[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Nammu

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I'm so sorry you threw up and don't feel well. Sleep, if you can. Sleep is such a magic cure.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

It's 77 here today! I have the balcony door open and the heat and A/C off. I would call this an "Indian summer" day.

That's about where we're at. The 70's are ideal. There's a gorgeous breeze coming in from the ocean, it's helping to clear out the filthy air left from the wildfires. And I took a nap...felt like I really slept for the first time in months. It's so much easier to sleep when the air is cool.

[Nammu]

I think I had some kind of atomic bug cause I’m so weak today. I feel much better just so weak. I had to thump the laundry downstairs cause I couldn’t carry it. Think I’ll leave it down there til tomorrow. I’ll fold it all and put it on hangers but leave it till tomorrow. I can’t believe how weak I am. I did have a good meal around 3 pm. That’s helped.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm frustrated with T. H says I have to explain things to her or she wont get it ever but it's so hard for me. Do they really need to know where you came from to help you?

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Ohhhhhhhhh. So not ready for this. It was 80 just the other day!!!! Ugh!!# help!!!

I know its been snowing since noon and its STILL snowing! We probably have about 5 inches! And it wont be melting anytime soon. Temps in the teens for like a week....ugh!

[Coolbreeze74]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

I went to the urgent care. Luckily, I only have a really bad sprain. No fracture. The doctor suggested that I buy a hard ankle support brace.

I'm going to miss that urgent care center, and specifically that doctor I've seen three times this past year. He's even nicer than my general practioner who is hardly ever available. The nurses are nicer, too. The center is very new and pleasant with short waits. For longer waits they will call your cell phone when you are up, while you wait in the diner or Dunkin Donuts, next door. Only negative is that the copay is a little higher. That urgent care is about 1,000 times more pleasant than an ER.

We might go to the above center for our pre-Europe flight covid tests.

Hubby told me to take a PRN Seroquel. Oh well! My mood is still elevated, but wavers in intensity.

Sorry about the bad sprain. At least its not broken anywhere. I hope you get to feeling better soon.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

I do wonder whether the mothering archetype he enjoyed has caused him to believe that the male role is to play games and watch tv and the female role is to provide such an environment. It would be understandable. What about directly broaching this with him? That, actually, that is not how most of the planet operates. Maybe. Just a thought. Hugs.

good post

[Daonnachd]

We have a new fire near us and my wife is a couple hours away with one of my sons. That means I've got to load everything for all 4 of us if we are ordered to evacuate again. Also gotta get the dog in my car and my wife's art. I'll prolly have to leave the art that's been hanging on our walls.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

We have a new fire near us and my wife is a couple hours away with one of my sons. That means I've got to load everything for all 4 of us if we are ordered to evacuate again. Also gotta get the dog in my car and my wife's art. I'll prolly have to leave the art that's been hanging on our walls.

Thinking of you. I hope all of you stay safe

[wildflowerchild25]

I’ve been watching two interesting documentaries on amazon prime video. They are of the same ilk. The first one was called U.D.P, or “unit for difficult patients”. It’s a forensic psychiatric facility in France. It’s so interesting because though I’ve been in many a short term care facilities, even a long term state hospital for a bit, I’ve never been considered “dangerous” and been committed for a crime. All the men in the UDP have been found guilty of crimes they committed when they were severely ill. Often very violent crimes. Some will spend their entire jail sentence in this facility. Others will be able to “step down” to a regular psychiatric hospital.

The other is the same idea but set in Canada. It is called out of mind, out of sight.

It moves me because though I have never become violent, I do feel for these people. I have been severely ill before, but my brain tells me to harm myself, not others. How different my life could be if the opposite were true! I see the side effects of heavy antipsychotics that I have experienced myself in these people too.

It could definitely be triggering for some, but it is interesting and emotional for me.

[*Beth*]

Daonnachd

Oh, no...not another fire. If you have to evacuate, remember to take the urn of ashes with you. You had also mentioned something else you had accidentally left behind last time...I wish I could recall what it was. Something very special to you.

I'm hoping and praying that the fire is soon contained.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’ve been watching two interesting documentaries on amazon prime video. They are of the same ilk. The first one was called U.D.P, or “unit for difficult patients”. It’s a forensic psychiatric facility in France. It’s so interesting because though I’ve been in many a short term care facilities, even a long term state hospital for a bit, I’ve never been considered “dangerous” and been committed for a crime. All the men in the UDP have been found guilty of crimes they committed when they were severely ill. Often very violent crimes. Some will spend their entire jail sentence in this facility. Others will be able to “step down” to a regular psychiatric hospital.

The other is the same idea but set in Canada. It is called out of mind, out of sight.

It moves me because though I have never become violent, I do feel for these people. I have been severely ill before, but my brain tells me to harm myself, not others. How different my life could be if the opposite were true! I see the side effects of heavy antipsychotics that I have experienced myself in these people too.

It could definitely be triggering for some, but it is interesting and emotional for me.

Thanks, wfc. I'll check those out.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’ve been watching two interesting documentaries on amazon prime video. They are of the same ilk. The first one was called U.D.P, or “unit for difficult patients”. It’s a forensic psychiatric facility in France. It’s so interesting because though I’ve been in many a short term care facilities, even a long term state hospital for a bit, I’ve never been considered “dangerous” and been committed for a crime. All the men in the UDP have been found guilty of crimes they committed when they were severely ill. Often very violent crimes. Some will spend their entire jail sentence in this facility. Others will be able to “step down” to a regular psychiatric hospital.

The other is the same idea but set in Canada. It is called out of mind, out of sight.

It moves me because though I have never become violent, I do feel for these people. I have been severely ill before, but my brain tells me to harm myself, not others. How different my life could be if the opposite were true! I see the side effects of heavy antipsychotics that I have experienced myself in these people too.

It could definitely be triggering for some, but it is interesting and emotional for me.

Thanks for this post. These documentaries do sound interesting!

My brain tells me to harm myself and not others too. I've never been considered ''dangerous'' either or been committed for a crime.

''out of mind, out of sight'' ...

U.D.P. (I had not heard of this)

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Daonnachd

Oh, no...not another fire. If you have to evacuate, remember to take the urn of ashes with you. You had also mentioned something else you had accidentally left behind last time...I wish I could recall what it was. Something very special to you.

I'm hoping and praying that the fire is soon contained.

[Sunflower123]

My NP gave me a hard time but finally prescribed Sonata. I flat out quit Ambien...wicked stuff. My NP thought I could take it and take a cold shower in the morning to wake up. Uuuhhh...no thank you.

I might have said this already but my therapist said no social media and 30 minutes of news. I’m finding it very hard to follow but I will. It’s not worth a negative, anxious mindset.

I was in a virtual Dreambuilders workshop from 11-9. I feel disoriented and strange. Tomorrow is 11-10. Sunday is 11-8. It’s an excellent workshop but I’m going to take more breaks and go outside.

Hugs to all.

[Coolbreeze74]

Was out in the snow today. I'm in the outskirts, it looked like it hadn't snowed so much in the city. But I drove slow nonetheless. It was freezing. But we made it home safely.

Hope not to go back out in for a couple days.

Hope everyone is well. Hugs to those struggling!

[Moose72]

Time for bed! ZZzzzzz.........

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I feel better then I did yesterday. I took my meds this morning at 5AM instead of 1AM. Which I think helped my overall well being. I was very tired as a result of not sleeping well and not going back to bed after taking the Geodon. I decided to go to to the store at 8 to avoid the crowds. They finally got in caffeine free regular coke. I suspect it is about to be discontinued and the company is just getting rid of it’s stock. I fell asleep on the way to the store and then I went back to bed until 10 and I felt ok after that. I mostly just read this afternoon. I still don’t really feel like eating much. My clothes are getting very loose. But my anxiety is a lot better. Although it’s starting to get a bit bad tonight. My depression is decent. I’m still not as bad as I was yesterday.

Thanks everyone for your support.

Glad you are feeling better, MD.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’ve been watching two interesting documentaries on amazon prime video. They are of the same ilk. The first one was called U.D.P, or “unit for difficult patients”. It’s a forensic psychiatric facility in France. It’s so interesting because though I’ve been in many a short term care facilities, even a long term state hospital for a bit, I’ve never been considered “dangerous” and been committed for a crime. All the men in the UDP have been found guilty of crimes they committed when they were severely ill. Often very violent crimes. Some will spend their entire jail sentence in this facility. Others will be able to “step down” to a regular psychiatric hospital.

The other is the same idea but set in Canada. It is called out of mind, out of sight.

It moves me because though I have never become violent, I do feel for these people. I have been severely ill before, but my brain tells me to harm myself, not others. How different my life could be if the opposite were true! I see the side effects of heavy antipsychotics that I have experienced myself in these people too.

It could definitely be triggering for some, but it is interesting and emotional for me.

Thank you for sharing this. I spent five years in the Oregon State Hospital, where Cuckoo's Nest was filmed. One of my dear friends shot and killed his mother. He thought she was an impostor who had kidnapped him and taken him to a phony, imitation earth, far from the real, true earth. Sweet, gentle, loving man. I love him. He just has super bad schizophrenia.

Hugs!

It was a beautiful Fall day here, 26 C, 78 F, our last warm day. Flurries are on the way. I sat out with my dog for hours. There were a lot of blackbirds flying but they were going Northeast. They need Google Maps!

I literally can't boil water. I went to make a tea. I don't have a kettle so i just used a pot. The lid was on. It was boiling over so i moved it off the heat. I guess a vacuum was created in the pot because the lid wouldn't come off. So ironic...

Hugs to all who suffer!

[Soupe du jour]

Yesterday, after going to the urgent care clinic, Hubby and I went to the diner next door and ordered breakfast options for lunch. I ordered a side of pork roll, a food I rarely have because Hubby doesn't like it.

Pork roll is very well known in my state. I thought: "This could be the last time I have it in my life." There have been many things I have said such about, lately.

[Soupe du jour]

I just sent an email to my psychiatrist about my issues. Lots of issues. I told him that they are continuing and multiplying.

[daladico]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

I do wonder whether the mothering archetype ha enjoyed has caused him to believe thst the male role is to play games and watch tv and the female role is to provide such an environment. It would be understandable. What about directly broaching this with him? That, actually, that is not how most of the planet operates. Maybe. Just a thought. Hugs.

I think you hit it spot-on, @bpcyclist

[yellow_fleurs]

Hi all! Doing a bit better this morning. Felt better after cutting out that Wellbutrin dose. I talked to my psychiatrist and at first they were talking about switching me to another antidepressant, but I am so sensitive to them that I figured I might just need to try a lower dose. I think I will react to any psych med at a normal dose. I am actually only taking a pill every other day right now. I still feel depressed and blah but not unable to get out of bed kind of tired.

The good news is since starting birth control my moods have been much more stable, but I got stuck in this blah depression for months and that's why I am trying an antidepressant. My psychiatrist is still on the fence about whether or not I have bipolar disorder or not, but right now we are treating it as depression/PMDD. (If I already mentioned some of this, sorry, my memory is wonky from all of this right now).

I got up early today to do laundry before the facilities get crowded and I am going to clean up around my apartment today because I really let things get dirty when I was feeling unwell last week. I think that will make me feel better. Wish I could go on a hike again this weekend, but having a problem with my toe. Good news is it is so much better today than yesterday. Hopefully I will be back at it soon.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I’ve been watching two interesting documentaries on amazon prime video. They are of the same ilk. The first one was called U.D.P, or “unit for difficult patients”. It’s a forensic psychiatric facility in France. It’s so interesting because though I’ve been in many a short term care facilities, even a long term state hospital for a bit, I’ve never been considered “dangerous” and been committed for a crime. All the men in the UDP have been found guilty of crimes they committed when they were severely ill. Often very violent crimes. Some will spend their entire jail sentence in this facility. Others will be able to “step down” to a regular psychiatric hospital.

The other is the same idea but set in Canada. It is called out of mind, out of sight.

It moves me because though I have never become violent, I do feel for these people. I have been severely ill before, but my brain tells me to harm myself, not others. How different my life could be if the opposite were true! I see the side effects of heavy antipsychotics that I have experienced myself in these people too.

It could definitely be triggering for some, but it is interesting and emotional for me.

I watched UDP. Such sad stories, but very interesting. For most of the men, living in the facility gives them a feeling of security. I can certainly understand that. The staff seems so caring...I wonder if it's really like that, or was their kind behavior a put-on...or is the system in France superior to our?

Not too far from where I live there's a state psychiatric facility for criminals. It doesn't look like a place I'd want to spend any time in.

I'm going to watch the other doc. Thanks wfc for the recommendations.