[Mountaindewed]

I didn’t take my Geodon and then go back to sleep like I usually do. I took it at 5:15 and didn’t get back to sleep. Now a few hours later I am lying in bed exhausted from the Geodon but unable to sleep but when I get up and try to read I am so tired. This is not a symptom of depression or anything this is strictly med related.

I feel pretty good mental health wise. the laundry is actually being done. 4 full loads total. One is in the dryer and one in the washer. The other I’ll do today. The last one is outdoor jackets and heavy hoodies so I may wait on that one since I am quarantining for Thanksgiving.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

......
Got to a slide about risks of untreated bipolar. Substance abuse, of course. Completed act of self destruction, check. The last one? Economic burden in the billions.

Hold the **** up. So the problem with not getting treatment that is important enough to put on a slide is the fact that we are a BURDEN ON THE ECONOMY??? Why? Because if disability? Taxes being sucked out for ****** programs? Cost of Medicaid?

**** you people. And you call yourselves mental health professionals. Make me feel like an asshole because I have an illness that I do not want, do not have fun with, and did not ask for in any way.

I’m still heated.

Effing unbelievable!

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

I am so, so sorry to hear this. I've missed you so much around here, but figured you were resting. Christina, please take the best care of your wonderful self. I'm sending love.

[*Beth*]

It's a beautiful foggy morning. I wish all of you could see it. On a morning like this it's easy to believe eternity is possible.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

You are in my thoughts and prayers.

[fern46]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

I am on my way to have this last paragraph tattood on my face. Thanks.

The fact that we need that much money to address these illnesses and that there are no cures and many are struggling just to get by only proves the industry has failed. I do not see it as a reflection of the patients. Perhaps we can all do better, but the medical industry needs to look deep within.

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

Oh no! I'm so sorry! You are very much in my thoughts, Christina. Please be sure to take very good care of yourself, ok? Is Steve able to help you with what you need? I wish there were something we could do. Is there? Anything? Just name it. We are here for you.

[Rick7892]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

Prayers & best wishes! One day at a time!

[bizi]

Christina, did they say what caused the tia?(mini stroke)?
I am so sorry that this has happened to you. How is steve holding up with you in the hospital?
Thank you so much for checking in with us. know that you are loved more than you know.
love bizi

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

Oh Christina sending lots and lots of purple healing vibes your way.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by bpcyclist

Slept hardly at all. Thought I was in Barcelona at first.

Albert is with the girls
Prolly best, as I will be moving back to NYC soon for work for 8 mos. Or so.

Feel good out of IP. Made it 4 yrs
Guess it just happens.

Though just how and via means I neither sought nor desire, I find myself in a teensy love triangle. Not a home wrecker. But I have loved this girl for, like, 16 years maybe. We shall see. Truth and honesty are our guides for the day...

I'm sad about Albert, but the good part is that when you are able to sleep, your sleep won't be interrupted. And Albert surely enjoys his new home.

Why are you thinking of moving to NYC? You love Portland so much.

Feeling pretty good. Happy with myself because i did laundry and cooked a meal. It's strange and welcome how much i am enjoying doing dishes. It's an easy chore which gives good rewards, very worthwhile. So nice to see all my gleaming dishes on the clean counter. My kitchen is well-equipped and there is good value in making use of it, financially, emotionally, physically and spiritually! I'm just amazed...

@~Christina: So sorry to hear of your TIA and that you're in a walker. That must be so hard. I'll say a prayer for you.

Hugs to all who suffer!

[~Christina]

Thanks everyone.. I'm doing as well as can be expected at this point. Mentally I am having lots of holes in memory, and still need the damn walker, But I need it so it will help stop any falls. I am very scared to be alone right now, My husband is watching me like a hawk..


Thanks again.. All the support is a huge comfort

[bizi]

lots of love for you from this forum.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[*Beth*]

whatever, that's some really good stuff! You're having a lot of insight.

Week-ends are not my favorite days. They seem long and empty, just a lot of chores- especially since covid. On Saturdays, almost without exception, my mom used to have her worse "episodes" of breakdown and abuse. (My mom was such a special person in many ways; unfortunately, she was quite mentally ill, and never stuck with treatment.) So Saturdays are always a challenge for me, especially so when the sunlight is so low all day.

I'm trying to reframe it, though...I will have plenty of time to exercise today, and when the chores are done it will feel good. I started taking vitamins today since my blood labs showed a B12 deficiency.

Hugs all around

[Mountaindewed]

Why do I feel so depressed and S but only at night? It’s got to be med related.

My memory has gotten very bad. I thought my dad died 5 years ago on the 29th but it’s actually been 6 years. No one has noticed how forgetful I’ve been. I need to keep things exactly where I’ve placed them or else I can’t find them. I have meds in several different spots in the house because if I move them I’ll get confused.

I also am using two sticks of deodorant since I lost the first one, started a new one, then found the old one. Now I keep one on my book case and one on my dresser since I seem to always misplace one or the other.

I had to ask my mom what we did this week because I had forgotten.

I am very scared to mention my memory problems to anyone.

[wildflowerchild25]

Went to the mountains with RS today, the same place we visited last year for our anniversary. We took another long walk around the great antique shop they have there. It was wonderful...mostly because RS pulled me into one of the back aisles, got down on one knee, and gave me a ring

So now we’re engaged!!! And in 2-3 years, I will be able to shed the last piece of my first husband that I am tied to. My last name.

I know I will be continually triggered from time to time until I fully process the trauma. But RS has shown me that he intends to stick it out with me no matter what.

This. This is what I’ve always wanted and never got. Unconditional love and support. I’m just so happy we took a chance on each other and got to where we are!

[*Beth*]

WFC....

Congratulations!

@wildflowerchild25: Congratulations! I wish you a thousand blisses!

[Moose72]

Wildflowerchild CONGRATULATIONS!

[Moose72]

@~Christina I'm shocked that this happened to you. How are you feeling besides unsteady on your feet? That sounds so scary! Take it easy and be nice to yourself. Don't over do! *HUGS* and *LOVE*!

[Nammu]

Wildflower, congratulations on the engagement! :dancingchili:

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Congrats Wildflower!

[fern46]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Went to the mountains with RS today, the same place we visited last year for our anniversary. We took another long walk around the great antique shop they have there. It was wonderful...mostly because RS pulled me into one of the back aisles, got down on one knee, and gave me a ring

So now we’re engaged!!! And in 2-3 years, I will be able to shed the last piece of my first husband that I am tied to. My last name.

I know I will be continually triggered from time to time until I fully process the trauma. But RS has shown me that he intends to stick it out with me no matter what.

This. This is what I’ve always wanted and never got. Unconditional love and support. I’m just so happy we took a chance on each other and got to where we are!

So very happy for you. I wish you and RS all the best. Congrats!

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Went to the mountains with RS today, the same place we visited last year for our anniversary. We took another long walk around the great antique shop they have there. It was wonderful...mostly because RS pulled me into one of the back aisles, got down on one knee, and gave me a ring

So now we’re engaged!!! And in 2-3 years, I will be able to shed the last piece of my first husband that I am tied to. My last name.

I know I will be continually triggered from time to time until I fully process the trauma. But RS has shown me that he intends to stick it out with me no matter what.

This. This is what I’ve always wanted and never got. Unconditional love and support. I’m just so happy we took a chance on each other and got to where we are!

Congratulations, WFC!! I am so happy for you!!

(Now where can I get me such a fine man as you have found? )