Bipolar check in #39

I slept until 3:45 this afternoon! Ugh. I was dreaming good long dreams and didnt wake up until then. Now its 9 pm and im in bed watching tv.. Im hoping I sleep through the night as the night before last i was up for 2 hours in the middle of the night.

I'm worried I won't be able to sleep tonight at all, which is worrying since I have to pay rent tomorrow.

I'm sick with a cold. I'm feeling cold and everything hurts.

I'm drinking water, taking Tylenol and trying to rest although I am working from home.

Hi, all. Today I'm pretty much washed out, empty, and at the same time full of potential energy. Energy I can't seem to direct anywhere. Mary seems a bit exasperated with me, but is still supportive and concerned about my hollow behavior. Mixed episodes are pure hell.

Four weeks ago I had a complete meltdown, possibly the worst I've ever had. I'll spare you details, but it came on suddenly, and my pdoc was so concerned she called me and got me in the next day, an unheard of event at the VA. She got me an appointment with a new tdoc the same week, also unheard of. She and she have seen me three times each since then, with more sessions already scheduled for the next few months. I'm just cruising on auto-pilot right now, with fluoxetine/Prozac added to the mix.

Had a sleep study last night. Pdoc and I discussed the possibility that I could also be narcoleptic, as if I need a new complication. She asked me a slew of questions then scheduled me for a sleep study. Well, something got mixed up, since I was given a sleep study for sleep apnea. Will be seeing her in 4 days, I guess we'll start over

I hope everyone has a calm and enjoyable Halloween, sorry for being so verbose. (<< Does that look anything like a jack-o-lantern on your screen?)

We had a power outage today that made me really feel for those in CA because 6 hours was more than enough.

I somehow had a shelf with glass mice I collect on it come smashing down and hit a globe shaped glass lamp and shattered that, terrifying my cats. There was a tree down across the neighbors drive behind me but I'm thinking that they heard that noise and that the transformer blew which is a scary enough sound to make anyone hide under the couch for 8 hours.

Now I've got a weird problem; I think my thermostat was destroyed somehow. It doesn't matter what I set it on, if it is set to "heat" it keeps running until I wonder if I'm having hot flashes again and it is at 76 degrees. Right now I'm testing to see if it will go below the set temp but I'm pretty sure it will. So I'm trying to clean up my house some in case we have to call someone out to fix it tomorrow.

Really hoping for a miracle....

I'm sorry the cold gives you pain. It's been kind of invigorating tonight. I've had about 2 hours sleep in the past two nights it just wears me down now where's when I was younger the longer I went without sleep the more wond up I got. I worked full time, went to the u full time and still had a social life back then. I'm sure the lack of sleep is compounding the flare. Bodies need sleep to heal, but the BP mind doesn't cooperate. I hope you get some restful sleep tonight. Just 7 more day So!

Pie = homemade apple with sharp cheddar cheese. Um!

We had a power outage today that made me really feel for those in CA because 6 hours was more than enough.


I somehow had a shelf with glass mice I collect on it come smashing down and hit a globe shaped glass lamp and shattered that, terrifying my cats. There was a tree down across the neighbors drive behind me but I'm thinking that they heard that noise and that the transformer blew which is a scary enough sound to make anyone hide under the couch for 8 hours.


Now I've got a weird problem; I think my thermostat was destroyed somehow. It doesn't matter what I set it on, if it is set to "heat" it keeps running until I wonder if I'm having hot flashes again and it is at 76 degrees. Right now I'm testing to see if it will go below the set temp but I'm pretty sure it will. So I'm trying to clean up my house some in case we have to call someone out to fix it tomorrow.


Really hoping for a miracle....

Very long day.

Exhausted. in severe pain. Can barely walk, sit, stand. Worked too hard yesterday.

Another long day tomorrow.

Love to all!

Yas!!!! We need sleep !! It’s 4am and I’m still wide awake, ugh. I do plan to just go lay in bed and stare at the wall for at least 4 hours, maybe I’ll bore myself to sleep ??

One can hope lol

Yas!!!! We need sleep !! It’s 4am and I’m still wide awake, ugh. I do plan to just go lay in bed and stare at the wall for at least 4 hours, maybe I’ll bore myself to sleep ??

One can hope lol

It's 7:00am, but it's still dark. I'm not ready for the darkness of winter.

Well, so the Zyprexa we added temporarily for this sleep crisis does work. I take it and then I sleep. The problem is, I am still somehow sleeping much more in the day that at night. The med zonks me (20 mg qHS). Which is why I am up right now (3 AM my time). Somehow just have to get this thing turned around and onto the correct clock. Going to try to power through today without any naps. Not sure I can do that, but it is necessary.

Other than that, mood-wise, I feel much better than I have in a couple of weeks. No doubt, this is due to the sleep. Grateful for that. Will have to figure out what the long-term sleep solution will be. I can't take Ambien (causes me to sleep-cook and sleep-walk and do other bizarre things). Seroquel only works for a finite period of time in me, then I am tolerant and it no longer does anything. Won't take Zyprexa long-term--causes me to eat everything in site. On and on. Remeron worked a long time ago. Worked really well. Might have to try that one. We'll see.

So, that's it. Things are a bit better right now. And I am grateful.

Ohhhhh Apple is my favorite.... but I must say I have never been able to wrap my head around adding cheese LOL