[Misssy2]

Is indicative of a bipolar personality?
The Borderline?

Or just a disposition of a certain individual?

I want to blame my bipolar for my short fuse..and it sounds like an excuse..Hey, I have bipolar...frig off. Or I am Borderline.

Do you ever blame your dx for your actions? I struggle with knowing if this is JUST ME..or if it is because i am diagnosed with 2 seperate serious mental conditions.

[Ocean Swimmer]

My stepdad has a bad temper. He's an *****.
I've worked on control my whole life. I never wanted to act out, the way I've seen him.
He has no mental illness. Just a jerk.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

My stepdad has a bad temper. He's an *****.
I've worked on control my whole life. I never wanted to act out, the way I've seen him.
He has no mental illness. Just a jerk.

I really think I can just be a jerk sometimes too.

The only reason I am trying to see if anyone can associate these behaviors with mental illness is because when I act in these ways..I don't feel like it is ME that is doing it. Out of body experience? Is that dissassociative?

I know a person who can be mean (maybe like your father) and brag about not taking crap and being mean. I just hate when it happens..its like somethiing "snaps" in me and then I go right back to being "normal"....and expecting the other person to be normal..when I just ripped them a new one.

That is why I am thinking maybe it is the mental illness.
Mental illness is confusing.

[Misssy2]

I also think that this is how a psychiatrist would define mental illness.

Its me but it doesn't feel like me and I feel like I can't control the anger outbursts

And I have to say my b/f is right...i do act like a child a lot.

I used to have what I call "chronic pissiness", and I've noticed that a lot of BP people seem/seemed to have the same issue, but I'm not sure if it's BP related or not. That's just me noticing a trend.

I know that short temper is a symptom of ADHD, a disorder that I do have, but treatment (therapy and medication) have helped me a lot in that regard.

IMO, try to focus on treating the symptoms instead of tying to pin the symptoms down on a disorder.

I know that Lamictal has helped me a lot with my chronic pissiness. Something about a mood stabilizer seems to have helped. But also, being able to talk it out in therapy is great too!

Good luck

[LifeInProgress]

I can have a wicked temper. I go from normal to the full thermonuclear option with nothing in between. Screaming, swearing, pulling out every piece of crap I can think of, and all in a dissociative fugue state.

It has been truly life wrecking for me.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

My stepdad has a bad temper. He's an *****.
I've worked on control my whole life. I never wanted to act out, the way I've seen him.
He has no mental illness. Just a jerk.

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I used to have what I call "chronic pissiness", and I've noticed that a lot of BP people seem/seemed to have the same issue, but I'm not sure if it's BP related or not. That's just me noticing a trend.

I know that short temper is a symptom of ADHD, a disorder that I do have, but treatment (therapy and medication) have helped me a lot in that regard.

IMO, try to focus on treating the symptoms instead of tying to pin the symptoms down on a disorder.

I know that Lamictal has helped me a lot with my chronic pissiness. Something about a mood stabilizer seems to have helped. But also, being able to talk it out in therapy is great too!

Good luck

I like that "chronic pissiness" I'm going to describe it that way to the psychiatrist. Thank you for that!

And it sounds like you are level headed...and that all of the stuff you do to help yourself is helping.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by LifeInProgress

I can have a wicked temper. I go from normal to the full thermonuclear option with nothing in between. Screaming, swearing, pulling out every piece of crap I can think of, and all in a dissociative fugue state.

It has been truly life wrecking for me.

Truly LIFE WRECKING..another good description of how I feel.

[Ocean Swimmer]

I've destroyed the house.
It can be wicked.
But work on self control. You'll be glad you are the master and not the slave to temper.

[Theresa1991]

I am not short tempered but I know the feeling of "this is not me". For example right now I want to be quiet and recover from my cold. But there is this wiredness that keeps shouting: go out, smoke, get drunk, meet people, life ist too boring, move!

This is definitely not me saying this right now, but I guess it's hypomania.

I also experienced this "not me" feeling when I was depressed and thought about killing myself nonstop and I know I would NEVER kill myself. These thoughts were just not mine and I recognised them as "foreign" the moment I thought so.

[gayleggg]

I get short tempered when I have a mixed episode, so it could be BP.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

I've destroyed the house.
It can be wicked.
But work on self control. You'll be glad you are the master and not the slave to temper.

I pretty much hold my "rage". I think what you describe here (destroying the house) is rage.

I know that because one morning about 2-3 months ago I was rageful at 2am because I couldn't sleep...I was SICK of always struggling to sleep. I got up and I did dishes..and I was slamming them and talking very loudly to myself..(out loud)...and stuff was dropping, banging, etc. and it felt GOOD and that scared me.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

I've destroyed the house.
It can be wicked.
But work on self control. You'll be glad you are the master and not the slave to temper.

Originally Posted by Theresa1991

I am not short tempered but I know the feeling of "this is not me". For example right now I want to be quiet and recover from my cold. But there is this wiredness that keeps shouting: go out, smoke, get drunk, meet people, life ist too boring, move!

This is definitely not me saying this right now, but I guess it's hypomania.

I also experienced this "not me" feeling when I was depressed and thought about killing myself nonstop and I know I would NEVER kill myself. These thoughts were just not mine and I recognised them as "foreign" the moment I thought so.

So is this that you describe the "dissassociative" disorder part of BP?
I'm really not sure what that is either.

[Misssy2]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I get short tempered when I have a mixed episode, so it could be BP.

gaylegg? You actually know when you are in a mixed episode?
I'm going to post a new post asking about this..would appreciate your input.

[~Christina]

When crossing from hypo into manic I loathe the world , the sun is too bright, I think of plucking wings off a butterfly, not that i ever would.

The deal with me is I internalize my anger to the point no one around me can tell.

But everyone needs to remember not all being angry is " Bipolar"

If my husband does something and I get angry .... It's not Bipolar ! We all have aright to have a certain level of being pissy , crabby and it have not a damn thing to do with Bipolar.

Not everything is Bipolar <~~~ one of the best things my T helped me understand.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Misssy2

gaylegg? You actually know when you are in a mixed episode?

I'm going to post a new post asking about this..would appreciate your input.

I am always aware if I slide into a mixed episode

[Misssy2]

christina, can you explain a mixed episode? Might help me distinguish between bipolar and actual "just bad moods" or "just good moods"

[pirilin]

Dunno if I did. My friends call me "smiley". I'm sure now I have it because of wellbutrin.

[Fuzzybear]

Great thread. I am unsure about my response right now but maybe some of the other wise members may have some additional input. Since I think this is an interesting question and if I had time I might write a long response to it with maybe some additional thoughts (unfortunately I am chronically busy of late)..I discovered this thread only today so please forgive the late response.

Hugs and love to all!

Originally Posted by Misssy2

Is indicative of a bipolar personality?
The Borderline?

Or just a disposition of a certain individual?

I want to blame my bipolar for my short fuse..and it sounds like an excuse..Hey, I have bipolar...frig off. Or I am Borderline.

Do you ever blame your dx for your actions? I struggle with knowing if this is JUST ME..or if it is because i am diagnosed with 2 seperate serious mental conditions.

Hi Misssy2. It could be one, some, all, or none of what you listed above. Sometimes it's just nature or nurture. It could be anxiety. It could be all kinds of things. It is, however, something you might want to discuss with your therapist and psychiatrist. Definitely having a short temper/fuse can be quite problematic in life, so it is best addressed.

I do not believe in the idea of "bipolar personality". Bipolar disorder is not a personality disorder. It is a mood disorder. Even within bipolar disorder, there are all kinds of personalities for various reasons, both based on nature and nurture. I'm not even that thrilled with the idea of labeling personality disorders as "personality" disorders. It's not altogether fair, I don't believe. There's surely a lot more to it, than that.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

My stepdad has a bad temper. He's an *****.
I've worked on control my whole life. I never wanted to act out, the way I've seen him.
He has no mental illness. Just a jerk.

I am almost certain a relative of mine fits that criteria. Just a jerk and no mental illness. I have worked all my life not to act out in a way I’ve seen that person acting out. Yeah there are some people who do not have a mental illness but who have severe anger issues and other issues. Some of these people do not even acknowledge that THEY have any issues

[swimmingly]

It's a little bit funny how these threads from a few years back come back into fashion again. I struggle with this. Only been diagnosed BP2, but there was a flirt with a BP diagnosis at one point too.

Lately I've been talking about BP-rage episodes. Now I wonder if I'm just a jerk. Both could be true.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by swimmingly

It's a little bit funny how these threads from a few years back come back into fashion again. I struggle with this. Only been diagnosed BP2, but there was a flirt with a BP diagnosis at one point too.

Lately I've been talking about BP-rage episodes. Now I wonder if I'm just a jerk. Both could be true.

I don’t think you’re “just a jerk”... I have a good bs detector. I think many with bipolar (and other MI also) are far too hard on selves.... Personally, and I imagine I am speaking for 99 percent here, I would much prefer to have NO diagnosis. Who would want a diagnosis they don’t have.. unless maybe to get on disability or something. Idk.. and that would not work in this forest. This post is being written too fast, it’s probably not “worth reading it”

[~Christina]

WOW 2017 old thread brought back to life, Hopefully it is helpful to someone

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Misssy2

Is indicative of a bipolar personality?
The Borderline?

Or just a disposition of a certain individual?

I want to blame my bipolar for my short fuse..and it sounds like an excuse..Hey, I have bipolar...frig off. Or I am Borderline.

Do you ever blame your dx for your actions? I struggle with knowing if this is JUST ME..or if it is because i am diagnosed with 2 seperate serious mental conditions.

That's a tough one...definitely one of those times when a mental health professional would need to take a history, observe, and diagnose. Any number of mental and/or behavioral health disorders can cause anger issues. Or none. Maybe someone is just short-tempered.


I don't ever use my diagnoses as an excuse for anything, mostly because I don't want people to know about my mental illnesses. I don't think very many people understand mental illness; they understand me even less, and I don't want their opinions on how I should "treat" my mental illness. But then, that's why I spend almost all of my time with my cats, not with people