[Moose72]

My pdoc is calling tomorrow for a tele appointment. I think the last time I had an appointment was a month ago with someone who was training to be a psych nurse practitioner. That was odd. But I think it's going to be my regular psych NP and I don't know what I'll tell her. Anybody here got any ideas? I feel like I spend my days doing the same things. I'm in a rut. Cleaning is a big adventure for me. Maybe I'll dust tomorrow. But I couldn't find any dusting spray at the store yesterday. I'll just use a damp wash cloth. My big deal was going to the doctor so far this week. And I still don't know what's going on with my kidneys. They are sub par. I used to have urinary reflux when i was a kid but I grew out of it. So it can't be that. I don't get UTI's that often at all. I suppose I should ask my doctor about it. I can look it up in my patient portal to see what it's called at least. Anyway, I don't know what to do about my appointment tomorrow. I've just been plugging along since I moved.

it has been difficult for me the last few days without any internet

I've seen so much tv in the last few days that I don't think I want to look at another one in at least a year. lol

and I have so many emails to catch up on it is a joke

but christmas music on and get to it, I suppose. good to have my alexa back also

[unlived]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Two days ago, I went to my doctor for my annual check up. My doctor did a full work up including a blood work. I've lost 20 pounds since last year's appointment. I still need to lose more. I'll have to go to the mall to walk this winter. BUT, my weight is holding nicely since about June. My (vitamin) B12 level is too high. No wonder- the supplement I was taking has ten THOUSAND times the suggested daily amount of B12 in it! My A1C is 5.3 and they like it under 5.5 for a non-diabetic. My kidney function is sub-par. Don't know any more than that. I don't know what you do about that. I have three pills of the many that I'm taking that I need to discontinue: Vitamin E (which was for my liver) but my liver results were good! Amlodipine- I need to stop, too. I looked it up and it's for blood pressure. My blood pressure had been very high, but now it's normal so I guess that's why she discontinued it. I also am to stop Metformin because there is a recall because it can contain N-Nitrosodimethylamine (NDMA) which has been shown to cause cancer! I need to repeat my blood pressure being taken and my labs in three weeks. My liver levels were normal! This all encourages me to continue losing weight. I had three gift cards that I found in an old purse to Kohl's so my mom and I went to find me something for my apartment. I got sheets and a book light. Now I have three sets of sheets. One of them doesn't fit, though, hence why I wanted to get a new set.

Just curious but why do you take the b12 supplement if it’s that much above the recommended dose? It’s a lot!

[MuddyBoots]

Ive been using the word “agitation” a lot in my mood chart these past few days. Couldn’t get to bed last night either and woke up much earlier than I wanted to. I picture my mind as a giant exclamation point. I knew every time they said I’d feel better after not using that was a load of bull. I felt like **** before, why not after? Why do people have to lie to me and say my instability is because of drug use when Ive been struggling long before I even started using. I get it doesn’t help, but sometimes all I need is a break and to feel at peace for once in my ****ing life. I’m not going to start using again, but I’m certainly sick of stubbing my toes because I cant stop pacing and ripping up paper because my thoughts are too jumbled to write down a frickin list of things to ask the vet, which I have to do because I’m too much of an incompetent piece of **** to remember “flea collars” and “bumps on ear” and knowing me Ill lose that paper or forget it. Can’t even take care of a fn cat.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by downersgoup

I started lithium this week, and I'm not entirely certain, but it already feels like it's working. I'm eventually going to be titrating up to 1200mg, but I'm currently at 450, and I've noticed that suddenly everything seems to have calmed down a bit. I'm not sure if this is because I'm entering a normal baseline phase, but I'm into it. Aside from that, just been studying Spanish, working away at my kitchen job, and caring for my pet rat, whose brother recently passed away, which we're all very sad about.

I'm sorry your rat passed away.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Sapien

...Why do people have to lie to me and say my instability is because of drug use when Ive been struggling long before I even started using.

You wrote a list of things to ask the vet? Sounds to me like you are taking care of your cat.

Have you made it clear to them that you were having symptoms before drug use, that the symptoms were the reason you started using? I would hope they would clue into that!

[*Beth*]

Had a tetanus shot on Wednesday, which left me with a very sore arm. Then yesterday evening I felt feverish and completely fatigued. Fell into bed at 7:30 and slept so hard. I don't recall ever having had such a strong reaction to a vaccine. I awoke feeling improved, except my arm still hurts like heck.

[WildcatVet]

I'm still too manic today...I've already started 4 projects and haven't finished one of them and it's only 9:00. Seeing my nurse practitioner tomorrow...I think we're going to have to tweak my meds.

[daladico]

My depression has lifted. Feeling a lot better.
Pdoc did increase my AP.
Hopefully that will help decrease my rapid cycling.

Feeling really grateful today.
Grateful to be more stabilized today.
Grateful that I pushed through all these highs and lows.
Grateful bpc is ok.
Grateful to live in such a beautiful area.
Grateful for my coffee.

Take care you all.
Sending each of you lots of love and strength for all you are going through.

[MuddyBoots]

Originally Posted by BethRags

You wrote a list of things to ask the vet? Sounds to me like you are taking care of your cat.

Have you made it clear to them that you were having symptoms before drug use, that the symptoms were the reason you started using? I would hope they would clue into that!

Thanks. I believe I have said a lot of the symptoms came first to them, it’s okay though, the people Im referring to don’t really have a big say in my treatment so it doesn’t matter anyway. Still aggravating though.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by unlived

Just curious but why do you take the b12 supplement if it’s that much above the recommended dose? It’s a lot!

I didn't realize that it had that much B12 till yesterday.

[Mountaindewed]

I’ve been reading for the first time in over a year and last year was just one book. My chest was super distracting to me and I just couldn’t concentrate. Now that it’s gone I’ve been flying through books. I wish my therapist would have a little bit more faith in me when I tell her I know what my issue is regarding certain topics. I know myself better then she thinks she does.

My physical pain is tough today. I’m wondering what the results will be and what the treatment will be.

Originally Posted by BethRags

How are your meds? It seems that you're more depressed than you need to be.

I haven't found any meds that help with depression. My doctor was mad-keen about Lamictal but it didn't help. Thanks for your concern tho, hope your arm feels better soon.

[Soupe du jour]

Hubby and I got a bit frustrated with our realtor. We know she's busy multi-tasking for likely several sellers, but her lack of info on a particular scheduling app was not appreciated. When we'd ask her questions, she gave half (or cryptic) quick responses, that still left us a bit confused. Then at two points she responded almost scolding us. Not welcome, at all, during this hectic period for us! As of right now, we have 10 showing requests plus the open house. Hubby accidentally declined another thinking it was for this Sunday, but we later saw it was for the Sunday after (Nov 22). We didn't even expect to be receiving showing requests for more than a week into the future. I guess we learned! Shame on us for seeming ignorant about that! We started to feel like secretaries, telling requesters about conflicts because of tech issues with the app/website. Our realtor reminded us that she "fixed" that issue, but she did so in a scolding manner, like "I already told you that I fixed that issue, so accept everything!" So, we'll just accept absolutely everything. Everything. If there are any issues with that, I'll put that on her. We will, however, need to find some times, in the upcoming days, to sleep, eat, and go to the bathroom in our own house!

Yea, I'm a little frustrated! And yea, I'm aware that it is in our best interest not to limit any showing requests. But I had no idea it would be this chaotic. My head is spinning a bit.

The house is in a bit of chaos after looking perfectly fine yesterday morning. Hubby has this tendency to start, but never clean up after, multiple projects. I told him that 50% of the rooms in our house look chaotic. It's all his stuff. If I must clean it up, I'll put it all in a bag or box and hide it in a closet. He wouldn't like that.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I haven't found any meds that help with depression. My doctor was mad-keen about Lamictal but it didn't help. Thanks for your concern tho, hope your arm feels better soon.

Thank you, whatever. I think my arm is going to fall off, lol. It hurts so much.

I had no luck with any AD's with the exception of Pristiq. That's been the only one that helps. I'm so sorry you have to be stuck with depression. Do you have anxiety with it?

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

...

Ugggh, selling a house is usually so stressful. Are you thinking changing realtors? I wouldn't like to be scolding. My GP "scolds" me and I find myself getting snappy with her. No one, child nor adult, wants to be scolded.

[Moose72]

My pdoc called early today- around 12:15 instead of 2:30. I thought she just had a few things to tell me until later, but nope- that was my whole appointment. No med changes other than the ones my primary did this week. So I'm to get a call in another month. She suggested I join a book club. I started reading "Madness" by Marya Horbacher again. I wonder if there is anything like a book club on the boards here.

[Soupe du jour]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Ugggh, selling a house is usually so stressful. Are you thinking changing realtors? I wouldn't like to be scolding. My GP "scolds" me and I find myself getting snappy with her. No one, child nor adult, wants to be scolded.

No, we're not yet thinking of changing realtors. She has been extremely helpful in many other respects. I may be complaining/venting right now, but unless she continues to scold (or not communicate well) it will be behind me. I am good at letting things go. Hopefully, she'll get us a good buyer. If she doesn't, then of course we'd consider switching, if/when it seems best to. But if she delivers well, I'd only emphasize that in any review. I might only offer constructive criticism to her, directly, in such a case. Or not even bother.

I'm sorry to read that your GP scolds you. Have you ever brought that up with her? Sometimes it is worth getting it out there than harboring resentment. I have usually found that sharing such feedback yielded better things than not, especially if it's ongoing. I've twice told my psychiatrist that he can be a wet blanket. It hasn't completely changed him (probably nothing can), but I think the feedback has helped, nonetheless.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My pdoc called early today- around 12:15 instead of 2:30. I thought she just had a few things to tell me until later, but nope- that was my whole appointment. No med changes other than the ones my primary did this week. So I'm to get a call in another month. She suggested I join a book club. I started reading "Madness" by Marya Horbacher again. I wonder if there is anything like a book club on the boards here.

A book club here on PC would be such a fun idea! It could be its own group.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Soupe du jour

No, we're not yet thinking of changing realtors. She has been extremely helpful in many other respects. I may be complaining/venting right now, but unless she continues to scold (or not communicate well) it will be behind me. I am good at letting things go. Hopefully, she'll get us a good buyer. If she doesn't, then of course we'd consider switching, if/when it seems best to. But if she delivers well, I'd only emphasize that in any review. I might only offer constructive criticism to her, directly, in such a case. Or not even bother.

I'm sorry to read that your GP scolds you. Have you ever brought that up with her? Sometimes it is worth getting it out there than harboring resentment. I have usually found that sharing such feedback yielded better things than not, especially if it's ongoing. I've twice told my psychiatrist that he can be a wet blanket. It hasn't completely changed him (probably nothing can), but I think the feedback has helped, nonetheless.

Sounds like a good plan with regard to your realtor. Years ago I had a wonderful therapist, he would tell me that the important thing in life is to "do what works." So often people get tangled up in emotion and "what works" is lost in the process.

No, I haven't said anything to my GP. Since I don't see her that much, I basically use her for labs and referrals. And basic medical info a prescription to treat a rash...simple stuff. It would be kind of me to give her feedback, though. Something worth considering.

I worked-out! I did ten minutes of aerobic dance, three songs. It was fun! My dog looked on, very confused. I stretched too. Well, it's a start!

I emailed in to my doctor's asking to attempt to withdraw from Clonazepam. It seems like a good time for it now. I'm only on 1mg but at this point it's just a nuisance.

@BethRags: Yes, i get terrible anxiety but i cope by living a solitary, low-stress life. I hate anxiety worse than depression. Sorry to hear your arm is still bothering you. I'll say a prayer... Done!

Hugs to all who suffer!

[Mountaindewed]

My mom noticed me taking a few melatonin tonight and got mad because they are not mine they are my brothers and she said “so your the reason they are disappearing!” And she said that the directions say just to take 2. Now I’m not sure if I should confess to my mom that that’s why my therapist has been in such a bad mood with me lately, or confess to my therapist that my mom found out that I’ve been taking them and isn’t happy. Like who’s gonna get more pissed...

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by whatever2013

I worked-out! I did ten minutes of aerobic dance, three songs. It was fun! My dog looked on, very confused. I stretched too. Well, it's a start!

I emailed in to my doctor's asking to attempt to withdraw from Clonazepam. It seems like a good time for it now. I'm only on 1mg but at this point it's just a nuisance.

@BethRags: Yes, i get terrible anxiety but i cope by living a solitary, low-stress life. I hate anxiety worse than depression. Sorry to hear your arm is still bothering you. I'll say a prayer... Done!

Hugs to all who suffer!

Good for you exercising! I recently bought a pedal exerciser and I'm up to 10 minutes, too. Better than 5 minutes!

I'd take just about any emotion over anxiety.

[*Beth*]

I had my teletherapy appointment today and found out that the clinic is seriously considering opening for f2f in January! I'm truly shocked. I wasn't expecting them to open for f2f for at least 10 more months. Since my therapist has lung issues, she might have to ask for an extension, though. But heck...even March would be amazing; 6 months sooner than I had expected. And just seeing my pdoc in person would be great.

whatever, I guess your prayer worked, because my arm suddenly feels almost normal. Achy pain gone!

[Daonnachd]

Well, today I finally started the booklet I want to write on ECT. I haven't got much but I have got various branches which will spread nicely as things go on.