[wiretwister]

If you just have no desires or wants and really find or have no pleasure in anything . . . do you have to

be depressed . . .

could it just be normal for someone . . . I feel this way but have 0 desires of any self harm . . .

I function at work and can be socially acceptible . . . but I chose to isolate myself when not working . .

I can laugh at you tube and also cry . . . yes my emotions are muted somewhat by meds . . . but I do

experience emotions . . . even my T agrees to that . . . I have not experienced deep depression with sui

since 2015 . . . . strangely I have begun to grind my teeth again . . . it has been years since I did that . .

I feel no stress or anxiety and xanex seems to have little effect . . . nothing has changed med wise or

other for a long time . . . I am no longer even sure if I should change . . . or just accept this is me . . .

not depressed just me . . .


just thinking out loud . . . .




Love . . . Tigger .

[Scooter9]

I'm like you but I know that I've been depressed for 22 months now.

You could just be in a depressive state.

Your don't have to live in the state you're in, it can get better. I continue to try to improve things even though little seems to work.

I found that I need to advocate for myself since no one else knows just how I feel. I give feedback about how I'm feeling to my pdoc and say I'm not where I was before I became depressed. And she agrees that things can get better, we just need to keep trying.

Don't lose hope. This will pass but you need to not accept things the way they are and try to find a better way of living.

I get very mild depressions nowadays, and it's gotten to the point where I can't even tell that I am experiencing depression. I guess I am just so used to depressions where I'd bawl my eyes out every night and fixate on how I wish I were dead that when I compare my "old" depressions to my "new" depressions, I realize that my "new" depressions seem to cause anhedonia, lack of motivation, excessive sleep, and lethargy. Sadness and suicidal thoughts really aren't present.

Needless to say, I think my meds take the edge off things even if they don't prevent depression. While I would obviously prefer not to have depression at all, I am willing to accept the milder symptoms because I do not like being heavily medicated, and that is my choice.

So, perhaps you are in the same boat now: milder depressions because of meds, or maybe even because your bipolar has morphed into something a little different from before.

I definitely think depression can be difficult to identify when you're so used to the deep, dark depressions that cause suicidal thoughts. You almost feel "normal" during these milder depressions, but something in the back of your mind tells you that maybe something isn't quite normal. It causes you to think more deeper about your symptoms and may even lead you to question things more. It's very frustrating, to say the least.