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Old Dec 09, 2020, 03:10 AM
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Been feeling it coming for a week boom its arrived. So horny which isn't really like me. I met up with a guy last night. Now I have guilt feeling. I woke up at 3am by 6am I have been crying, self harming, trying to get the point across how guilt I feel. I don't understand why I'm like this. The guy in question is older, we were close to having sex.... it was and I am disgusted in myself
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Old Dec 09, 2020, 03:39 AM
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Hey take it easy on yourself. No need to be disgusted. It is what it is. Being hyperaroused is par for the course? You didn’t cheat on anyone (I think) nor did you have sex. You can’t change what happened but remind yourself of how you feel right now next time you get horny and you’re hypo. It’s not your thing by the sounds of things but honestly I just don’t think you need to beat yourself up over it. Hang in there!
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Old Dec 09, 2020, 07:49 AM
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Old Dec 09, 2020, 10:50 PM
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I'm not bipolar but I classify myself as hypersexual. I've been in that situation countless times. Though it's not the safest situation to be in sometimes; it's a natural one. Disgusting should be the last thing you label yourself. Be you and never be ashamed of who you are.

Just because it's something you wouldn't normally do doesn't mean you can't do it.

Some of the greatest things in life happen in a moment's notice; it could conversely go the other way also but I don't like to dwell in the negative side of things.

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Old Dec 10, 2020, 02:08 AM
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Love and hugs. I get hyper sexual all the time. My gf lives 7000 miles away. But I dream of holding her in my arms. I ache. Cannot help it. Sex and love go together in me.
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Old Dec 10, 2020, 11:55 AM
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Hey take it easy on yourself. No need to be disgusted. It is what it is. Being hyperaroused is par for the course? You didn’t cheat on anyone (I think) nor did you have sex. You can’t change what happened but remind yourself of how you feel right now next time you get horny and you’re hypo. It’s not your thing by the sounds of things but honestly I just don’t think you need to beat yourself up over it. Hang in there!
Good post, I agree.
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Old Dec 10, 2020, 01:08 PM
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Be kind and forgiving towards yourself. I know the situation feels bad, but it does not define you. Can I ask why you self-harmed? I hope you’re better.
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Old Dec 10, 2020, 02:11 PM
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Be kind and forgiving towards yourself. I know the situation feels bad, but it does not define you. Can I ask why you self-harmed? I hope you’re better.
I don't really know tbh. It kinda happened. I guess it was cause I was so angry with myself. I needed an outlet for the anger. It happened on Wed too I self harmed and it was worse than I did on Tues.
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Old Dec 10, 2020, 08:13 PM
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I've been hypersexual since I was a teen. Aside from the danger aspect (which is real) I think being hypersexual can be a part of the intensity typical of those of us with BD (unless we're depressed). It's a way of expressing extreme energy. My issue was that I'd start wanting many babies. I lost one, which will never stop hurting, but I have two now-adult children who are doing really well in life.


Anyway, please don't beat up on yourself.
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Old Dec 11, 2020, 12:58 PM
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I'm having really bad urges again. I have only slept in my flat Mon and Tues. I have been at my Sister's and now staying at my parents for a few days. I just want sex unfortunately its really intense. Trying to ignore them but its hard been messaging guys. I've restarted Depakote and have stopped oral Aririprazole my 4 weeks were up on Thurs.
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Old Dec 11, 2020, 02:52 PM
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I'm really sorry I just need to talk, the urges are really strong no-one in my life understands anyone free for a chat?
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Old Dec 11, 2020, 03:39 PM
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I'm really trying so hard to just be OK. But I'm really struggling. If anyone has any wise words or tips or hints please let me know
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Old Dec 11, 2020, 05:26 PM
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Do you feel you must have connection with the other person during sex? Because if you don't, there's always self-pleasure...
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Old Dec 11, 2020, 05:59 PM
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Kinda yeah but I can't self pleasure I'm at my parents I don't trust myself to not do something if on my own so I stayed with my Sister Wed, Thurs night and my parents Fri and Sat night I will go home Sun night though
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Old Dec 11, 2020, 07:40 PM
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Well, even while at your parents you can get creative
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Old Dec 12, 2020, 12:39 PM
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I ended up calling at 4am a support help line. The girl was lovely I spoke non stop in an hour. Today I'm horny still. I called a guy looking for sex tbh. What the hell.... I'm at my parents tonight too. I just don't trust myself tbh!
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Old Dec 12, 2020, 11:46 PM
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Well it's nearly 5am been up since 2am.

Tried calling The Samaritans 7 times but it keeps ringing after 5 mins each time I give up plus I feel guilty as there are others who need it more than I do.

I have talked to myself, tired listening to myself

I have written thoughts down

Have written a list of symptoms 19 in total I'm aware of

I just need to talk

No-one is online unfortunately or fortunately for them huh!

Horny as still
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Old Dec 14, 2020, 01:11 PM
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How are you doing today?

I’m married and I got like that while my husband and I were separated. My friend told me to get a toy so I did. It really helped so much and kept me from trying to find someone. If I had started to go out I may have been in the same predicament. I ordered it online and it came in a box to my moms house without any labels on it so nobody knew. It was also waterproof and very quiet.

Are you going through mania or hypomania right now? I’m so sorry you are feeling this way!!
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Old Dec 14, 2020, 06:05 PM
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I'm now really manic, the voices are really hard to deal with. Self harming is a lot. Obsessions and compulsions are a lot harder to deal with.

My therapist told me to call my treatment team so I did. They have upped Depakote to 500mg twice a day starting tonight.

My peer support worker im seeing on Fri is letting me use a room at her office to talk to her as we meet in a cafe

I'm worried I'm really bad mentally at the moment
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Old Dec 15, 2020, 12:02 AM
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I'm now really manic, the voices are really hard to deal with. Self harming is a lot. Obsessions and compulsions are a lot harder to deal with.

My therapist told me to call my treatment team so I did. They have upped Depakote to 500mg twice a day starting tonight.

My peer support worker im seeing on Fri is letting me use a room at her office to talk to her as we meet in a cafe

I'm worried I'm really bad mentally at the moment
I’m so sorry!!! 😔 I’m glad you have a support team. I know you are going to get through this! Hang in there!!!
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Old Dec 19, 2020, 11:04 AM
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I get super hyper sexual and I’m currently dealing with it. It’s been driving me insane. I want to hump everything because of how horny I am. Although I usually just get turned on by things instead of people and I’ve never been in a relationship. I’m demisexual. You only are attracted to people you have a close connection with.
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Old Dec 19, 2020, 11:39 AM
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It's a bloody nightmare still am really horny. I'm trying to keep busy so not to think about it tbh it's not working
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