[Fuzzybear]

Hi everyone,
I don't often post in this part of the forum. I've found myself relating quite a lot to some of the recent posts here. There are a lot of thoughts In my head... its hard to put them out there, either in therapy... I've been in therapy a few times and I didn't get it right. I was told I was resistant. etc.

Since meds haven't been kind to me, words are less unkind. Sometimes at least. But I have several harsh internal censors and critics which tell me not to speak...

I was hurt recently on another forum (not pc) I didn't invest a massive amount of energy there but the meanness was a bit shocking. I don't think anyone there thinks I'm the bad guy but I think they saw me as someone new to bully....

It just adds to my deep well of sadness. thanks Wild Coyote for those words.

I suck at words and I've also been accused of 'stealing' other people's words. Ouch. I've made a lot of mistakes. (not anyone here) I don't mind if someone uses my words, I don't have copyright of any words.

I'm not the bad bear that a few people (mostly family) have accused me of being. And being accused of such, and being shunned and abandoned (which happened recently on that other forum, I was ghosted by someone who asked for my real name etc...)… burns me emotionally and, again, adds to my deep well of sadness.

thanks for listening. I'm a bit nervous about posting since I'm not a regular here.

Respect to all

[fern46]

I haven't been around that long, but I always enjoy it when you post. I find it unfortunate you were treated like you were on the other forum. I'm not sure what people feel they have to gain from treating others that way. It is a fruitless and empty adventure. Use the lessons you picked up there and throw the rest away.

I suppose the Internet is just like real life in that everyone is just trying to find their place and some are willing to fight dirty for it. Instead, I choose to open my eyes and see and enjoy the overwhelming abundance this life has to offer us. We can go anywhere and be whoever we choose to be. That is a tremendous gift. Fuzzybear, there are places that will accept you and support you. Carry realistic expectations and go where your energy is best served and returned. If this place can be more of a home to you, I know you would be welcomed with open arms.

I've read some of your posts before about how your family treats you. I'm so sorry you have to endure that. It is my hope it will improve in time. Like here, you control how you spend your precious energy when you deal with family. Tread wisely and remember the value of forgiveness.

Therapy is what you make of it. We cannot control how the meds affect us, but we do have the power to choose bravery and bare our souls to those who are trained to help. It doesn't always go as planned, but I find a positive and stern intent to gain from the experience goes a long way. Therapists learn from us as much as we learn from them. Keep in mind you are a teacher/student and don't be afraid to ask for what you believe will serve you best.

You're incredibly kind. I'm happy to have heard from you today. I hope you choose to pop by more often.

[MickeyCheeky]

You're very much welcome here, Fuzzybear, as you always are. Please don't be afraid of stepping in here. IT'S FULL OF KIND AND WONDERFUL PEOPLE HERE! THAT'S A PROMISE! I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH WHAT THE ALL THE OTHER WISE AND WONDERFUL POSTERS ABOVE THIS POST AND BELOW THIS POST HAVE ALREADY WISELY AND WONDERFULLY SAID BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING! I'm so sorry you were hurt. Those people don't deserve you. They don't appreaciate you and your own unique, special qualities! It's best to surround ourselves ONLY with people who TRULY care about us and TRULY Love us. That's my opinion anyway! There's too many toxic people in this world. Life is too short to waste time with them. So please, be kind to yourself, Fuzzybear. You deserve it! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME. I'm sure plenty of others will alslo GLADLY and KINDLY help you as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, Fuzzybear, Papa Bear, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking! You're the strongest bear there is and there ever will be!

[Mopey]

(((((((( FUZZY ))))))))

I'm sorry people have been mean to you. I don't like mean people.

[still_crazy]

increasingly, people are rude. i think the social scientists call it 'micro-aggression,' and its all over, but I think (I think...not 110% sure...) that its worse in the US. the internet is ground zero for the explosion in rudeness and petty cruelty. :-(

i post on some other forums. i remember being mocked by other people in a couple of them, for no really good reason. sometimes, mental health forums are worse, because people are stuck in their own problems, their own lives, and they see a target and...yeah. we both know the rest.

try not to let it get to you, as best you can. i get taunted and bullied in real life (long, drawn out story), and im just now learning to brush people off and try to free up my mental energy to pursue my own interests, my own goals, pour into those close to me, etc.

i hope life without psych drugs, etc. proves to be a good thing. at any rate...i like your posts, and im glad when i see something you've posted, personally.

[*Beth*]

Hey there, Fuzzy...it's great to see you here, and to read your thoughts.

Internet bullying of adults is a topic that must be brought into the light. It happens far too often and can be extremely triggering and damaging - even dangerous.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry other forums treated you badly. You're always welcomed here.

[liveforsummer]

Keep posting! Happy you’re here 😊

Fuzzybear, we're glad you joined our "family" here at the bipolar forum!

[wiretwister]

Love .. Tigger

[Fuzzybear]

Thanks everyone, I appreciate your kind replies