Panicked

So Pdoc called he's not happy. I'm going back on the shot for abilify and opening capsules and desolving them for fluoxetine. I don't know why but I'm Sooo scared. I don't know why. It's not like this is new medication for me. But I'm so scared. I don't know when I'm getting the shot probably tomorrow but I'm petrified. I'm laughing right now because I'm so nervous. I may cry when I get the shot. He said I should have gone to the hospital. that insurance does that sometimes and there's nothing he can do about it accept change my meds. Did I mention this is scary! like really scary. What if they give me the wrong injection? what if I have breakthrough symptoms? I'm trying to tell myself something is better then nothing but honestly I don't feel that's true. Then he asked questions and I was like damn I guess I'm not okay. He really likes the hospital. My husband was in the appointment and his jaw dropped because neither of us thought I was that unwell. I'll get over it I guess. I'm just scared and confused. This is not what I accepted my day to be like. I know it will be a sigh of relief for most here and IRL but I'm scared.

Remember, Mm, that you are not on the proper meds right now. So you can expect your reactions to be (most likely) negative and extreme. Once you're back on meds things will be in perspective and will make more sense to you.

When will you be getting the shot?

He wants it right away but was having trouble scheduling it so he's calling me back. I'm relieved he heard me but so so scared.

I'm sorry you're scared. But it's okay if you feel like crying when you get the shot .

So I'm getting it tomorrow morning. They want me to go today but I can't. It's 30 min away and my son has a dr appointment @ 4. Only a couple more hours and I wont have to worry about it right?

That's great that you're getting your shot tomorrow morning! It will be okay. It will be over before you know it and you'll start feeling better.

I agree with BethRags that when you're back on the meds things will make more sense to you. It's great you're getting the shot tomorrow morning, you'll start feeling much better soon hopefully

They were so nice! even gave me hot chocolate and candy to take home. It was my old nurse. She thought I moved away. As soon as I found out it was her I was relieved. We're going to use shot day as date day.

**HURRAY!** That's such good news, Mm.

That's a great idea to have date day on shot day! That was nice of them to give you hot chocolate and candy.