Bipolar check-in #42

I have a three day weekend. Oh joy! I need to clean up my house.

Eureka! I have connected the dots. I was wondering why I suddenly got my period after months of not having it. Then I remembered my dr telling me I had high prolactin. THEN I remembered the last time I had high prolactin I didn’t get my period for a year. And I realized I stopped haldol about a month ago. So, out of curiosity, I googled prolactin and haldol. Apparently, haldol is the most likely of the typical APs to cause high prolactin! So in my non medical opinion, this is why I’m getting my period again. I bet my prolactin is going down.

So yes, I think I figured it out.

Increase in Risperdal is working for psychosis and agitation, but I still feel a bit on the manic side of life. only woke up twice last night. I think I like my NP, that means she's probably going to leave soon or I'll get transferred to someone else. Honestly I'm kinda jealous of those of you who say you've had the same psychiatrist for years. I don't think I've had the same one for more than a year because here they're always leaving their practice or something.

I gave up on working today. I left work at 12:40pm because I couldn't sit still and couldn't concentrate. I figured there is no sense in me staying at work for many hours if all I'm going to do is pace around the building.

In the end, I don't think propranolol is doing its job and I need something else -- or at least a higher dose of propranolol if my pdoc is insistent on continuing it. I can't sit still no matter what. It's frustrating as hell. I'm inwardly freaking out right now because this restless feeling is worse than it is on most days.

I might just call the after hours service tonight to see if anyone can help me. I might be able to get ahold of my pdoc for once because I doubt his assistant is working during after hours too. I really need to talk to him about this because it's getting worse and worse. I don't appreciate him writing a prescription for something over the phone when I don't even get the chance to discuss it with him. I mean, he wouldn't even let me have an appt with him!

But yeah, my pdoc's assistant stops listening to phone calls at 2pm. It's 2:45pm right now. There's no way I'd get any help if I called during normal hours, hence I have to call during after hours.

Was feeling euphoric but then had a massive panic attack then hearing voices again and worrying about meds poisoning me and cameras being in my apartment watching me. Just took one of my klonopin so hopefully things calm down a bit. Just some breakthrough symptoms I guess.

Things are going well in my new apartment. I've been here a week now. It's really nice. Still have some stuff to bring over from my old place over the next week. Was going to do some of that today but we have a big snow/ice storm going on right now. Next month I plan on starting to decorate.

Welcome back Christina

I’ve now been stable from a bipolar perspective for 6-7 months which is fantastic. Anxiety is pretty severe. I’m weaning off Seroquel under pdoc supervision which is probably why the anxiety is so severe. My pdoc has asked me to consider an AD for my anxiety. We’re not sure if it’s a good idea given that an AD may destabilise the bipolar.

Anyone have any thoughts?

Finally fell asleep at about 2 AMish or so and woke up at 1030, which is basically a miracle for me. So grateful. I am clearly coming down from this recent mania and psychosis thing. I really haven't had much of either for several days, to speak of. I forgot it could be like this. It's weird--sometimes, when it's really bad, I can't seem to remember what it was like when it was not bad. It's like my memory does not work. Weird.

I am ascribing much of my recent improvement to the added Depakote, whether that is accurate or not. But I tend to think it likely is. The worrying thing is that all those symptoms came through while on lithium and Abilify, which does not say much for them. I wonder if they have just for some reason stopped working for me??? Maybe we should just stop them and do just the Depakote? I dunno. Will have to let Dr. C figure all that out for me. Above my pay grade. I just take what they tell me to.

Missed my bike ride this morning because of the sleep thing, so will do an evening ride, which will be kind of different. Also hoping to do a little writing on my book today. I have about 45,000 words so far and am aiming for maye, 80,000ish.

Love and hugs to all!!!!

Had a fairly busy day. Brought some stuff over from my old apartment. Went grocery shopping. And cleaned my new place (I've been here a week now). Next week is going to be insanely busy. Lets see, I have to get a physical, and have appointments to see my dentist, my eye doctor, my care manager, and my therapist, plus something else I have to go to. 3 of the appointments are on one day. I'm going to be so worn out when the week is over.

I'm bringing my coffee pot over finally from my old place because my sister is stopping by for coffee and cheesecake tomorrow which will be nice. I'm doing well overall, no issues with my meds. Some breakthrough symptoms every now and then when stress is high but other than that I'm doing really good

Hope everyone is having a nice weekend

Winter storm coming though tonight/tomorrow I'm prepared with a slow cooker of bean/ham soup and the final season of the Game of Thrones. Just got it from the library, timing works perfectly. TGoT and snow! Perfect show to watch in a storm.

It snowed several inches last night! What a beautiful, unexpected wonder to wake up to.

Still doing well. Going to see M tomorrow.

Warm regards to all for a peaceful Sunday.

the snow was beautiful here today, too!

Rather than snow here we're getting daffodils.

Think I'm hypo. Or is this anxiety from atypical depression. But I'm thinking hypo. My impulsive behavior is needing to come on this site. But I'm also needing less sleep, having more energy, racing thoughts and anxiety...and I felt this way around the time I felt most high last (or well, the last big one). I had a week of higher mood about a month ago followed by depression followed by normal. Just documenting this stuff.

Eureka! I have connected the dots. I was wondering why I suddenly got my period after months of not having it. Then I remembered my dr telling me I had high prolactin. THEN I remembered the last time I had high prolactin I didn’t get my period for a year. And I realized I stopped haldol about a month ago. So, out of curiosity, I googled prolactin and haldol. Apparently, haldol is the most likely of the typical APs to cause high prolactin! So in my non medical opinion, this is why I’m getting my period again. I bet my prolactin is going down.


So yes, I think I figured it out.