Bipolar check in #37

I was working my way off of Seroquel. I started to lose sleep again. Pdoc brought me back up to the higher dose of Seorquel. I had a rough night again last night, yet did get a bit more sleep. I have spent the day hungover from the med. I could not think straight until about 4 pm and then it is almost time for more Seroquel. No... just cannot do it. I have to keep a schedule of some sort and need to have my wits about me. Pdoc had told me to manage my insomnia with the Seoroquel for now, as she was headed out on a 2 week vacation and was concerned about changing any meds until she returns. It does not matter that she is away, in that I have always failed to respond well to other meds used for sleep, so even if she was here, we'd not have an ideal choice to work with.

I am very tired but also a bit agitated. I am concerned about the agitation and can only hope it will be just fine.

If I owe you a response to a PM, I am sorry, I have been too overwhelmed with side-effects, etc. I will get to you soon.

I hope everyone will have a good week.
Much Love`

I don't even know what "feeling like myself" is anymore. Since my symptoms started popping up I've either been zonked out on meds or in some sort of episode (or both), not to mention how past trauma is screwing with me today. I took a shower, hid my sharp objects, and threw out my weed like you guys told me (well, honestly I smoked it all but either way it's gone). I'm going to make an effort to get better and I'm going to be honest and assertive at my next pdoc appointment which is on Tuesday.
Still feel like **** though.

Trazodone worked for me for sleep.

Trazodone agitated me and threw me into a mixed episode. Gotta research meds tho.

spikes- I'm glad you are going to be honest. I know how hard it is to be honest. Can you bring someone with you to help explain yourself? or write?

I felt better today. Still low but better than yesterday so meeting my friends for lunch went well.

I had a nice meal... it's served on a large leaf instead of on a plate. And there was a lot of variety especially since it was all vegetarian. At the end of the meal you just put your big leaf into the bin that takes organic waste... no dishes to wash.

Great! It is best to take things a step at a time and you have taken a step!;D
I hope this all goes well for you, even though there may be some hard times. I think it will help you to tune i n here and continue reaching out as you discover your path to healing!

Impressive attitude Spikes!

I think trazadone made me manic and I could not breath out of my nose so could not sleep.
sigh
visteril is working for me along with melatonin short acting and long acting.
bizi

I am no longer vegetarian per se, yet I have always enjoyed finding all types of restaurant experiences.

I have been hoping and praying Wellbutrin would make a big difference for you.
Always good to hear from you!

Hi all. N3 is refusing to get a job. He wont even have to pay that much in bills but hes just acting like a spoiled brat and flat out refusing to get a job. He turns 18 in 2 weeks. Id hate to kick him out!

Moose can you require school or work? I don't know your finances. What does he want to do instead? I've sat down with Miguel and went through legally what is required of him when he turns 18. Maybe knowing it's not coming from you will help?

So it's official I lost my voice again. I was asked how I ever met anyone being so quiet. Even my chart is blank. FML. I don't want to deal with tomorrow.

Id love if he took some classes at school! Ive talked to him about the changes now that he will be 18 but he doesnt seem to care.

Lithium withdrawals (discontinuation syndrome- whatever) are awful. The last three days I’ve spent either asleep or curled up on my couch due to exhaustion, brain zaps, nausea, weird body sensations, dizziness etc. I just could barely move. I did manage to eat a little and do some brief yoga stretches. Luckily I’ve had nothing important on so I can ride this out at home.

This morning I managed a half hour walk and feel more awake. Maybe it’s improving but I still have more tapering to go once this settles down. At least my mood is stable. Just frustrated.

My niece is five days into starting Prozac. No side effects and she seems a bit better. Early days but encouraging.

What was your starting dose of lithium? I take 900mg and am afraid of it.
bizi

I have been coming down from 900 mg XR. Now I’m at 560 mg waiting to step down to 450 mg. I’ve been on it seven years so that is most likely the major reason my symptoms have been so bad. Not everyone has problems coming off. My body seems sensitive to them. Lithium has been a lifesaver for me but it’s time to see if I can manage without it.

Well, I went to bed at 3pm (yes, THREE pm) and woke up at 4am. Still tired and depressed...

I’m at work. Ate breakfast at 4am ish and got to work by 4:35am. I forced myself to go to work because I just *know* I won’t be productive if I work from home. I will stay in bed all day watching TV or some sh_t instead of doing work.

I am still having problems with my stomach

but I am trying to put that aside and be productive. today I made the card that I was going to make yesterday. it looks nice, and later I'm going to give it to the person

If he has a cell phone do you pay for it? If so inform him you will cut off his phone.

Maybe he would be willing to go to a trade school ? At least he would be working towards getting a good paying job ?? I mean he would still have to work at least part time.

Push might come to shove and you will need to be blunt , get a job and pay x amount or you will have to move out.

I’m sorry your in this position

Years ago when I stopped Lithium I was literally sick as a dog for a good 8-10 days. Brain zaps , nausea, chills etc etc

Once I got over the initial detox it honestly took my brain almost 3 months to go back to working correctly. It was just awful.

I have dropped AP’s left and right and most never even gave me a hiccup , but Lithium , dear god it was horrible

I hope you can get through this easier than I did.

I’m glad you got some solid sleep !!!!

Going into work was a very smart thing to do, I’d have a hard time motivating if my sofa and bed where right near me.

Keep up the great work

Well last night after dinner I put on Shameless season 8 and my husband and I stayed up all night laughing like little kids... it’s honestly the funniest show ever , so we finished the entire season around 7 , he went and mowed the pasture.

I need to run into town, maybe we will take a nap later or just stay up until later tonight.

Shameless isn’t a show for everyone , if you get offended easily just don’t even try it. LOL

Hope everyone has a great day

I love Shameless!

Made it through the first hour. H screwed up giving out the kits for class. now we don't have enough supplies for his next class. We'll see how many kids show up to the next class.