[HALLIEBETH87]

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I’m feeling sad. There’s a thousand reasons why all mixed up into this piece of **** they call me. I’m a useless human being. I just take up space. I was working earlier and thought of bad things with that box cutter I had. I left it at work though. I feel like I have nothing to offer anyone. I try to put on a happy face and you wouldn’t really know how I feel but here I lay crying myself to sleep again. When will my day come? I had a good job and couldn’t hack it and now I’m struggling even more. I have nothing to be proud of for my life. Nothing to show for it. It’s all an endless book of failure and starting over. No wonder I’m single. I wouldn’t date me. I’m thinking about quitting therapy. I feel like a burden to my psychologist because I struggle so much it probably annoys him greatly.

I don’t expect replies so don’t bother. I just had to write it all out.

[Victoria'smom]

I know you don't expect replies but you deserve them. I don't think you should quit therapy. Your not useless and you mean a lot to me I feel this way a lot. I look up to you though you struggle your always trying to improve yourself/situation. Please reach out.

[SorryShaped]

I think you're wonderful. Sure, you've got problems. I got problems of my own. We all do. But, we keep seeking help because we want to get better. That separates those on the path with those that choose mental oblivion.
If I were a little younger, a whole lot more confident, and much better at not screwing up...

[*Beth*]

I'm so sorry. Reading your words...you are in so much pain. I understand how you feel about therapy. I keep thinking the same way. In fact, I'm so tired of thinking it that I'm going to bring it up with my t. tomorrow. Have you spoken with your therapist about feeling like a burden?

[~Christina]

Stop right there my friend

Feelings are not facts.

I know you feel lonely. It’s human nature to want people in our lives even tho we struggle with just that at times.

Your a fighter , just this year alone you have fought huge battles while IP and all that crazy nonsense your Sister pulled. But your upright you found a job that would be easier to manage with in a day ! Some people look for months.

I’m sorry you feel lonely. I wish I could snap my fingers and the right guy appear for you , but what I do know is there is someone out there that will have the same values and beliefs and you will make a wonderful couple and team together.

Go ahead and feel bad for a bit , cry it out , get made, beat the hell out of pillows, go scream in your car, etc.

Continue with your faith and redouble your full beliefs , that is going to help bring you peace. God doesn’t have you on this earth to be miserable and alone , put your faith in knowing that.

I’m a key stroke away, love ya ~?

PS , You need Matt in your life, so stop this whole quitting T stuff. He has never steered you wrong ! He’s so good for you , he always has your best interests at heart !

[MickeyCheeky]

I care, @HALLIEBETH87! We all do. Please be kind to yourself. You have much more value than you believe. Please do not quit your therapist. You're not a burden to ANYONE and he's there to help. You have every right to be helped. Please DO remember that! We're your friends and we're here to help and listen. I hope things will get better soon for you and will start to improve. Please keep working on yourself and remember that you have friends here. I hope you have someone supporting you IRL as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs BOTH you, @HALLIEBETH87, and ALL of your Loved Ones!

Much HallieBeth. Just a bump in the road. You're a wonderful and valued person. Please take good care of yourself. Is there something positive you could do for yourself? A walk? A refreshing shower? (I'm guessing it's rather hot there.) A fun dvd?

[HALLIEBETH87]

As silly as it seems I feel better after a trip to the cofffee shop.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

As silly as it seems I feel better after a trip to the cofffee shop.

I'm with you there. Coffee makes life better.

[yellow_fleurs]

I am sorry you are feeling so bad, but glad you are feeling a bit better after the coffee shop. The combo of getting out, being around people, and drinking coffee often lifts me out of a low mood (unless I am in a mood where coffee makes me super irritable and anxious haha). Really hope you continue to feel better, and you are definitely NOT useless! That is a lie your brain is telling you. I understand as I have felt completely worthless myself at times.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I see t tomorrow. I think he thinks
I just feel sad from
Rejection but it’s lots of things all rolled
In one