Bipolar check in #37

Hi, all. Iwas busy today. I got a coffee at Tim Hortons and talked with my friend for a short bit on the phone. Then, I drove to the credit union to get a cashier's check for the rent (on the last day I could turn it in without getting charged extra). Then, I dropped off the check and picked up my scripts. When I got home, I took a shower- after 4 days without- and felt refreshed. Then N3 wanted to go to the Salvation Army to shop. Both my remaining pairs of jeans are developing holes. So it was senior day and the line was very long but it went quickly as they had all hands on deck, as it were. I got 3 pair of jeans and two shirts. We had lunch at a hoagie/sub place - drove around town getting there. When we got home, I washed my "new" clothes and put on the tv. N3 has his gf over for another hour then its movie time for me then bed.

Man, I'm pretty bummed. I just bought a cable subscription and the coax port doesn't work in my apartment, so I can't actually watch anything on TV. I have to pay $59.99 for a Comcast guy to come out and "professionally install" the cable box, which is a load of sh_t. But I know the port is f_cked up and that it's not just me. My modem won't work with it either, so I can imagine they'll be here for a while when they find out that it's broken... And who knows how long it'll take for them to fix it.

I wish I knew it was broken when I first got my apartment, but I never checked it because I didn't care for cable. But I got cable because I want to stream stuff and my current internet package doesn't allow for 4K streaming to work very well, so it was either $16 more a month for 4K streaming, or $18 more a month for the 4K streaming and 400+ channels... so you know what I went with.

I'm gonna try to get the installation for free if I can, though. If it turns out that someone snapped a cable somewhere running into my apartment, then I'm going to demand a free installation because it's not my fault that someone else snapped a cable. I opened up the outlet to look at the coax port and it's plugged in properly, so I think the cable in the wall is dead or whatever it's connected to is dead.

On the upside, at least I can watch live TV on my laptop through Xfinity online, so I'm gonna do that right now while I do other stuff...

ugh I just got charged $70 for essentially the same thing, yet the problem was because my newly renovated apartment didn't have the right coax port or something installed. Perhaps the most annoying thing is that this apartment complex has a contract that we can only use Comcast here, yet it wasn't set up for us to use at the renovated apartments. I already had it installed at my old apartment then ended up charged for moving into a new one at the same complex. I was debating arguing it with Comcast, but I doubt I'll win.

I don't check in everyday tho I do read the thread everyday.


I've not been sleeping well. My ambian completely konked out on me. Really need to make a doctor appointment but not looking forward to it as I only have a PCP who does all my meds and trying to explain why sleep in so vital for bipolar stability is hard. He's a nice guy and listened when I first saw him and did write the script for two 10 mg tablets which is high. But mental health is not his balwick. Our relationship is pretty much that the pharmacy calls him and he renews the scripts.


I toss and turn most of the night. I got up last night and watched tv, came here and read a bit before going back to bed and achieving a zen state to get some rest. I can't keep that up for days so yeah......my goal is to get a dr appointment. And maybe bring up the vomiting too.

Soooo nervous about tomorrow. The students come tomorrow and I’ve just been hearing horror stories about how difficult they are. Of course, that’s where I thrive, under normal circumstances (ie not in the middle of a mental health crisis). So I am excited as well. I am just scared I won’t be able to handle the stress. Not just the stress of the behaviors, but the stress of teaching in general. I failed so miserably in the past. I don’t want to fail again.

Wish me luck!

Hey everyone, I hope my “ Thanks” let you know I’m thinking/reading your posts.

I think my Steroid shots have run there course. I needed my rescue inhaler middle of the night and nebulizing today isn’t really helping. My chest is just very heavy.

The steroid has certainly got my Bipolar jacked up as I certainly expected. My head is so loud. I’m agitated , can’t focus, my comprehension is difficult etc etc etc

My T called again to check on me , of course it went to voicemail, I don’t get enough signal in the middle of nowhere. I see him next Wednesday , it’s been a long 6 weeks for sure.

Hugs everyone

I have the exact same problem, this is too rural. My daughters town has that wine and paint class occasionally but they seem to hold it in bad weather in the evening and I don't want to drive in that. The bigger town is an hour the other way and traffic there is worse than Austin tx where I used to live. Funny how I used to drive routinely over an hour to get someplace but because I was still in Austin I thought nothing of it, but here everything is an hour away by interstate and a lot of farms inbetween so I am put off,.....not to mention snow half the year.

I live in Austin! I totally know what you mean about the traffic. It can take an hour just to get 10 miles down the road... I try to avoid the highways when I can but sometimes I just have to use one of them.

Hy y'all. Yeah I lived in south Austin and a lot of stuff including my T was in north Austin. At first I didn't have a car and the express bus took forever, then I got a car! Boy was that freedom. In the beginning I'd try to take 35 and that's hopelessly blocked at all hours, then I tried the loop but I found using the bus routes was actually offen faster even though you have all those stop lights. It's a real headache going north and south.

Evening anxiety is back. Why does it get worse in the evenings!!???? Can’t even watch tv for long

I’m the same. As soon as the sun sets my anxiety increases. I have no idea why.