Questions Bipolar Version #8

I like new things, but try/add them in small amounts, though my recent move is HUGE. Otherwise I do best with my routine. Even after the move I'm trying to get back to some of the old routine, while adapting to the new.

Do you think you're doing enough right now? I know this is an open question, so interpret or apply how you like.

I feel i'm doing some things right, like i did three (3) loads of laundry yesterday and took a shower so i'm all fresh and clean and that feels great. But my eating has been lousy lately and i've been suffering because of it. I have modest goals: just to eat some veg, protein and drink water every day and i haven't been meeting them.

Do you like being a stranger in a strange land or are you a fan of the familiar?

While I haven't traveled much in recent years, I loved globetrotting when I was younger. It's sometimes a bit intimidationg venturing out when you don't have knowledge of native languages but, fortunately, some basic English knowledge isn't uncommon in most places. (I tried to avoid being an "Ugly American," though.)

What is the farthest you've ever ventured from your home? What was it like?

The farthest i've gone is Corfu, Greece. The sea was a beautiful turquoise and as i was a student travelling on a budget i slept on a cot on a rooftop with forty other people. It was completely peaceful, no theft or misbehavior. Lovely weather is very conducive to good behavior for humans.

Do your nightmares have themes?

I used to dream about being attacked every single night, but now I just have some really weird dreams about my old job too, but I wouldn't consider them nightmares (though I would quit 100x if they happened in real life)?

Choose one: Neon or pastel

neon all day!

do you remember your very first therapy session?. how did you feel doing it for the first time. scared?. excited?. bit of both?

Yes my first visit with a therapist was when I was 16. I remember he had on argyle socks and that he pronounced me a "normal teenager" after one session.

Are there some of your memories which you can't believe actually happened?

Memories no, but I have times when I question reality. Especially if my environment changes too quickly. Just to give an example one day at work I was sitting down with eight people and we’re all just kind of joking before work started. I got up to get a cup of coffee about 10 feet from the table By the time I was done pouring my coffee everyone from that table disappeared. I mean they were nowhere in sight and our cafeteria is easily the size of a football field. What did everyone sprint to the Call Center? So naturally I started questioning was I just sitting there talking to myself? Like wtf! If you could just pick up and go somewhere else, would you?

Right now, no. I'm eager to adjust to my new home environment. It would sure be nice if the pandemic would end soon, though. However, I am not one that thinks people should pretend that it is, when it's not. I've been watching a little US news and am a bit concerned how quickly, and fully, some US states are opening up, as if it is over with. I find that ignorant and juvenile-like behavior. Sorry, but I do.

Do you enjoy being an adult? If so, what is it you like over childhood? And I ask this not with any specific aspects of your personal childhood (like if your parents hurt you), but childhood in general.

I struggle with adulthood.

1: I didn't have a proper childhood, so now I want to make up for it and live like a kid

2:. when it comes to adult terms and adult words, I'm useless. I can't think of an example off the top of my head, but I think like a child, so anything thrown at me that sounds adult, or is meant to sound adult, I don't see it that way

3: their's a tun of aded pressure being an adult, which often I can't handle

4: I struggle with emotions. again, it's hard to really give an example, but I think of them like a child

5: I don't know where I am or where I'm going. at least as a kid I had school and rooteen to help with that stuff

6: I have a lot more mental/ physical health issues now

1 thing I do like baout adulthood (it's not all bad), I like being free and able to do what I want- not be bossed around by parents or anyone else. I quickly learned to love that fact, even before I grew out of my teens. I am a strong person, nad if I believe something should be done, I will get it done- despite what others say about it
how do you respond when someone makes a comment to you about your appearance/ hygiene?. if a good comment, do you take it well?, and do you respond to bad comments?

If it's a good comment I just say "thanks, I try" and if it's bad I just joke about it.

Do you prefer your appointments earlier in the day to get them over with or later in the day?

Later in the day I'm not a morning person I function better in the afternoon

Question: What is your favourite accent? What's your worst accent?

May sound trite, but I do think French accents are particularly lovely. As for least favorite, I'd be reluctant to say, if I had one. Certainly some accents reflect "harsher sounding" languages than others, but I think a lovely sweet voice counteracts any harsher accent.

Other than your native language, what second language do you know the most of? Even if you can speak it well.

spanish, I guess

well at least, I know what hello is which is more than I can say for any other language... so yeah, spanish

what is one thing you wish you could change about your current treatment

Easy: no more teletherapy and telehealth as an option only!



Do you pick up your mail every day?

Yes, yes I do. Except when I forget.

Do you enjoy holidays?

travel holidays- no. holidays like christmas and easter, sure.
when you wake up in the middle of the night, do you struggle to go back to sleep?. or do you go back to sleep fine

In recent months, I can get back to sleep fairly quickly. Sometimes I have to either get a drink of water or eat a yogurt (my secret sleep-inducer) to do so. At other times, if some level of manic, I have more trouble. Most of the trouble is more not feeling like sleeping more, more than any desperate wish to.

Do you have a favorite drinking mug or glass? What does it look like?

Yeah, it's a xmas present from my mom. It's the biggest mug I've ever had so it holds lots of tea/coffee/hot chocolate and it says "MY BRAIN HAS TOO MANY TABS OPEN" which...is fitting.

How do you learn to trust yourself again after an episode where you were detached from reality or at least made very questionable decisions?

I had something similar happen at work 25 years ago. I was sitting in my cubicle and I had my head down on the desk taking a few seconds relaxation when I felt someone tap me on my shoulder. I sat up and there was noone in my cubicle and I looked down the long walkway outside my cubicle and nobody! There was no time where the person couldve moved that fast to not be seen between when I felt the tap and when I looked around.

a mug with the word " emma" written on it (emma refering to the jane austen book). I got it as a freebie, and for that matter, a pretty good freebie too!.

do you like lady gaga's music?

I do. And Lady Gaga herself. I think "Shallow" is beautiful. I will say I liked her earlier songs better than her very recent dance club stuff.

What decade's music do you like best?

Mid 80’s - mid 90’s.

If you could have any kind of home, what would it be like?

I would have a penthouse suite in a tall building with skylights as i crave natural light and like living in sturdy buildings.

When you get up, does it take you a while to wake up and what sorts of things do you do to help wake up?

I have to have a few cups of coffee & read the newspapers on my tablet before I'm fit to talk to.

Have you ever studies any foreign languages? Which ones, & how successful were you?