[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey Ya'll

Sorry I have been MIA.. I have some huge problems with my meds, On , off back on X but not Z increase Y

I have lost so many days or maybe all week???I dunno..... had to dump most of my Psych med and physical medications...

My Pdoc is out for surgery for 2 months! His nurse Jane had to have shoulder surgery and will be out at least 6 weeks.. So I will dealing with a nurse that I do not know and a unknown Pdoc....So having both Pdoc and Nurse gone will / might/maybe/ could be a huge problem.. But I doubt I'll ask for there help I am not going to by phone explain whats happened with med XYZ over the years. Richard my T thinks the Pdoc covering wont make any changes unless I call and I dont see that happening.

I hope everyone is enjoying there Sunday

I hope things improve while you wait for your doc to return. Thinking about you.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I'm imagining that sweet photo you describe. Thanks for describing that lovely moment, Fuzzybear.

Well, you and I absolutely share in common our enjoyment of almost all food. I'm not picky either. I'll agree that tripe is not the most appealing food to me, neither is liver, kidneys, or the ripest cheeses (i.e. Limberger), but I will eat them if served to me, as a guest. My husband likes tripe soup. The way it's often made it contains very strong spices. I'll also say that after living in Taiwan for a while in the past, I discovered a few foods that I'd pass on. They have a fruit called durian fruit. It's pretty stinky. They also have what they call "chou doufu". That literally translates to "stinky tofu" since it is fermented. Definitely an acquired taste! My husband eats some of the foods I mentioned, but dislikes many foods I love. For example, I adore broccoli, asparagus, and all kinds of shellfish, but he won't eat them.

Is Papa Bear a lot pickier about food than you?

My husband is allergic to garlic. I like garlic, but am fine cooking without it. However, most people in the US are crazy about it, so it's difficult to eat out sometimes. Oddly, I often choose one of the only restaurant dishes that doesn't contain garlic. He'll choose one that they say doesn't have it, but then it does. I can't tell you how many times we've had to switch plates. That can be a little annoying if I looked forward to a certain dish.

Do you like spicy food? I do. Szechuan cuisine has been my most recent fav. I also like Thai, Indian and Middle Eastern, though rarely have them because they often contain garlic. Sometimes I make my own.

I like all spicy food that I've ever tried. Papa bear isn't a picky eater, the only food I can think of that he doesn't enjoy is curries. Oh, and rice pudding. He also doesn't like any chocolate with mint in (I like all chocolate but sometimes am slightly allergic to it, I don't eat a lot of it at a time or I react to it)

Papa bear and I both adore asparagus and brocolli, and most fish, including shellfish. We both like garlic, I probably like it more than he does.

I don't think I would eat the foods you mention, durian fruit or stinky tofu lol (but I might try them if I was a guest, I'll try almost any food)

We both love our food (and are not overweight which I guess is unusual given our names and at this time of year)

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hey Ya'll

Sorry I have been MIA.. I have some huge problems with my meds, On , off back on X but not Z increase Y

I have lost so many days or maybe all week???I dunno..... had to dump most of my Psych med and physical medications...

My Pdoc is out for surgery for 2 months! His nurse Jane had to have shoulder surgery and will be out at least 6 weeks.. So I will dealing with a nurse that I do not know and a unknown Pdoc....So having both Pdoc and Nurse gone will / might/maybe/ could be a huge problem.. But I doubt I'll ask for there help I am not going to by phone explain whats happened with med XYZ over the years. Richard my T thinks the Pdoc covering wont make any changes unless I call and I dont see that happening.

I hope everyone is enjoying there Sunday

Hi Christina,
I'm sorry about the problems with the meds. I hope things improve soon. Sending much love

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Thanks for the recipe! I'll save that in my electronic files.

Before I had the Belgian waffle maker, I had the thinner type. I used to LOVE the following healthy waffle recipe, which is best made in the thinner style. Hubby liked them, too. I know they may look too healthy to be yummy, but that's not true. They are high in protein and whole grains, and also have some Omega 3s. I quite like flaxseed meal. Whole Grain Waffles | Allrecipes

This is definitely my kind of waffle! I'm going to have to try them out. I can probably get my little guys to eat them as well. I've never used wheat germ before, but I have worked with flaxseed. I like to make my own meal in the food processor.

Thanks so much for sharing!

[*Beth*]

Hello, Dear Ones

Whew. I'm still feeling pretty rocky. But having decreased the Lamictal and perphenazine, and dropping the little bit of Seroquel I was using for sleep, I'm not shaking all over quite as much. That very uncomfortable rigidity up the back of my neck is gone. A little while ago, I had a muscle go rigid near my ribs, hurt so much I had to work hard to take big cleansing breaths. It passed, eventually. So I guess I'd say that the dystonia has decreased, but is not yet gone.

I will do some stretching on the floor and see if I can manage even a short walk. Drinking plenty of water.

[Daonnachd]

It's hardly been more than a week since my last ECT and I'm not feeling well, as in trending toward depression but can't identify a reason.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

It's hardly been more than a week since my last ECT and I'm not feeling well, as in trending toward depression but can't identify a reason.

Do you crash this time of year like some of us do? I hope you start feeling better.

[UpDownMiddleGround]

I have not checked in in a while. I feel like I'm on a downward spiral. I probably should call my doctor but I'm not sure that I want to. I'm tired of meds altering who I am. Just let me be and let us see what happens. Maybe it won't be so bad. I lived 38 years with no meds and I did just fine.

My ex husband called today. I think he was drunk. He never used to drink. He should probably stop. He said he wanted me back. I don't want to be controlled by anyone anymore. I like belonging to me.

I hate my life. I'm so disappointed in my choices. I should have done things differently. I can't go back.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Do you crash this time of year like some of us do? I hope you start feeling better.

I'm a bit ashamed to say this but I don't pay close enough attention to any patterns I might exhibit to know if this occurs annually. That, by itself, is embarrassing. I'm just too caught up in the moment to think about big picture type things. My therapist will be able to tell me.

Oh, no, I suspect I do know what's happened. With the evacuations and chaos of the past few weeks my consistency with medications has been crap. It's likely that. Time to get religious.

[Moose72]

I slept until 4 again! GRRR... I just kept dreaming and dreaming! I made oatmeal chocolate chip cookies finally. They were tasty but a little dry. The mix was really hard to get together- so much dry ingredients and only a stick of butter and an egg to mix it with.

Speaking of annual issues, this is my bad time of year- October/November. So far, I'm doing okay. I'm worried that my rent won't get paid. I owe 2 months on the first. It all depends on how much I owe after section 8 pays their portion. I won't know what that is until Wednesday when the mail comes. I'm worried I won't be able to afford my portion. Its not that I don't have money, its that I DO have money which probably made my portion go up, but next month I won't have that "extra" money, so I'll be screwed.

Watching "Who's The Boss?" I want to go to bed, but I'm not tired enough yet. I want to take a shower, but I'll probably wait until tomorrow morning. I HOPE I don't sleep the day away again!

Daonnachd, Sorry you are feeling depressed despite your ECT and meds.

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

It's hardly been more than a week since my last ECT and I'm not feeling well, as in trending toward depression but can't identify a reason.

I am so sorry! I remember deep dark depressions. Since I've been on a mood stabilizer I don't have them although I do still get depressed in the winter. But its not severe depression. I really hope you get to feeling better.

[Coolbreeze74]

Since starting the trileptal I have been really tired. I don't mind it bc I was having a hard time sleeping before. But I'm sleeping until around 4 and not falling asleep until like 7am.

My son is continuing to do better. I'm very happy about that.

I had a 2 hour long panic attack last night. So way better than a 3-6 hour long one. So major improvement.

Hope everyone is doing well! hugs to those struggling.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

It's hardly been more than a week since my last ECT and I'm not feeling well, as in trending toward depression but can't identify a reason.

Hi D, I'm sorry to read about this. I haven't had ECT. I hope things improve soon. My paws are crossed for you!

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

I am so sorry! I remember deep dark depressions. Since I've been on a mood stabilizer I don't have them although I do still get depressed in the winter. But its not severe depression. I really hope you get to feeling better.

That's great that you no longer experience severe depression since you've been on a mood stabilizer

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

That's great that you no longer experience severe depression since you've been on a mood stabilizer

Yeah a huge relief. But I don't get hypomanias either. Which I miss...

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Coolbreeze74

Since starting the trileptal I have been really tired. I don't mind it bc I was having a hard time sleeping before. But I'm sleeping until around 4 and not falling asleep until like 7am.

My son is continuing to do better. I'm very happy about that.

I had a 2 hour long panic attack last night. So way better than a 3-6 hour long one. So major improvement.

Hope everyone is doing well! hugs to those struggling.

Your sleep sounds like mine lately, but I don't fall asleep at 7 a.m. I'm still asleep then.

Glad your son is doing better!

A 2-hour panic attack sucks but its not as bad as 3-6 hour one, I hear ya!

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Your sleep sounds like mine lately, but I don't fall asleep at 7 a.m. I'm still asleep then.

Glad your son is doing better!

A 2-hour panic attack sucks but its not as bad as 3-6 hour one, I hear ya!

Thanks moose! Yeah I could manage them if they were only 2 hours. Was an improvement.

[Fuzzybear]

128 ''guests'' reading here in the bipolar forum.

I briefly checked in on another forum, over 3,000 ''guests''.....

[Mountaindewed]

I am back to post op pain. My mom is telling me to take a narco. I just hate how they make me feel and the depression I had on Thursday was scary. I don’t want my therapist to suggest I go to the psych hospital where I am in no shape physically to be at. My general physician told me no ibuprofen or Advil. I wonder if one dose to get me until morning would be ok.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I got a notice in my email. I’ll look it up and try to find the web address. I believe registration closed last week though. Fwiw for future events, I applied for a scholarship through his foundation to cover the cost of the program based on need.

Oh. Cool. Thanks!

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Hello, Dear Ones

Whew. I'm still feeling pretty rocky. But having decreased the Lamictal and perphenazine, and dropping the little bit of Seroquel I was using for sleep, I'm not shaking all over quite as much. That very uncomfortable rigidity up the back of my neck is gone. A little while ago, I had a muscle go rigid near my ribs, hurt so much I had to work hard to take big cleansing breaths. It passed, eventually. So I guess I'd say that the dystonia has decreased, but is not yet gone.

I will do some stretching on the floor and see if I can manage even a short walk. Drinking plenty of water.

Super glad it is better. I had it from Abilifry. It did totally go away. I really think yours will, too. Hugs.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

It's hardly been more than a week since my last ECT and I'm not feeling well, as in trending toward depression but can't identify a reason.

Is this fairly unusual, D?

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by UpDownMiddleGround

I have not checked in in a while. I feel like I'm on a downward spiral. I probably should call my doctor but I'm not sure that I want to. I'm tired of meds altering who I am. Just let me be and let us see what happens. Maybe it won't be so bad. I lived 38 years with no meds and I did just fine.

My ex husband called today. I think he was drunk. He never used to drink. He should probably stop. He said he wanted me back. I don't want to be controlled by anyone anymore. I like belonging to me.

I hate my life. I'm so disappointed in my choices. I should have done things differently. I can't go back.

There is no human on the planet who would not like a couple mulligans. Everyone
You may need to examine what is the root of this regret stuff. It could be related to your depression. Inaccurate self-evaluation is common in depression because we have a constant, huge negative bias against ourselves. Do, could be you are just assessing history without full, 100 percent factual accuracy maybe or something. Happens all the time.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I am back to post op pain. My mom is telling me to take a narco. I just hate how they make me feel and the depression I had on Thursday was scary. I don’t want my therapist to suggest I go to the psych hospital where I am in no shape physically to be at. My general physician told me no ibuprofen or Advil. I wonder if one dose to get me until morning would be ok.

Got Tylenol? No bleeding risk.

[bpcyclist]

Okay, so, quickly. Great day. Zero symptoms at all. Great. Guy upstairs I met on the vator I had helped find a cycling item he needed. No biggie
He texts. Cannot get new saddle on his fancy Peloton bike. I head up and we sort it. Takes like, an hour. Super nice guy.

Adidas executive. Signs young talent. We chatted
So nice. Says he is 25. I encouraged him to work hard and ask for what he deserves based on his value to the company. Stuff I know about.

I get home. Googling around. Quickly checked his college scoring avg for giggles. Turns out, checkimg 2 sources, he is 26--not 25.

Step outside. Thinking about a new place to live next door. Blond gal walks by, totally hiding her face. Dark. Not totally the superest place for an alone, cute gal to be after dark. Bit odd. I look at my maybe new place. She meanders sorta aimlessly and just seems to be continually walking past or near me for like, zero reason.

So. Faithfully reporting this. As we know, my threat assessment system is permanently broken.
I do have PTSD from actual, fully documented police abuse. That did actually happen. I do have names, identities, vehicle tags, and 100 more or so pages of factual documentation of that.

But. That was 2010-2012. I am a law abiding person. No possible legit cause for me to be looked at. Zippo. But police here are already in an agreement with the USDOJ for excessive force use against mentally ill persons. Fact. Right now.

So, broken threat system, some weirdness tonight, and I am triggered and now symptomatic with PTSD stuff from 8 yrs ago. Guess just being paranoid maybe. But living here, where bipolar people are shot and squished to death by police, who are never prosecuted, it can be a scary place for us to live. Spooky. Noone cares if we are tortured or murdered by police. Noone.

Gonna go meditate. Hugs.