Bipolar check in #39

Ooops!

I am sorry that has happened.

I totally believe you can get things done and well-done before the deadline.

Pulling for you!

Doing pretty well. Was sleeping a ton for about a week. Have an appointment with my advisor at my college Monday to turn in some paperwork that needs to be reviewed so I can hopefully get back in classes by the spring semester. My mind is blank most of the time lately, I've been wanting to post more but can't seem to find the words.

You must feel good to see the process for returning to classes moving forward!

I hope the sleep is helpful?
Or is it problematic?

Do you think the increased sleeping the blank mind and the "word finding" might or might not, be possible side-effects of medications?
Sometimes, these types of symptoms can be from depression/mood changes. Other times they may be caused by meds.

I hope things continue to move forward in the direction/pace most helpful to you!

Thank you Yes, I think it's related to the meds I'm on. I'm as stable as I've ever been though so it's worth it

Good Afternoon Everyone

Well I gave the trazodone another try last night. It took me about a hour to fall asleep but the good thing is that I only woke up once last night (yay!!!). Today I woke up feeling a but groggy and tired.

I also am getting frustrated with one of my bosses. I asked him almost a month ago to write me a letter of recommendation to transfer grad schools and he still hasn't finished it. So now when I go into work I am going to (attempt to) ask him nicely about his progress.

I don't know. They're pretty bad, and I'm also hearing voices telling me to harm myself, it's hard not to.

I’m doing ok despite the occasional sui thought. I think it’s my fault I’m a little wobbly - I forgot to take my Seroquel on Monday and Tuesday I forgot to take my morning meds. Sigh. Hopefully, every thing will even out today.

The electricity is back on. That will mean the fridge is running again, but it also means the thermostat is working and our heater with it. The house had gotten down to the 50s F.


On another front, my doc's office is in the evacuation zone. I have an appointment scheduled for tomorrow. This is the verification that I'm capable of consenting to ECT.

Yet another front, my wife lost her job yesterday.

I got groceries with some of the money that I got for my bipolar study. Cooking dinner right now- chicken and green beans. I feel good today- starting around noon. Im listening to a recording of YoYo Ma talking about Baroque music. Its pretty cool.

Daonnachd-I'm so sorry you have so many bad things happening at once. Are you able to talk to your pdoc over the phone so at least you can get your treatment?

I rang into my pdoc's office today, leaving a voicemail suggesting we do a phone appointment, but I haven't heard back from her. I don't know that she does the remote message retrieval. Who knows, she may live in the evacuation zone and be dealing with more important concerns than me right now. If so, I'd be fine waiting. I'm sure the ECT hospital could come up with another solution. They have before. I'm just nervous not knowing what will happen. (True on all fronts.)

Oh, friend!I Am sorry!

Love and Prayers for you and yours!

Saw my doc, no hospital but he did add an antidepressant, Effexor XR. Just took my first dose.

Thank you. I just got a call from my pdoc's scheduling person. The evacuation has been lifted, but my appointment got shifted to later in the day. Not sure why, but it works just the same.

I hope that means the entire evacuation is ended for everybody.

Test. Posts keep getting eaten. Im grumpy and tired. Cant go to bed because I have to take gf home. Ugh. Her mom doesnt want to leave the party they were at.

Finally in bed at midnight! Im exhausted.

Turns out gf's mom bought them dinner out so I dont feel so grumpy. But im so glad to be in bed. I dont think i ate enough today.

Earlier, I heard this metalic voice out of my left ear and my right ear was ringing. Not sure what the voice said.

Oh no !!!!! Do they have a cancellation list ?? If so get in it. If not I would literally call every afternoon , as by then someone there called to confirm spots or an automated system has and often people call to cancel. I hate you have to wait so long . Grrrrr

Pills are forgotten , wobbles happen. Hopefully tomorrow you will feel much better

Oh I’m so sorry

It was an okay day. Once dinner was done my Husband and I got back to binging our show.. I have been grazing food since dinner. I am NOT hungry, just good ole stress eating. It drives me mad ! Countless calories.

We have another front coming tomorrow high of I think 50 something and dropping to freezing by morning so I am just trying to gear up for dealing up yet another round of every pain flaring up even more. This is just part of Fall and Winter.

I’m trying to focus on how much I love Fall .... colors popping and able to dust off my many boots and my favorite clothes. Suppost to be sunny tomorrow, I will force myself outside and try to get some pictures as our beautiful trees are starting to turn.

Hugs and cookies ~~~

Woke up to 46 degrees outside, glad that I had turned the heat on....house was toasty at 70.
need to get going have a T appointment at 9, yikes need to get going!
bizi

I do feel like I'm having a bona fide downswing.

I don't really want to leave my home. It's been too stressful. My entire area has become a driving nightmare. Many NJ drivers are aggressive as it is, but when they start fixing roads, bridges, and power lines, etc., it's downright evil. The people that plan these things have no consideration for people's mental well-being. They start work on many roads at the same exact time. It gets to the point where you have to take 3rd or 4th choice routes to where you want to go because of detours and cops/others directing one-lane traffic. The 3rd and 4th choices are backed up, too. You attempt other ways, even making illegal turns to find another blockage.The aggression gets even worse with people cutting others off, butting in unfairly, honking on horns, tailgating, and even worse. The other day my husband was coming home to work and because he didn't let a man butt in where he shouldn't have, the man pulled up real close to my husband's car at a light and started banging on my husband's car to yell at him. Fortunately, my husband is adequately intimidating to shut such people up. When I've been driving, I find myself literally screaming in my car. I can be aggressive, too. I crank up my radio to full blast and swing loudly or even almost "headbang" to heavy metal music. Middle fingers, etc., are very common. Then you get behind someone doing 25 mph in a 45 mph area with no place to pass.

Dad has been moved to a rehab facility. Kind of a place between the hospital and being able to return home. My sister said that a woman (social worker???) will be talking to all of us about Dad's aftercare. Sis said for me to expect a call. That means I have to answer my phone no matter what. Usually I screen calls because most are robocalls or solicitation calls. Occasionally I get called from people who say "You just called me!" and I hadn't. These criminal robocall people somehow call where it shows a local number, even ones that are actual residential numbers. I once had one man tell me to report it, but there is nothing we can do at this point. People would be be reporting such thing multiple times per day. Politicians have to do something about this! Sometimes the solicitors are even aggressive. Honestly, you are supposed to be in the safety of your own home and you end up having fights with callers. Even "good" solicitors are cocky/aggressive. Once the New York Philharmonic tried calling us to sell a season package and we put our parrot on the phone with him. We left for a bit and came home to find a voice message saying "Your parrot agreed to our season package, so I will need your credit card number to complete the purchase." At least that did make us laugh. Most are not laughing matters.

BirdDancer, I'm sorry you're not feeling well. If you're interested in another strategy to deal with solicitation callers, my MIL uses a dog whistle and just blows it really loud several times. Typically they hang up pretty quickly.

That's a good one! I am sure there are lots of creative responses to these. Usually, if I even pick up, I just hang up quickly. Sometimes my husband plays with them and they eventually hang up, but some even "play along".

Thanks, Daonnachd! I hope you get to your appointment safely. I'm sorry there have had to be evacuations. Hugs to those in those communities.