[OliverB]

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I am so afraid of going that I am thinking about cancelling tomorrow.

[Victoria'smom]

Try not to cancel. I know it's scary but they're there to help.

[Mopey]

Do you know what you are afraid of, OliverB? It's true that sometimes you won't click with a therapist and need to look for another one, but if you do, and you feel comfortable to talk about why you're there, could be the start of some real healing for you.

[~Christina]

What is driving your thoughts off not seeing your Pdoc !! Specific reason or just an overall just wanting to go.

Are you stable and think you just don’t need tooo?

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Mopey

Do you know what you are afraid of, OliverB? It's true that sometimes you won't click with a therapist and need to look for another one, but if you do, and you feel comfortable to talk about why you're there, could be the start of some real healing for you.

I already have a therapist/psychologist I get along with. The problem is I only see him once each 3-4 months (public health system... Sucks...). He wants me to see the psychiatrist that works there too.

I am feeling really unwell. I do not want to see anyone or talk to anyone. Just disappear from life... I migth take some prazosin, maybe I am just again agitated.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

What is driving your thoughts off not seeing your Pdoc !! Specific reason or just an overall just wanting to go.

Are you stable and think you just don’t need tooo?

Probably my problems are not cured by my pdoc.

My problems ARE pdocs. So much heatred

Bah.

I am not depressed, just angry. It is normal though.

[downandlonely]

I hope you go and can tell the pdoc how you're feeling.

Sorry you're struggling, Oliver.

Maybe this pdoc will be okay. You did say before that you wanted help really badly, so why not give this doctor a chance? Worst case, the doctor is bad and you decide to never go back. Best case, you get the help you want and need in order to feel better.

Personally, I have had bad pdocs who pissed me off, so I know how upsetting it can be, but there are always good ones out there. You never know until you try someone if they're good or bad. Of course, I know it can be frustrating when you've had several bad pdocs in a row, but not every single one is bad. In fact, I encourage you to tell your pdoc when something he or she says upsets you. Sometimes doctors don't know they're pissing you off unless you tell them. Heck, you can even tell this pdoc outright what your concerns are with your treatment plan.

Good luck with whatever you decide.

[luvyrself]

I really put all my anger out there when I met my new pdoc who is also a neurologist. I even told him off for suggesting a drug that makes people fat which is a serious health concern. I ranted for the whole time about how hard caregiving is for people and a stupid mistake the last pdoc did and he totally took it in stride. He actuallly reads the 6page packet I wrote which the last doc ignored. I have had 6pdocs since retired.They have to be really good with the 15 min most insurances give for regular sessions. I think he reallly IS GOOD!
DEFINITELY SPEAK UP!!! You might really like the new doc!

[OliverB]

This mood is temporal this mood is temporal

TEMPORAL

Ough, I am sorry

I cannot Focus on reading

Gonna do some excersise and try to read later

I feel like I am going to explode from the accumulated energy

[OliverB]

I googled her, she is the CMH center chief. That is not good, if she doesnt like me she may end up making my treatment impossible. And she is probably old. All old psychiatrists I met were nasty.

I do not want be locked up. I am not psychotic or manic, I do not need heavy meds. I do not want to be sedated. I have just cleaned the whole flat (my flatmate hasnt cleaned in months). I clean, study, work, go outside with the dog, .... Ba ba ba I do not do anything risky or spend money, actually I earn money by overworking myself when hyper (in summer I worked 110h in just a week at a festival, IDK how many hours I have worked this months while studying for my last 5 examns -I passed them all, and I got an scholarship and I begin my internship in two weeks bla bla bla)

Why do psychiatrist always want to sedate me?

The only nice psychiatrist I had told me he didn't want me to ever go IP or be on AP 😕 He helped me a lot. He said I can have very good insight and potential , just need support. I know my brain goes all wild and I start to feel nice and full of energy while wanting to die because I deserve it and death calls me sometimes too, but I have enough impulse control to think first, and I think I am starting to recognize this mood so I can take prazosin (it calms the agitation and paranoia which allows me to keep going and prevents me to do stupid things). Rigth now I feel exactly as two hours, two days and two weeks ago, but everything is undercontrol thanks to prazosin that helps me to deal with agitation.

I am going to walk the dog.

[OliverB]

I just CAN'T understand why psychiatrist are out there to hurt me

[luvyrself]

NO ONE wants to hurt you. Some docs are just better than others.
Can you get the doctor you liked again?

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by luvyrself

NO ONE wants to hurt you. Some docs are just better than others.
Can you get the doctor you liked again?

Nop, he moved 3-4 years ago...

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry you're struggling, Oliver.

Maybe this pdoc will be okay. You did say before that you wanted help really badly, so why not give this doctor a chance? Worst case, the doctor is bad and you decide to never go back. Best case, you get the help you want and need in order to feel better.

Personally, I have had bad pdocs who pissed me off, so I know how upsetting it can be, but there are always good ones out there. You never know until you try someone if they're good or bad. Of course, I know it can be frustrating when you've had several bad pdocs in a row, but not every single one is bad. In fact, I encourage you to tell your pdoc when something he or she says upsets you. Sometimes doctors don't know they're pissing you off unless you tell them. Heck, you can even tell this pdoc outright what your concerns are with your treatment plan.

Good luck with whatever you decide.

I think that's true, sometimes doctors, and also other people, may not know that something they say is pissing us off unless we tell them.

(although I have had some extraordinarily unhelpful things said to me by several professionals irl and I am sure they knew it wasn't helpful )