[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

Well, today I finally started the booklet I want to write on ECT. I haven't got much but I have got various branches which will spread nicely as things go on.

Excellent, and much needed.

right now, (well not this second), but I've been playing this new sherlock holmes game on alexa

and I'm stuck. I can't figure out how I get out the hotel.

I can't use the door and I can't use the window

I know I'm always on about how much I love games, and I love alexa, but I ****ing hate puzzles. I just don't have the patience for them, and I actually I emailed the developer asking for tips.

no major plans for today, probably a good thind.. half my body aches and burns from having a shower this morning

but I have mcdonalds later. always a high point of the week

[Soupe du jour]

My husband and I have a very physically busy day ahead of us. We need to do a deep cleaning of our house in preparation for tomorrow, which is the first day of potential buyer visits. Right now there are showings scheduled for almost all minutes between 9 am and 3 pm tomorrow. I expect some more will be scheduled for tomorrow before today is done. Our realtor says we should be willing to have people come as late as 9 pm. Hopefully not that late, though. We'll likely go to New York City for the day to pass the time. So far all appointments for Sunday are within the open house period of 1 pm and 4 pm.

I already cleaned up some medication bottles, combining duplicate bottles. That gave me space for jewelry I definitely don't want within reach of strangers. I put it all in our safe and locked it. Downstairs are my husband's medications, which include a couple controlled substances. I didn't lock them up, but they are in closed plastic containers. Where the contents is visible I put two boxes of unflavored gelatin and white baking chocolate.

I'm getting my hair cut and colored today, but by someone new. My usual stylist charges a fortune for these services, plus I have continued to ask her to lighten it, but every time I leave it looks the exact same color. Of course she (and her colleagues) say it is lighter. I think that's standard operating procedure. So much for what the customer thinks! The last time I really emphasized wanting to have it lighter, the receptionist reacted as if it is impossible to do. In response, I said "Well, Kristy is not exactly a natural blond. She's brunette, in reality. I think she knows how to lighten hair!" [Sorry, but enough is enough!] Anyway, hopefully the guy (yes, a man this time) does a good job. I will have to warn him that my hair has been coming out in large amounts, when washed and combed. That's a little embarrassing, but what am I going to do.

[MuddyBoots]

I tweaked my knee running yesterday and I’m trying to rest but I CAN’T! I never realized I paced the house for hours at a time and when sitting constantly bounced my legs, but now that it hurts it’s all I notice! I just wanna run until I drop! Had a hard time sleeping last night again too, tonight I think I’m going to take a temazepam to get some solid sleep. My shirt smells so good. I miss my snuggly kitty, so does one of my other cats. This pain makes me want pain killers, maybe I’ll go to Goodwill later, I changed size again, stupid seroquel and risperdal why can’t I lose weight as fast as I put it on ahaha

[bpcyclist]

Hey, gang !!! Took an extended tour of Oregon's civil commitment univeerse for a week. Somehow ran out of lithium and got manic commands.

Portland police were friendly, kind, and helpful. Rock stars. Home chillin' for now.

Many thanks. For all the help and the sweet PMs and other communications. You will always have my heart.

[*Beth*]

Soupe du jour

9 p.m. That seems kind-of creepy, actually. Why anyone would go house hunting that late, I don't know.

I hope your hair appt. goes well. I have been in the situation more than thrice when the stylist gave me "highlights" that were middling gold, darker than my own color. And paying a small fortune...no thanks. I believe that most stylists are afraid of frying hair, so get cold feet about too high a level of lightning.

Oooh, take a few pics in NYC for us! I was last there 15 years ago. My family comes from Brooklyn...it always feels like home to me, even though I was born out here.

[*Beth*]

We're having just a bit of rain today! Something to be truly excited about!

Got blood labs results, some are kinda weird...anemia, odd blood cell counts. I'm seeing my pdoc today; I hope she'll review the results and dicipher them for me. I suspect medication oddities...I really do not want the stuff to kill me.

[Nammu]

Well we got snow again last night. Fortunately the sun is melting the majority of it. I had a hard time sleeping yesterday. I haven’t been wearing my hearing aids and that sets off noise in my head. But the ear molds are both causing pain. On top of that I got the total bill over $3000, I thought insurance was to cover some of it? Sigh. Did dream I was in the Caribbean with a girl( woman, now) that I used to ride the school bus with. We were celebrating somebody’s birthday so she got a press on tattoos. The water was lovely.

[Moose72]

I set my alarm for 7 a.m. and I DID wake up and got out of bed, but it just seemed too much to go to the mall and walk so I went back to bed and didn't get up again until 1 p.m. Stupid. When am I going to learn? I went and picked up my scripts this afternoon. They left out the three meds that my primary doc wants me to discontinue and they filled my albuterol inhaler (for asthma) and it is a tiny little thing that will fit in my purse or pocket very easily! Need a shower some time this afternoon. I got coffee at Tim Horton's - YUM! It's all gone now, though. Now I just got some snail mail that is from my credit union telling me that they're going to take my payment for my credit card on or after 11/4/2020 . But I thought they already took that payment! Now I have to go look that up. Probably the letter just got here late and it's already taken care of, but I should call anyway. ETA: They did take the payment. That letter just took forever to get here in the snail mail.

Oh yeah- it's Friday the 13th. So far so good!

[*Beth*]

Moose, we don't have Tim Horton's here, but that sounds so good. I'd give a lot for a 3-shot latte right now. I can't drive yet and nobody here delivers espresso. Sucks.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BethRags

Moose, we don't have Tim Horton's here, but that sounds so good. I'd give a lot for a 3-shot latte right now. I can't drive yet and nobody here delivers espresso. Sucks.

Yeah- we are close to Canada so that's probably why we have Timmies here. I could even walk to Starbucks! But it's more expensive than Tim Hortons so I usually just drive to T.H. Sometime, I will splurge and walk over to Starbucks. Would take me about 20 minutes each way.

[Victoria'smom]

So I finally crawled out of bed after crying a bit. I was cohorsed into a shower. Just now finish hot chocolate and we're going shopping for food.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m not really depressed today, actually I’ve been quite hopeful the majority of the day. But I am incredibly unmotivated to do anything but read. I have a huge overflowing laundry basket and it’s so stressful I’ve just shut it out of my mind. I had to wear a pair of pants I’ve already worn. If I skip a shower tomorrow, which doesn’t make sense to take one anyways, I can ignore the laundry again. I just took 3 fast acting extended release melatonin and a remeron. I also took a milligram of Xanax around 1:30. I’ve done worse. I mixed a ton of stuff with cough syrup when I had that probable Covid thing in January. Right now I just feel a bit tired but not exhausted. Not yet. Maybe I am depressed and using books to not deal with these thoughts.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I’m not really depressed today, actually I’ve been quite hopeful the majority of the day. But I am incredibly unmotivated to do anything but read. I have a huge overflowing laundry basket and it’s so stressful I’ve just shut it out of my mind. I had to wear a pair of pants I’ve already worn. If I skip a shower tomorrow, which doesn’t make sense to take one anyways, I can ignore the laundry again. I just took 3 fast acting extended release melatonin and a remeron. I also took a milligram of Xanax around 1:30. I’ve done worse. I mixed a ton of stuff with cough syrup when I had that probable Covid thing in January. Right now I just feel a bit tired but not exhausted. Not yet. Maybe I am depressed and using books to not deal with these thoughts.

Hi Md, I'm still not getting why you take so much melatonin. Are you trying to make yourself go to sleep?

[Soupe du jour]

Bpcyclist, I'm happy to see you checking in. I'm sorry you had to go inpatient. I know how even just a few days without a medication can send my mood soaring. Please be sure you have plenty of your meds on hand. We were all so worried about you!

BethRags, I ended up cancelling my hair appointment. Not that I didn't need it, but Hubby and I just had way too much to do. We were doing physical work almost all day today. Inside the house and outside the house. I think I cleaned my house deeper today than ever before. It's pretty much spotless. So much work that I almost wish I could just sleep outside in a tent. As for tomorrow, we do have to be out of the house before 9 am, but the last showing is at 3:30 pm, so we can come home much earlier than expected. I agree that a nighttime showing would seem odd. Plus, then they wouldn't see all of the hard work I put into our deck area today.

[*Beth*]

Soupe, that's totally true - seeing the house at night certainly wouldn't display it well.

I didn't use any disposable dishes today. I am conquering my phobia about dishwashing. It's probably not permanent tho. But i'll enjoy it while i can. It's more pleasant to eat on real dishes and of course it's better for the environment. Cheaper too.

I haven't had take-out in two weeks. I was ordering it practically everyday for a while there. Made grilled cheese sandwiches again today and had them with soup, a classic.

Kept it to two Coke Zeros a day yesterday and today, down from five plus.

Took a shower i was overdue for.

It was a really quiet day.

Hugs to all who suffer!

[Polibeth]

My ECT appointment was moved up. I've been doing ok but some manic symptoms so better to get this under control before it all gets out of control.

[wildflowerchild25]

Today I had to do training on bipolar disorder. Easy peasy, right? I didn’t even need to read the damn slides, but I did anyway just because I knew that there would probably be some questions from an MHT’s point of view that I wouldn’t know.

Got to a slide about risks of untreated bipolar. Substance abuse, of course. Completed act of self destruction, check. The last one? Economic burden in the billions.

Hold the **** up. So the problem with not getting treatment that is important enough to put on a slide is the fact that we are a BURDEN ON THE ECONOMY??? Why? Because if disability? Taxes being sucked out for ****** programs? Cost of Medicaid?

**** you people. And you call yourselves mental health professionals. Make me feel like an asshole because I have an illness that I do not want, do not have fun with, and did not ask for in any way.

I’m still heated.

[~Christina]

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m so sorry Christina!!! That’s awful!!! I hope you get better quickly and that nothing else happens.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Today I had to do training on bipolar disorder. Easy peasy, right? I didn’t even need to read the damn slides, b ut I did anyway just because I knew that there would probably be some questions from an MHT’s point of view that I wouldn’t know.

Got to a slide about risks of untreated bipolar. Substance abuse, of course. Completed act of self destruction, check. The last one? Economic burden in the billions.

Hold the **** up. So the problem with not getting treatment that is important enough to put on a slide is the fact that we are a BURDEN ON THE ECONOMY??? Why? Because if disability? Taxes being sucked out for ****** programs? Cost of Medicaid?

**** you people. And you call yourselves mental health professionals. Make me feel like an asshole because I have an illness that I do not want, do not have fun with, and did not ask for in any way.

I’m still heated.

I am on my way to have this last paragraph tattood on my face. Thanks.

[bpcyclist]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

I am so sorry, Christina. Is there anything we c help with ?

Hugs and prayers, for you both.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I had a TIA/mini stroke over the weekend. I had to stay for days worth of testing in the hospital.

I’m struggling a lot. mentally and physically I need to use a walker.

It’s a big heads up.. it can be a early sign that a full stroke is possible

The odds suck

I'm so sorry this happened.

[bpcyclist]

Slept hardly at all. Thought I was in Barcelona at first.

Albert is with the girls
Prolly best, as I will be moving back to NYC soon for work for 8 mos. Or so.

Feel good out of IP. Made it 4 yrs
Guess it just happens.

Though just how and via means I neither sought nor desire, I find myself in a teensy love triangle. Not a home wrecker. But I have loved this girl for, like, 16 years maybe. We shall see. Truth and honesty are our guides for the day...