[Victoria'smom]

Possible trigger:

So I'm atheist but I'm interested in Christianity yet again. I'm listening to the bible for hours. Starting to believe in ghosts. Usually when I start believing it quickly turns into psychosis. I don't believe I'm going into psychosis. I don't trust myself. How do you know when you're going into psychosis?

[Crazy Hitch]

Usually for me it’s secret messages from God. Or me believing I’m one of the chosen ones like a disciple. Or else me believing that my true mission in life is to preach the word of God to everyone.

[Soupe du jour]

If I even go to mass at all that means I am becoming hyper religious. Last time (some years ago), I went to a 6:30 am mass (yes, 6:30 am). I left angry because of clear changes to the ritual compared to what I remembered. Nevertheless, I still also wanted to go to confession. I had called another Catholic church about it saying that I would need at least one hour, I had so much to confess. They then said I would only get 15 minutes max. In response, I asked how then the confession would be complete. They said the effort enough would be fine. As usual, when manic, I had already created a multi-page history of sins. After all, I hadn't been to confession in a very long time and I am one bad arse woman.

In the end, I never made it to confession. I got side tracked. I also became angry that one of the first things they asked was where they should send the stack of payment envelopes. That is definitely a wet blanket to hyper religiosity.

[Victoria'smom]

H wants me to stop. I raised a few red flags last night. Wanting to go to church and wanting to memorize the complete bible. He worries about the speed I did a 180 on.

[MickeyCheeky]

If it starts becoming uncomfortable for you and your Loved Ones then perhaps it would be best to contact your psychiatrist or family doctor. Being Christian is PERFECTLY fine but it must be something that has to IMPROVE your Life, not make it worse! It is REALLY GOOD that you have your Husband checking out on you at least in my opinion! SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Miguel'smom, your Family, your FriEnds, God, and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!

[*Beth*]

I think I know when I'm hyper religious when I get a specific obsessive pull toward religious doctrine. It starts out (at the very beginning) as a good thing. I feel more faithful, less anxious. Then it kind-of slides into me being responsible for "doing God's work" by
A) Judging what is beneficial for others and society and
B) Actively getting involved with social justice causes.

Then I start getting preachy at people I'm close to - although since I don't specifically mention God, they might think I'm just being intensely or forcefully philosophical, especially about their personal choices, my own, and social justice, in general. By that time I'm feeling chosen by God (or the creative power of the universe, or whatever It is called) for a special and heavy responsibility.

Eventually, I get so intense that I get quite irritable, even to the point of angry persuasion. On some level I'm usually aware of my behavior, but I can't stop myself because of the responsibility I have.

[Victoria'smom]

I spent most of the day listening to the bible. I can't find what I want. Maybe a teen bible will help. I want to know it like a scholar. H says to slow down. I feel stupid because less then 2 days ago this was a settled thing for me. My H is trying to be supportive but in reality he thinks I've lost it.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I do this. When I’m psychotic I hold notions that satan/demons are attacking me and making me self harm. I usually end up ip because it’s so scary

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Crazy Hitch

Usually for me it’s secret messages from God. Or me believing I’m one of the chosen ones like a disciple. Or else me believing that my true mission in life is to preach the word of God to everyone.

Good post. This has been similar to my experience.

[*Beth*]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

I do this. When I’m psychotic I hold notions that satan/demons are attacking me and making me self harm. I usually end up ip because it’s so scary

Ugh. Yeah. This happens to me, too. It's so frightening.