[HALLIEBETH87]

Idk if I’m falling into depression or just lazy?!

My good friend says I’m allowing myself to fall downward and she’s probably right but idk why I’d do that.

I’ve been staying in bed all day on days I have nothing urgent to do. I’ve been cancelling plans. I have t showered in 2? 3? Days. I have been taking my meds.

I’m still ruminating about times my life was threatened by my step monster. She should have just done it and saved me the trouble. I attempted to take my life while In ip this past spring. Another failure on my part. My best attempt wasn’t enough.

I feel stupid and lost. But at the same time
I’m excited for my upcoming vacation.

[~Christina]

Focus on your vaca , get up outta that bed after no more that 10 hours, get dressed and go somewhere, bake something new, read your favorite boook again..... But... please do shower first and then continue showers every single day no exceptions.

As for step Monster your allowing her far too much space in your head, write up all her bullshyt take it out side and burn it.

[Skeezyks]

Here's a link to DocJohn's article on the topic "Am I Depressed or Just Lazy" from PC's archives:

Am I Depressed or Just Lazy?

[sophiebunny]

You have a propensity toward depression. You know your symptoms. You have good judgement. Use it.

[Row Jimmy]

I think it's neither. My advice? Take a nice hot shower and sit in there for 15 minutes. Then go plop on the couch. Read a book or start at the wall. Your gain some clarity. Sometimes, we need to clear our mind to gain perspective. There's too much crap going on and it clogs up the cranium.

[*Beth*]

Maybe I'm a softie, but I don't believe in "lazy." What might appear to be laziness, well, scratch the surface and something else will be found...sadness, depression, grief, physical pain, hopelessness, feeling discouraged...something.

The way I deal with the way (I think) you're feeling is to set 2 small goals (take a shower and dust the book shelf, for example). Then I reward myself when those goals are accomplished by doing something nice (whatever that might be). Next, I set a larger goal. And so on, until I come to a place of knowing whether the initial problem is passing - or if I need to reach out for professional help.