[Soupe du jour]

Yesterday I took 125 mg PRN Seroquel IR. This morning, I already took 50 mg PRN and I'm still ready to wage war on the world and definitely feel revved up.

The handyman/painter is back because he hadn't finished a number of projects. I insisted that Hubby be the one that communicates with him. If I did, it would turn out badly. I'm already being contacted by the stager and was freaking out until receiving her last text saying "It is OK to send them to me sometime this weekend." Just before that, I assumed she wanted the photos immediately. That's too difficult at this moment. Plus, Hubby keeps telling me things can wait, wait, wait.

Late last night I truly thought I was losing it. Actually, I was. Millions of things were racing through my head including some extreme anger I have felt about Whole Foods sending the wrong croissants. Actually, they aren't even croissants. They are "vegan croissants". My substitution choice was chocolate croissants. I think the packer just assumed the vegan ones were real ones. I know this sounds like a piddly matter, but it's consuming me. I keep thinking about it. The wrong suckers are sitting in my kitchen. I feel like destroying them. I already asked Amazon for a refund, but that doesn't change the fact that I don't have real croissants. I want them and feel an extreme dissatisfaction not having them.

At the above-mentioned time I was looking for my PRN Seroquel, but couldn't find it in my pocketbook. At first I couldn't find my pocketbook. Then I went to the safe and it was strangely locked. I started to have a fit, waking Hubby up. He opened the safe and took care of me. I was hungry, so he got me some granola.

[daladico]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Yesterday I took 125 mg PRN Seroquel IR. This morning, I already took 50 mg PRN and I'm still ready to wage war on the world and definitely feel revved up.

Hey Soupe-
Can you take your morning meds a bit early? Can you take any more PRN?

Is there anything else that helps when you feel like this?
often what helps me the most during ups with intense energy/agitation is to get a good hard workout in to release some of that intense energy.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by daladico

Hey Soupe-
Can you take your morning meds a bit early? Can you take any more PRN?

Is there anything else that helps when you feel like this? people say do calm meditation/breathing etc.

often what helps me the most during ups with intense energy/agitation is to get a good hard workout in to release some of that intense energy.

Thanks, daladico. I took my morning medications about 3 hours ago at around 7:30 am. I took the PRN Seroquel iR about 20 minutes ago. My morning meds do now include 50 mg XR. Otherwise, they are not sedating (Tegretol XR, Lamictal, and other stuff). It's like the Seroquel is hardly even touching what ails me.

I know I should reach for some other coping tools. I'm afraid hard exercise is not an option, because my right ankle is pretty well injured. I think I'm transitioning into a mixed state because when I think of "pleasant" things I don't want to do them, either. Like baking. I don't think I could concentrate on that and if something fell on the floor, I'd probably scream and scare the handyman away. Maybe I'll ask Hubby to talk to me about something pleasant. Sometimes I laugh amidst what my husband calls "fnuk" attitude and fury. Fnuk is a Czech word without an good equivalent in English. Something like "Phooey!"

Thanks again for pushing me to think about other coping tools.

[daladico]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Thanks, daladico. I took my morning medications about 3 hours ago at around 7:30 am. I took the PRN Seroquel iR about 20 minutes ago. My morning meds do now include 50 mg XR. Otherwise, they are not sedating (Tegretol XR, Lamictal, and other stuff). It's like the Seroquel is hardly even touching what ails me.

I know I should reach for some other coping tools. I'm afraid hard exercise is not an option, because my right ankle is pretty well injured. I think I'm transitioning into a mixed state because when I think of "pleasant" things I don't want to do them, either. Like baking. I don't think I could concentrate on that and if something fell on the floor, I'd probably scream and scare the handyman away. Maybe I'll ask Hubby to talk to me about something pleasant. Sometimes I laugh amidst what my husband calls "fnuk" attitude and fury. Fnuk is a Czech word without an good equivalent in English. Something like "Phooey!"

Thanks again for pushing me to think about other coping tools.

Gahhh yes the ankle- that does complicate exercise 🙈
You did good by messaging your pdoc- hopefully they will make more med adjustments soon. In the meantime I’d keep up on the PRN seroquel as much as you can to help your symptoms. I can totally relate to the state youre in and man it can be rough! Hang in there friend.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Hi all! Doing a bit better this morning. Felt better after cutting out that Wellbutrin dose. I talked to my psychiatrist and at first they were talking about switching me to another antidepressant, but I am so sensitive to them that I figured I might just need to try a lower dose. I think I will react to any psych med at a normal dose. I am actually only taking a pill every other day right now. I still feel depressed and blah but not unable to get out of bed kind of tired.

The good news is since starting birth control my moods have been much more stable, but I got stuck in this blah depression for months and that's why I am trying an antidepressant. My psychiatrist is still on the fence about whether or not I have bipolar disorder or not, but right now we are treating it as depression/PMDD. (If I already mentioned some of this, sorry, my memory is wonky from all of this right now).

I got up early today to do laundry before the facilities get crowded and I am going to clean up around my apartment today because I really let things get dirty when I was feeling unwell last week. I think that will make me feel better. Wish I could go on a hike again this weekend, but having a problem with my toe. Good news is it is so much better today than yesterday. Hopefully I will be back at it soon.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Remind me what the Wellbutrin side effects were? What dose? Have you tried Emsam or Cymbalta before Hang in there. We will find something that works for you. Hugs.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by BethRags

I watched UDP. Such sad stories, but very interesting. For most of the men, living in the facility gives them a feeling of security. I can certainly understand that. The staff seems so caring...I wonder if it's really like that, or was their kind behavior a put-on...or is the system in France superior to our?

Not too far from where I live there's a state psychiatric facility for criminals. It doesn't look like a place I'd want to spend any time in.

I'm going to watch the other doc. Thanks wfc for the recommendations.

What are they called?

[Mountaindewed]

My anxiety is much better today. Although this morning I felt like it was the end of the world. and we were all going to die. Probably because I saw something about that 90’s kid show Dinosaurs when I opened Facebook at 5AM. But I didn’t have any coffee so my anxiety is ok. But my depression is still pretty bad and I’m lying in bed since there’s no one to tell me I shouldn’t be. I wish I could have gone with my mom to my sisters but lifting those 4 cases of soda yesterday was a bad idea and the 3 hours there and the 3 hours back wouldn’t have been fun.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Yesterday I took 125 mg PRN Seroquel IR. This morning, I already took 50 mg PRN and I'm still ready to wage war on the world and definitely feel revved up.

The handyman/painter is back because he hadn't finished a number of projects. I insisted that Hubby be the one that communicates with him. If I did, it would turn out badly. I'm already being contacted by the stager and was freaking out until receiving her last text saying "It is OK to send them to me sometime this weekend." Just before that, I assumed she wanted the photos immediately. That's too difficult at this moment. Plus, Hubby keeps telling me things can wait, wait, wait.

Late last night I truly thought I was losing it. Actually, I was. Millions of things were racing through my head including some extreme anger I have felt about Whole Foods sending the wrong croissants. Actually, they aren't even croissants. They are "vegan croissants". My substitution choice was chocolate croissants. I think the packer just assumed the vegan ones were real ones. I know this sounds like a piddly matter, but it's consuming me. I keep thinking about it. The wrong suckers are sitting in my kitchen. I feel like destroying them. I already asked Amazon for a refund, but that doesn't change the fact that I don't have real croissants. I want them and feel an extreme dissatisfaction not having them.

At the above-mentioned time I was looking for my PRN Seroquel, but couldn't find it in my pocketbook. At first I couldn't find my pocketbook. Then I went to the safe and it was strangely locked. I started to have a fit, waking Hubby up. He opened the safe and took care of me. I was hungry, so he got me some granola.

Soupe, I would sure appreciate it if you called your beloved pdoc super quickly and just told him you are still pretty revved up. He may want to hit you again. Maybe. Probably. Please. I know it is Saturday, but I am concerned about you, dear.

Hugs.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

My anxiety is much better today. Although this morning I felt like it was the end of the world. and we were all going to die. Probably because I saw something about that 90’s kid show Dinosaurs when I opened Facebook at 5AM. But I didn’t have any coffee so my anxiety is ok. But my depression is still pretty bad and I’m lying in bed since there’s no one to tell me I shouldn’t be. I wish I could have gone with my mom to my sisters but lifting those 4 cases of soda yesterday was a bad idea and the 3 hours there and the 3 hours back wouldn’t have been fun.

Can you get outside and go for a walk? It might lift you up a bit. Hugs!

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Remind me what the Wellbutrin side effects were? What dose? Have you tried Emsam or Cymbalta before Hang in there. We will find something that works for you. Hugs.

Thanks for the encouragement Because I am so sensitive my psychiatrist started me off at 150 mg of Wellbutrin XL every other day for a week, then 150 mg every day. I was supposed to get up to 300 mg a day, but after about five days on the daily dose I went from feeling much better on the medication (no longer depressed, focused, more energy although also a little more anxiety) to very tired, felt weak and flu-like and couldn't concentrate at all. I think it made me more depressed than before I started.

I haven't tried Emsam or Cymbalta yet, but maybe I could look into those. He also mentioned I could try Remeron as another option.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

We have a new fire near us and my wife is a couple hours away with one of my sons. That means I've got to load everything for all 4 of us if we are ordered to evacuate again. Also gotta get the dog in my car and my wife's art. I'll prolly have to leave the art that's been hanging on our walls.

I am so sorry to hear this! It must be so stressful to be dealing with all those fires on top of everything else going on. I hope you get out safely and it doesn't last long.

[Soupe du jour]

Daladico, I actually did bake something, afterall, and feel more upbeat. I'm glad your post inspired that thought.

Almond Olive Oil Cake (a little cracked on top, but that doesn't matter)

[daladico]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

Daladico, I actually did bake something, afterall, and feel more upbeat. I'm glad your post inspired that thought.

Almond Olive Oil Cake

Oooh that looks amazing! Good job!
Glad it helped 💛💛

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

What are they called?

One of the docs, the French one, is "Unit for Difficult Patients." The other (Canadian) is "Out of Mind, Out of Sight."

I have Amazon Prime, so they are free for me. I don't know if there's a fee without Amazon Prime.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Soupe, I would sure appreciate it if you called your beloved pdoc super quickly and just told him you are still pretty revved up. He may want to hit you again. Maybe. Probably. Please. I know it is Saturday, but I am concerned about you, dear.

Hugs.

I emailed him early early this morning. He says he now responds quicker to emails. He is not usually a weekend worker, but is pretty quick during the work week. I'll hear from him. I'll just keep popping the PRNs, as needed. He's OK with that up to 150 mg extra, but does want to hear from me when I start needing PRNs more than a day or two.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

I am so sorry to hear this! It must be so stressful to be dealing with all those fires on top of everything else going on. I hope you get out safely and it doesn't last long.

The fire brigades jumped on it quickly. Numerous trucks and planes got in on the action so it was 100% contained before midnight last night. We didn't have to evacuate, but wow did that leave me exhausted.

[Blue_Bird]

Dyed my hair red today. It came out a tad uneven but not too bad considering I had to do it myself and I haven't had practice with dyeing my hair in a long time. I'm already making plans for future hair color lol. I think in February I'll get my hair professionally bleached so I can use some of the other colors like Enchanted Forest (a deep green color) and Purple Haze. As BethRags suggested I bought some Manic Panic Vampire Red dye to brighten up this permanent garnier nutrisse red dye once it starts fading.

I only got 4 hours 6 minutes of sleep last night according to my fitbit. Had a massive panic attack earlier that lasted hours. I took my klonopin though, and relaxed with one of my favorite videogames and am feeling better.

I'm charging my kindle so I can get some ebooks from my library. I still have some requests I'm gonna need to pick up in person next week. I'm glad I still have access to the library throughout all this craziness. Books are wonderful.

My sister got the 2 forms I needed for my apartment recertification thing so she'll drop them off tomorrow. Then I can give them to the property manager Monday. That's a relief. I was worried they wouldn't come in time.

Attached is a pic of my new hair color. Anyway, I hope everyone has a good weekend and prayers to anyone struggling

[fern46]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Dyed my hair red today. It came out a tad uneven but not too bad considering I had to do it myself and I haven't had practice with dyeing my hair in a long time. I'm already making plans for future hair color lol. I think in February I'll get my hair professionally bleached so I can use some of the other colors like Enchanted Forest (a deep green color) and Purple Haze. As BethRags suggested I bought some Manic Panic Vampire Red dye to brighten up this permanent garnier nutrisse red dye once it starts fading.

I only got 4 hours 6 minutes of sleep last night according to my fitbit. Had a massive panic attack earlier that lasted hours. I took my klonopin though, and relaxed with one of my favorite videogames and am feeling better.

I'm charging my kindle so I can get some ebooks from my library. I still have some requests I'm gonna need to pick up in person next week. I'm glad I still have access to the library throughout all this craziness. Books are wonderful.

My sister got the 2 forms I needed for my apartment recertification thing so she'll drop them off tomorrow. Then I can give them to the property manager Monday. That's a relief. I was worried they wouldn't come in time.

Attached is a pic of my new hair color. Anyway, I hope everyone has a good weekend and prayers to anyone struggling

I like that color! Nice job.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh, I’m too old for a completely 0sleep night. Wednesday night I suddenly vomited up all my night meds so I got zero sleep. I spent the night reading 3 books. Even tho I took it easy yesterday and got a great nights sleep last night I’m utterly exhausted. We have a shower chair in the shower for mum and I had to use it several times. Of course I didn’t really eat yesterday either as I didn’t want to get sick again, but boy howdy in my younger years I often went days without sleeping and or eating. In fact not sleeping made me more energetic.

I am sooo sorry that you got sick Id rather do anything than throw up.

Are you drinking lots of fluids?

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Thank you for sharing this. I spent five years in the Oregon State Hospital, where Cuckoo's Nest was filmed. One of my dear friends shot and killed his mother. He thought she was an impostor who had kidnapped him and taken him to a phony, imitation earth, far from the real, true earth. Sweet, gentle, loving man. I love him. He just has super bad schizophrenia.

Hugs!

That’s exactly it. These people aren’t evil. They are ill. Now that’s not to say there aren’t evil people out there, or that every violent act should be blamed on mental illness, or that every mentally ill person is violent. But these people in the documentary were not of sound mind when they committed their crimes. When they are medicated properly, they are very kind people, and often very sorry for their crimes. They will have to live with the guilt forever.

The one thing in the second one though is the flippant attitude of the staff. It reminded me of the staff at the state hospital who made fun of the schizophrenic girl for hearing voices. When she became agitated they would say “whatever, spirit girl” and laugh. Now THEY are the evil ones. The staff at the unit in France were much more compassionate.

[~Christina]

Well for months and months I have had a recurring thought that I am going to fall.. Well Thursday My husband and I went to go early vote. There are about 16-18 steps, Very steep going into the courthouse. Well I always hold on to railing in a death grip. I was on 4th step from the bottom on my way down and Boom down I went

Banged up everywhere but I am forever grateful I didnt break anything

Hugs to anyone in need

@Blue_Bird: That's a really pretty color! You did a good job.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Well for months and months I have had a recurring thought that I am going to fall.. Well Thursday My husband and I went to go early vote. There are about 16-18 steps, Very steep going into the courthouse. Well I always hold on to railing in a death grip. I was on 4th step from the bottom on my way down and Boom down I went

Banged up everywhere but I am forever grateful I didnt break anything

Hugs to anyone in need

That thought about falling down stairs was on my mind months ago too.


I'm glad you didn't break anything


Tonight there was quite a loud bang which disturbed me when I was rinsing my teeth (fangs) and Papa bear had gone to bed. He thought it was me, I wondered if it was him falling out of bed. Occasionally he has had a nightmare and fallen out of bed. It wasn't either of us.

I think it might have been an animal in the garden.

Or possibly a neighbour. It's usually quiet here at night.

[Blue_Bird]

Thanks guys, I’m happy with how it turned out

[MuddyBoots]

Finally got my new inhaler. I think it’s a different one from the last one I had so I hope it works as well if not better.

I’m doing very well in terms of mental health so next week I’m going to ask to decrease my Seroquel slowly as low as I can go. It’s givingn me high cholesterol and causing weight gain as well as making me super duper tired. I don’t need to be on 2 APs.