[cashart10]

I’m just doing so poorly right now. 😢 I haven’t showered in 5 days and

Possible trigger:

am (at least) passively suicidal.

My t and pdoc both agreed and advised me today that I need to resign from my job because this is the second time in 7 months that I’ve gotten sick and that’s with summers off. I was already thinking that anyway but hearing it...well, I’m just not sure what I’m going to do. My anxiety is through the roof and I tend to only get anxiety during an episode. Feeling very broken.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I had to quit my job earlier this year because I knew it was too much. Now I’m trying again. Maybe it’s not forever? I work part time and it seems to be better for me
But I also get ssdi. Idk how to help except to say self care is the most important thing right now

[liveforsummer]

I had to quit a job that was unhealthy for my mental well being.
I work part time now. Still can struggle with it sometimes but certainly more manageable for the time being.

Take care of YOU

[wiretwister]

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Love . . . . Tigger

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I'm sorry Cash. Giving up working was one of the most painful parts of bipolar. But I know that it was my only option at the time. Sometimes now that I do better on clozapine I think I could work again but I know it isn't true (if for no other reason than I need 12-14 hours of sleep per day and that's not even the best reason) but I know giving up something you enjoy for a reason you hate is really hard.

I hope you can get stabilized and feel better soon; that makes coping with the job thing a lot easier than when you already feel overwhelmed.

[Wild Coyote]

Must be very tough to come to this realization?
I recall being totally devastated when i'd realized I was done working due to illness. It is my hope that you will handle this life event better than I'd handled it. Our friends here are right, it's time to attend to your needs, to take care of you!

Is there any helpful intervention for your current anxiety? What helps right now?

Take this all step-by-step. As they say, "Easy does it."

Keep reaching out here. We are here for you!

[Pookyl]

My commiserations to you. It’s an awful thing when you’re told you’ve got to give up work. I really loved my career.
I hope you stabilise quickly and feel well soon.

[fern46]

I'm sorry you have to make this difficult decision. I too had to give up a job that I loved to focus on mental health. However, I keep reminding myself I only gave up that one job in that one moment. It does not define what I am able to do with the rest of my life. There is hope that I can work again when I am ready. There is hope I can find a schedule that can be healthier for me. Just focus on your health for now and trust the rest will fall into place at the right time.

I'm sorry you're so unwell and have to make such a decision. Will you apply for disability?

You know, it can be very restorative to give yourself time to heal. I do understand, however, that there can be a feeling of loss, but it is not forever. You will find a new path after your healing. Or maybe a return to your job, if that's what you really want.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

How are you doing now?

[cashart10]

Thank you all so much!

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Is there any helpful intervention for your current anxiety? What helps right now?

The only things that seem to be helping are xanex, clonapin, and my therapist. I’m trying grounding techniques and havening but they are very hard to put into practice in the moment!

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I'm sorry you're so unwell and have to make such a decision. Will you apply for disability?

You know, it can be very restorative to give yourself time to heal. I do understand, however, that there can be a feeling of loss, but it is not forever. You will find a new path after your healing. Or maybe a return to your job, if that's what you really want.

Thank you! I’m not sure I have enough work credits to file for disability but I am going to look into it. And for now, I am going to try to find a low stress part time job. My husband has a well paying job so the money isn’t the issue. It’s my desire to feel needed and useful! He also tends to get bitter after a while of me not working because I tend to get depressed and live on the couch which, as he constantly reminds me, is a terrible example to our kids.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

How are you doing now?

Thanks for checking on me! I’m actually doing a bit better since I’m not working but I’m still in a dark and anxious spot. I see my pdoc next wed. We increased my Latuda so hopefully that will also help!

[~Christina]

How are you today ???

[*Beth*]

Hi cashart, How're you doing?