Bipolar check in #39

18 days alcohol free, down 5.5 pounds.

I started AF on October 21st the day my great niece was born.
bizi

That's great Bizi!

Awesome Bizi

Congratulations bizi! That’s wonderful news!

Well done, Bizi. You've got a collection of things to be proud of.

Congratulations, bizi! I know how alcohol can ruin lives and hurt relationships. I am glad that you are working at sobriety. I know it can be difficult, but worth it.

Let me try this again. I was to travel to meet M this morning and could not accomplish that. This pain is wearing me out and down. I am disappointed and disheartened that I am missing out on this opportunity. I’ll see her at Thanksgiving but she has 5 places to be so that’s not really a visit. Oh well, I’ll work something out. There’s always Christmas and I have asked her not to travel this season as she usually does since she’ll be going abroad this summer for 8 weeks. I think that’s reasonable.

I hope everyone is having a good weekend.

Yesterday I called my father and said I would visit him this weekend. I haven't told my husband. I'm afraid he won't want to go. Today we dropped one of our two cars off at the shop for a minor repair, then walked home. It's chilly outside! He likely won't want to do more. I may have to go alone or arrange to go with my brother or sister.

Congrats Bizi!

It's been quite a challenge, as it can be for anyone.
I a always proud to call you "friend," AF or not.
However, I do support you completely in your desire to live an AF life.

Much Love to You, My Friend

Good Morning!

We still have snow!

I deeply appreciate those who are keeping my aunt and/or my family in mind, offering positive thoughts, healing thoughts, prayer and any other positive offering.

My aunt has made it through open-heart surgery. It may surprise many, as she was told she was not a candidate for this type of a procedure.
She was , again, transferred. She was transported to a different university hospital in a different state. She has lived through the surgery. She is in a tremendous amount of pain today.

I will update if there are any significant changes.

Thank you for your ongoing love and support!

Congratulations on your daughter getting engaged. That’s exciting! I hope you are able to enjoy the events as smoothly as possible.

That’s tremendous news. Continued prayers for her well being.

Here you are!
It's so funny, when I am about to write a note, asking how you are doing, you show up!
I hope your hypomania settles down asap.
Congrats on your daughter's engagement!

How is hubby these days?
I think of you both often!
Lovely to read an update!
Much Love to You!

I hope your visit goes well.

Thanks, Jennifer. I was correct that my husband said he couldn't go. I called my brother and he is sick. I will leave in a little bit and go with my sister.

Hi Scooter!
Mixed states can be just horrible!
I am sorry you are having to deal with this.

I saw my pdoc yesterday and I had asked a bit more about people with BP becoming hypomanic/manic on Mirapex. She'd reiterated that it is critical they are also on a mood stabilizer when on Mirapex. I thought I'd pass this on to you , for whatever it is worth.

I hope you get over both your cold (?) and this mixed state soon.

Hi Jennifer,

Ongoing pain is so trying!
Is there any way to achieve relief? Or at least some degree of relief?

I hope things work out for the best over the holidays.
the holiday season can be so very difficult. Maybe we can think of ways to make this season less stessful?

My heart goes out to you, my friend!

I continue to think of you and of your family, offering positive thoughts and prayer. You are in a very difficult position. I admire the way you continue to show love to your dad. You are an amazing person in so many ways!

I hope the visit goes well. It is really very kind and loving of you to offer your time and support to your father.

Hi WC, I'm not on a mood stabilizer anymore. I was on Lamictal but I had to stop it after 4 years because it was damaging my liver.

My pdoc is being really aggressive with my depression with Latuda, Wellbutrin, and now Mirapex. I tried lithium but it didn't do anything for me.

I'll speak with her about some other mood stabilizer and see if she agrees if this keeps up.

I'm doing ok today. Still mixed but I'm managing. The cold is taking it's time in going away. I'm still coughing etc but no fever finally.

Also, I'm doing things around the house now, which I haven't done in a very long time.

I'm hoping this is just my brain getting used to Mirapex and that this will pass.

I had a good day today. RS was home so we went to home goods and finally got our curtains for our windows. We’ve been saying we’re going to get them for four months now. Well we have them now and they’re up. RS bought my son a bunch of toys for his birthday and I bought a couple of little Christmas decorations. It was nice.

Dinner with my in laws went well too. Had some nice conversation.

Tomorrow we might go to the flea market and look around. I find the flea market quite overwhelming because there is just SO much stuff to look at but RS and my son both like it. I’m just glad RS doesn’t have to work. It’s nice to have a whole weekend with him. He decided not to go fishing today because of the crazy low temperature, and he has a cold and hasn’t been feeling well the past few days. So I got to have him home all day. Very happy.

Oh dear, the liver issue with Lamictal is downright scary!
thanks for sharing this. I know I'll be getting my liver function checked because you've shared.

It's kind of nice to be doing things around the house, isn't it?

I'd had a discussion with my pdoc just 2 days ago. She feels I have a touch of hypomania. We went through the criteria for hypomania and I could not see where she was coming from and told her so.

I'd asked her if there is a problem with possibly being a bit hypo in order to be functional? She'd said she could li ve with it if I could sleep better. She then dropped by morning dose by 0.5mg. : I'd protested. It happened anyway.
I have to laugh.

I so do not want an ugly depressions to start!

I hope your cold disappears asap!

Thanks so much, Scooter!
Much Love to you and to your own. : )

Here I am spending more money than I actually have. I have purchased $160 headphones, with a $360 headphone amplifier. I am now listening to music from my PC. It is very nice sounding due to my new setup, but totally unnecessary. Oh well. I have recently been driving my daughter to work and back, This has costed me for gas, so I am having her give me gas money from time to time, I need to clean this place up. It is a mess. My step son is coming over to pick up my car. The power steering is not working, so he may be able to fix it for me. I am thinking of driving for Uber. I may start off delivering food for Uber Eats.

That is about it as far as things that I have dons go. I need a job, but I do not know if I can handle a regular job. For one thing, I am easily distracted, with my mind going around thinking of different things. I heed to focus. My piano lessons have been helping there a little. I do not want to fail on a job. I already have a low opinion about myself right now, having been very unreliable lately.

My neighbor is not interested in having me over anymore. Ever since I stopped her controlling, dominating ways toward me, her interest in having me over has waned. I tried to come over twice, but she was busy. One time, she was too busy cleaning her drip coffee maker. She always finds excuses. So I may try back a week from now. When I am bored and lonely, I want someone to talk to about anything at all. She is no longer the place to go for this. Both her and her live-in 60 year old son have their mental issues and idiosyncrasies that I have had to contend with in the past. I have enough to deal with right now as it is. Maybe it is just as well, this is happening to me, and now I need to move on.

I’m sorry you just weren’t up to making the drive, pain just absolutely sucks.

I’m glad you have holidays coming up to enjoy with her

Hope your pain eases soon

Not really doing well. I'm pushing through which is a good thing you could say. I hope everyone here is doing okay.