[SorryShaped]

I'm having difficulties. I'm taking pain meds as often as is safe. I'm in pain anyway. My mind is cracked. I'm depressed because I'm not healing well. Part of my incision opened up and has to be packed three inches deep. I can barely walk to the kitchen or bathroom without crying from pain. I want to be tougher but I'm not. I feel like I'm dying from the inside. I found out my surgery was much more difficult because my body had healed too much from the prior surgery. Adhesions were strong and the surgeon had to loosen up way more than usual. I'm constantly panicking.

[Yaowen]

Dear SorryShaped,

I just read your post and want to tell you how very sorry I am that you are suffering this horrible ordeal. It is just utterly, utterly heartbreaking what you are going through. I wish I could ease your terrible pain. The situation you are enduring with your incision opening up and the awful pain would cause me to be in a deep state of depression and panic. I think your thoughts and feelings about all this is totally understandable. I deeply hope that things will get better for you . . . and soon. My heart goes out to you !

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen

[bpcyclist]

I am so sorry, SorryShaped. You have too much on your plater ight now.

It is common for depression to set in in these situations. It is a normal brain response to the challenges and pains, physical and emotional. Opiates can sometimes exacerbate depression as well in some people, so, try to take what you need, but no more, if possible.

You will get through this. You will. These big belly operations are a huge, huge deal--I used to do them for a living. I know what you are dealing with.It is a lot.
If pain is an aissue, ask for a pain specialist consult. Those guys and gals have a zillion tricks for folks like you. Get one in and talk to her.

See if you can find anything to distract for a few minutes or hours. A movie, TV, some headphones, a mindless magazine or something. If the weather is decent where you are and they will let you, find a nurse to get your butt in the chair and outside for a few minutes of air. It helps. It does.

Sending you prayers and support. Do not give up. It will pass. You will make it throught this obstacle.

[SorryShaped]

I've been out of hospital for about 10 days. I'm staying at my friend's house so I can get better help than I could do by myself. I've gone outside a few times but it reminds me how much I want to do but can't. I think if it weren't for the animals here I'd have died already. Her tiny Chihuahua has been by me constantly, to the point I worry the little thing isn't eating or drinking enough. I share my food with her to be sure. She's so small I can pick her up in one hand with her little legs barely out past my fingers. She's a great snuggler

[*Beth*]

I'm so sorry that you're having such a painful (in all ways) experience. Please do speak with your doctor(s) about pain relief. Don't put it off.

Animals are the best therapy there is.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

I've been out of hospital for about 10 days. I'm staying at my friend's house so I can get better help than I could do by myself. I've gone outside a few times but it reminds me how much I want to do but can't. I think if it weren't for the animals here I'd have died already. Her tiny Chihuahua has been by me constantly, to the point I worry the little thing isn't eating or drinking enough. I share my food with her to be sure. She's so small I can pick her up in one hand with her little legs barely out past my fingers. She's a great snuggler

Chihuahuas are great. My sister had one named Cappy- short for Cappucino.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I'm so sorry that you're having such a painful (in all ways) experience. Please do speak with your doctor(s) about pain relief. Don't put it off.

Animals are the best therapy there is.

They've given me a hefty oxy script. It kind of works. Almost nothing worked in hospital. They were giving me injections and pills constantly and I lay there and cried out in pain.
I am slowly getting better but this wound is not expected to heal for weeks and they may have to do more surgery to fix it. I'm now crying again but I'm also feeling sleepy too. Send me good energies please

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by SorryShaped

They've given me a hefty oxy script. It kind of works. Almost nothing worked in hospital. They were giving me injections and pills constantly and I lay there and cried out in pain.
I am slowly getting better but this wound is not expected to heal for weeks and they may have to do more surgery to fix it. I'm now crying again but I'm also feeling sleepy too. Send me good energies please

I am so glad you have that little doggie. I am getting a cat for now. I thought it might cheer me up.

Sending you prayers and support a love.

[sarahsweets]

It might be hard to get a pain management consult since you are still in post-op care. Have you talked with your doc about the pain? Maybe you need different pain medicine. Not necessarily stronger but maybe different? Pain is a very real thing and can F with your mood and pre-existing health issues.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by sarahsweets

It might be hard to get a pain management consult since you are still in post-op care. Have you talked with your doc about the pain? Maybe you need different pain medicine. Not necessarily stronger but maybe different? Pain is a very real thing and can F with your mood and pre-existing health issues.

I actually dislike having to take the pain meds. They zap what little mind I have left. I can't think on them. I'm hoping this gets better but it doesn't seem to be right now.

Sorry to hear you're crying a lot. That sounds awful.

I hope that you get better soon. You deserve happiness and healthiness.

P.S. I dislike having to take pain meds too, for the same reasons. I can relate.