline in tears

[Miss Laura]

Miss it terribly.... but know inducing it which I have done before is a stupid thing to do. I try to do things i enjoy like getting a massage or going for relaxation things. I'm not that fun tbh so that's as exciting as it gets

[Pookyl]

I miss the type of mania I used to have in the early days of bipolar.
Nowadays my manic episodes are scary and unpleasant so I don’t miss them.

[Nammu]

I second Pookyl , I miss the early days of what was more hypomania before they turned destructive and scary.

[otroo]

I miss the beginning days of my mania but hate how I end up.

[~Christina]

I had no clue at the time of course but back in my 20’s I can look back and see at least 3 times I was hypo for nearly a year !!

I was loving every min of the day , I think I slept maybe 3 hours a night if any.

It’s also back when I drove onto a dealership lot and asked my daughter age 6 which car she liked the best and I bought, it happened twice over a couple years. The sales man each time had to ask me if I wanted to test drive it first??? I guess I did lol

Now? I might get a weeks worth of Hypo at most then it just go into a ugly hateful mania that swiftly gets worse by going mixed.

I do miss the ole days of flying high and randomly just buying a new car because I was too lazy to wash the one I had. I distinctly remember that was my logic on one of the purchases lol

And who says Bipolar is terrible to have lol

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're feeling so sad, @raging vortex!! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need some comfort, ok? Same goes for EVERYONE else as well of course! I understand why you'd all miss mania as there are DEFINITELY good sides to it - at least in the beginning! I hope you'll ALL be able to find some Peace and Hope! Please NEVER give up hope! It does get easier after a while! I'm SURE of that! PLEASE DO KEEP FIGHTING! Sending many safe, warm hugs to YOU, @raging vortex, ALL of You, your Families, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones!!

[xRavenx]

I can definitely relate. I miss feeling so on top of the world, unstoppable, and uninhibited. I miss having confidence and taking risks that seemed fun at the time, until things got really bad.
Sometimes I wish I could just have a touch of it back... but I try to keep in mind that things wouldn't end well at all.

[LadyShadow]

Originally Posted by otroo

I miss the beginning days of my mania but hate how I end up.

This 10000 times this.

The mania is an invincible feeling but $23,000 in debt now makes me feel so horrible and I can't get away from it.

[Jedi67]

I kind of miss it (I'm a bit manic as I'm writing this) but it has gotten me into so much trouble that I don't really miss it wholly. The mania I'm having now doesn't feel like fun, but in the old days before being diagnosed, it was the best feeling!

[Blueberrybook]

I miss the “high” that comes with mania, the productiveness, the creative ideas, the improved self-esteem. But it has its’ downsides - overspending, irritability dealing with others, the inevitable crash and burn.

[Dysphoria]

Do you guys remember what you did during mania? I am talking type 1 mania. And did you at the time think you were acting abnormally? My "manias" have never been fun. Mine are filled with anger, irritability and agitation. Mix that with no sleep for a week and it really sucks.

I have had hypomanias, though, that were "fun."

I miss the manic high too-- the feeling of God running through my veins, being on top of the world, invincible, not needing any sleep, etc. Yup, miss it.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Dysphoria

Do you guys remember what you did during mania? I am talking type 1 mania. And did you at the time think you were acting abnormally? My "manias" have never been fun. Mine are filled with anger, irritability and agitation. Mix that with no sleep for a week and it really sucks.

I have had hypomanias, though, that were "fun."

My mania was psychotic. I can only remember bits and pieces and it breaks my heart to think about it. I was a terrible mess and rage is putting it lightly. It was basically the antethesis of who I am. Scary stuff. I do not miss it at all. I didn't think I was acting normally. I wasn't thinking at all. It was like my brain would decide something and I'd instantly do it.

[BipolaRNurse]

I don't miss full-blown mania one bit. It's destructive and I'm still paying the price for the episodes I had in the past. However, I looooves me some hypomania and I wish I could experience it again. Every day was the BESTEST DAY EVER! and I loved EVERYBODY and EVERYBODY, and holy crap, look at all the COLORS!!

That being said, I know I really don't want to have hypomania, because while it makes me funny and productive, it also makes me impulsive and I do things like spend a thousand bucks in Walmart and drive recklessly, speeding through town at 55 MPH or so. It's not worth it.